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Got To Live Like We're Dying

2009-12-05T23:19:00.003+08:00

Sometimes we fall down and can't get back up
We're hiding behind skin that's too tough
How come we don't say I love you enough
Till it's too late, it's not too late.

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come
We could make a feast from these crumbs
And we're all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you
What would you wish you would've done?

Yeah... gotta start
Lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start pickin it
Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
Gotta live like we're dying.

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying.

And if your plane fell out of the skies
Who would you call with your last goodbyes
Should be so careful who we live out our lives
So when we long for absolution
There'll no one on the line.

We never know a good thing till it's gone
You never see a crash until it's head on
All those people right when we're dead wrong
You never know a good thing till it's gone.

Yeah... gotta start
Lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start livin it
Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
Gotta live like we're dying.

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying.

To Joy & To Ponder.

2009-10-27T23:38:00.004+08:00

Fadilah Hamid, or affectionately referred to as Dee, just dropped a huge bombshell surprise on me while chatting on facebook. After months/years of no news, she finally came up with a good one. Hahahsgshg!.
She's going to be engaged soon and invited me for the occasion.
Wow what a surprise.
20.
I'm twenty, and that question never even crossed my mind. Ok, actually it did, but for purely egoman reasons, I just shrugged off the whole thoughts.
I've still have got to complete my NS, and resume my studies and subsequently find a career in a field which I've yet to made a clear stand on.
Ok, I admit, I'm pretty much messed/fcuked up.
And here we have Fadilah, and I picture her running slow-mo in an open field full of blooming daisies, with golden sun shining upon her hair and wind just a subtle breeze; metaphorically making everything a breeze in life..

Anyhoos, I would like to congratulate her for her upcoming engagement to Mr__________.

Ok,I find it extremely rude to put his name as a blank. But what to do, I really dont have a clue. Just have to wait for the invitation card in the mail then ;)
Oh, and she threatened to severe friendship ties in the event that I don't turn up for the occasion. Hahahsg. Don't worry Dee, I will, Insya'Allah.

Moving on,

I've been making lots of reflections lately, as I stare into blank space during work breaks, wake up time while lying on the bed, and of course, in the magical toilet room.

Ok, maybe I shan't write it here. I'm bad at translating emotions into words.
Aquarius babies are known to be expressive in terms of creativity but inexpressive in terms of true emotions.

But still to sum it up, I think I've broken too many promises. I'm going to unintentionally break one more soon.

Ouch.

2009-10-24T04:28:00.007+08:00

I remembered, the day Nadiah and me restlessly pranced outside T3's studio.
It was our first time to conduct a workshop and we knew just above nuts.
The spirit, the passion, the energy; it can only come right from the heart.
From there, it was born.

Ahai...
Sang Singa... Purba...
Ahai...
Sang Singa... Purba...
Ahai...
Sang Singa...
Purba!
Purba!
Purba!

This is not for credit and it may mean nuts to others as it is as simple as it can be that even a chimpanzee can come up with a nicer tune.
But I think when Diah and I thought of it, the purpose was simple and pure;
To get everyone in tune together as one.

Funny People.

2009-10-09T13:25:00.002+08:00

Its not the movie my fellow humans.
Its about actual friends, people that you and me actually know.
Funny lah these people.

I think on the last count, I think I already did camps with 50+ different schools.
That totalled up to about 150 days; about 4+ months of observing different people, spotting their strengths and weaknesses and body languages.
I'm not saying that I'm an expert, but I think I know what I see and hear.
There are people who just wants to seek for attention, people who are disturbed and hiding something, and so much more..

So it came as a surprise that someone wanted to act in such a manner that made me feel as if he/she wanted to make me look like a fool or perhaps stupid enough to fall for that .. The fake going-to-breakdown and quavering of voice? Keewack, takleh seret siol..

And I'm an actor too?
Hahahs.
Funny lah these People.

I think they've not known me well to understand that that is how I comment when I see a show. Too bad uh. Its better that I comment first rather than the actual audience comment. Lagi malu Joe...

Just a reminder;
Never ask what someone can do for you, instead always question what you can try to do for others. There's no point in waiting for help.

And suddenly yesterday Singapore full of kind people.
I had my BTT test at 1030am. I reached Eunos MRT at 1030am. Hahagsh. Biasa jugak Nizal.. So while I was waiting at the busstop, this chinese uncle and his wife approached me and asked whether I knew how to get to CDC. I mentioned the bus number and told him he could follow me since I was heading to the same place too. Then he asked if it was possible to flag down a taxi at the busstop and I said he could try if he wanted to. He flagged a taxi and gestured for me to get in and at the spur of the moment I just followed cause I was late for the test already. Hahagsg. Like so good like that take cab with a total stranger.. The feeling like so wow and boomz!

Siollah Ris Low, I cant believe you made me use the word boomz in my blog. Hagagshsg.

Anyway I passed my BTT. One step closer to a license!
And my vocationmate just told me that our TP is forwarded to 3rd Dec instead of 28 Dec. Kening naik naik ma mannnnn......

Then after CDC, went for lunch at Bedok at LJS. It was raining and I was smoking at a staircase near a secluded spot cause I was in uni. And I was staring into the rain when an apek came and asked if I wanted to share his umbrella to crossover the carpark to go over to the opposite block. So I politely said no and said that I was waiting for someone. Ok, pandai, tunggu orang kat tepi cerok.. Hahasgshags.

But still, yesterday I think it was supposed to be World Apek Good Day that no one knew.

Anyway just to add, Jihad handed me like a stack of coins when I didnt have coins to take the bus to Al-Azhar cause my ezlink was running low.. Ok, he can be included as an apek also. Hahahs. Just joking uh Jihad. Peace no war.

Anyway, L's going back to Bangkok on Nov 1st.
I dont know how to feel.

Gonna be posted out to NPC on Monday. Like finally!

1 year & 20 days later.

2009-09-03T20:57:00.004+08:00

Oh hello blogosphere, after a very long long long hiatus, I'm back. Its been like what?; 1 year 2 months since I last update? Blogging skills should be rusty by now. As you can see, the skin had been updated, like last month?, but I fell asleep while editing it and hadnt blogged till now.

I bet most of you have struck off my blog-link off your pages. I'd understand why. But I know many people have been visiting hoping for an update. Sorry to disappoint you guys..

And so yeap, some things had changed, some people dont change, HDB gets lift upgrading, the sun still rises from the east, I still cant walk on the right, and ofcourse, Micheal Jackson is dead.

So what has the past year bring for me, you'd ask? Many, I'd tell you. Its like the sinetron soap drama buih buih Days of Our Lives.

I think after the previous entry, I continued on working at swensens and camelot. Got an "express" promotion as part time supervisor at swensens. Hahahs. I think alot of experience and memories gained there since I first started in late 2005.

Then came NS, like wtfish. Bo pian lah, go through with it. Its a real eye opener. You meet new people, new perangai's and "best" of all live with them. My NS basic course wasnt generic cause was selected for NDP09. So instead of four months, I stayed there for 6+mths just to complete the basic; not including the vocation training mind you. Its like going for NS basic training twice.

NDP 09 experience was great. I was eager to participate and gain the experience. Experience sought, telling myself never am I going to do it again. Hahasghs. We werent really appreciated and most of us felt used, thats all I've got to say.

Got my vocation as NPCO.
Free Class 3 license! Woohoo.
My TP is scheduled for 28Dec.
Kening naik naik ala Cadbury advertisement.
Cant wait to pass, after that can drive around. Mariah plans to do a trip to Malaysia. That I really cant wait. You guys out there just pray for me that I pass the first time round.

I think thats all the updates I can afford to give. I realised that this post is damn boring.. Like I said, my blogging has karat abit. Maybe next entry I can start thinking of nonsense again.

2008-08-14T02:39:00.002+08:00

the sunlight vanished.

the air stood still.

the rhythmic chant ensues.

alamak wa binget ah!

ok, semuanya bangkang bangkang, abeh aku nak blog ape seh.

anyway betty has been really sick. whenever i wake her up, she makes some clicking sound and sounds like some metronome.

oh, anyway updates about camp, after yishun i did bowen and changkat changi after that.

Bowen was mauts. On nak mampus uh. Fuyoh fuyoh!

Highlights for that that school was definitely the dragonboat expedition, braving the choppy waters paddling macam nak rak sakk and the sudden downpour didnt help.

I think Bowen is one of my favourite schools.

Changkat Changi was ok. The guys were - . Except for some, if i can recall their names, Aidyl and Hyder and apelagi uh. The girls were far better. But changkat changi not that memorable uh.

And oh, on NDP I stayed at the Furama Hotel and saw the fireworks from the 16th storey. Cool shit kepe. Then straight after that went for a swim. Action tourist sikit uh.. Hahahgagsh. And we went to Adam Rd for supper which taste like shit.

I realised that blogging not using my own laptop is so not gerek uh. Dont have that feel uh.. Macam tak shiok gitu. Fuck uh, i need to repair the laptop soon.

2008-07-13T20:28:00.003+08:00

This week was a struggle.

Right from the very beginning.

Heritage Fest is making me nervous like hell lah till I can pee in my pants. The constant cardiac arrest that Betty is having makes it even worse but I managed to complete the script and atleast clear that part.
Then when I got back from camp rushed to SP for the rehearsal. Did script reading scene by scene with the casts. And now i need to change some stuffs. Everything doesnt feel right.

Anyway after the rehearsal, we went for supper at Al-ameen. Had chats and then had revamps for the scripts. Supposedly to go home cause I was tired from the camp, but end up we were there till 9AM the next morning at McDons Beauty World.
The session was kekek to the max uh. Jep cepat upload the videos.
Imagine singing loudly oriental tunes in the wee hours and also singing a song about a buah cherry.
Bunyi je dah salah seh.
Oh, and the funny moves to the samsui song!
Kiwak, kekek tok tok cheng uh.
I'll upload the videos if Jeff uploaded it already.

Anyway, for camp,
Last Tuesday was a mad rush to Changi during the evening. Cause apparently briefing for camps now start a lot sooner, 8PM instead of the usual 10pm.
But still, when I arrived there we started at only around 930?
So doesnt make a difference to the original timing.
And yup, only like 3 weeks away from doing camp, I felt abit weird.
Ok, more of like slacked.
Hahahs.
But truthfully speaking, some stuffs kinda changed down there. Like suddenly alot of changes.

Anyway paired with Fizzy.
Kids called her Maggie and they call me Myojo.
Baguslah tuh, promote instant noodles.

But first day during the GS, while helping the kids for the station, her bone from the forepalm? (opposite side of palm) protruded.
Panic at the disco siak!

So Joanna was called up last minute to take over. And we did have fun uh.
And oh, I learnt a something new from Zulie .
She calls minahs "Lipas" cause their needle-thin eyebrows looks like feelers from the cockroach.
Kekek mak iloi iloi kepe.

I had a throbbing migraine during the day leading into the night. It was fucking cibai hot lah siak.
Yah, I just peeled my skin from my burnt nose.
Campfire was ok. I lost my mood for a couple of reasons.
I think all of us know what.

Then theres this two ahlians who was so fucking irritating. cibai puki maha taraf maxima global punya.
Ok, lets see some pictures already.

Oh, that video of the healthy man was quite well received.
My friends praised him for being having high self-confidence and esteem. And thats the whole purpose actually.
Aizat even taught the kids to dance like he did I think. Kecoh kepe. Nak bukak fan club?

OK, so here we end it here with something I find funny.

2008-07-07T03:17:00.002+08:00

Funny like hell siak!

Anyway i was bloghopping to find some interesting reads and i stumbled upon this blog by a girl who has AIDS. I believe she's malay. Cause there's no facial pictures of her, only blurred and graphic-ied pictures. Oh, one of the songs she posted was by Siti Nurhaliza and thus the assumption. Anyway there were lots of interesting things that can be read on. Not exactly topics power but, i'm amazed at how she expressed her feelings to the mass through anonymity.

Oh yes, she and I share a common tragedy for a start and reading her entry on that made me feel abit better that someone is actually wearing my shoes. Its just this "negative in a positive" kind of way. Understand? Dont understand go skip to next paragraph.

Ok, the end.

But before that, lets watch and learn some jiggle jiggle. He is so my guru grand babat. Totally made making mayonnaise an easy feat for all to learn.

till the next post.

2008-07-05T15:42:00.005+08:00

helllo humans.
i'm finally back.

so you've been thinking,
"what the hell is that moron doing seyy. the blog is like tapai basi already".
fret not my fellow humans.

so it goes that i am very very free but always preoccupied nowadays.
i dont have school yet i find myself busy. tsk.
correct or not L?

and i remembered a promise to L that i'd blog in english so that she can read my blog without asking a translator. i try lah eh.

so lets talk about this world of ours infested with weird creatures like you and me.
one day i met a friend, and while chatting after dinner,

she said, "do you realize that after you eat, sometimes you feel very airy?"
i said, "like gas?"
she said, "no like air. very the senak."
i said, "try kentot ah. "
she said, "tak tak, bukan macam kentot punyer..!"
i said, "then what? last time my grandma kerok pakai sendok seyy."

and we left that issue at that. and so the chats continued for nearly an hour. and out of the blue she shouted,

"akahlah! aku kentot abestu terus comfortable seyy!"

haiyo. 19 and still dont know something as simple as that. alah actually i know why she acted dumb. hahas. she wanted to fart badly but paiseh so makup up a story lor.
i know you're gonna read this, so is my guess correct?

aku tampho kang....

hahhahagshs.

anyway, SSP is having a performance on the 26th at Suntec. and the script was finished like 5mins before this entry started.

cool shit kepe.

and oh, i found a newterm in the Manja magazine.
it said that if a person's hair is uncombed and looks like a mess, its called
RAMBUT ZONGZENG.

ok. i shall add somemore and call it, "RAMBUT ZONGZENG TONG TONG CHENG"
cool shit kepe.

and its rambutan season. and the trees near my blocks are full of them and theres this apek with a gunny sack jolok-ing them. while i was walking with my sister to shengsiong this morning, the apek step malu malu kitty when we walked past him.

jolok jangan tak jolok ye pek.
but the main message that i want to say is actually about me waking up at 8 to go have breakfast and market on a saturday morning.

ohkay, for me everyday is a saturday if you get what i mean.

ok humans. i'm dead beat sleeeeeeeepyyyyy.
its 4pm and what a great time to sleep.

rock a my babi
sleep like a log.

but before that, lets hav some pictures.

i think mas selamat is hiding here. get the pun?

KOONING!KOONING!KOONING!
quackquackquackquackquack!

wah, Wano sure was pissed off.

SSP Camp was a blast.

after the screening of bujang lapok.

boyband album cover

"lets take an artistic picture, stand in a line and pose artistically"

our dream characters

2008-07-04T18:56:00.002+08:00

Watermelons contain an ingredient called citrulline that can trigger production of a compound that helps relax the body's blood vessels, similar to what happens when a man takes Viagra, said scientists in Texas, one of the nation's top producers of the seedless variety.

Found in the flesh and rind of watermelons, citrulline reacts with the body's enzymes when consumed in large quantities and is changed into arginine, an amino acid that benefits the heart and the circulatory and immune systems.

"Arginine boosts nitric oxide, which relaxes blood vessels, the same basic effect that Viagra has, to treat erectile dysfunction and maybe even prevent it," said Bhimu Patil, a researcher and director of Texas A&M's Fruit and Vegetable Improvement Center. "Watermelon may not be as organ-specific as Viagra, but it's a great way to relax blood vessels without any drug side effects."

Taken from:
Yahoo! News | By BETSY BLANEY,Associated Press Writer AP - Friday, July 4

No wonder i felt kinda horny after SSP's camp telematch.

I'd be back.

2008-06-25T02:15:00.002+08:00

Like what my friend Mr Arnold told me,

while we were escaping from being hunted down by future robots,

thats what I'm gonna say to you guys too.

I ' D . B E . B A C K

Its like a countdown of the trafficlights.

I'm waiting for my blogging's trafficlight mood to turn green.

So till then, take take.

Get the joke?

You're boring.

Sajak Pusara

2008-05-08T22:38:00.004+08:00

Lambaian ramah udara metah,

Kelembapan merangkak tiba.

Kemboja bunga cantik berseri,

baunya harum tenangkan hati.

Langkah tanah dicetak teliti,

rumpai merunjam jari-jemari kaki.

Gusar perasaan mula mengisi,

malu-malu dicabut hapus ketepi.

Batu kerikil kusam kelabu,
enam tahun sudah berlalu.

Bunga jelita dicacak berdiri,

tidak setanding kasih yang diberi.

Hadiah doa mula dikumit,

hati tangis hendak menjerit,

biasa jugak mesti maintain cool shit sikit.

Nafas dihela menoleh ketepi,

cuba menelan gelojoh, realiti.

Tinggalkan kasih dimakam sepi,

satu-satunya permaisuri tiada ganti.

Gurit Pusara

Jumaat 09/05/08

12:12AM

2008-05-05T23:32:00.003+08:00

I realised I'm lazy to talk about my life anymore. So expect pictures from now on readers.

lacuna

2008-04-22T00:33:00.004+08:00

Lacuna.

Stop and stare

I think I'm moving but I go nowhere

Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared

But I've become what I can't be, Oh

Stop and stare

You start to wonder why you're 'here' not 'there'

And you'd give anything to get what's fair

But fair ain't what you really need

Oh, can you see what I see?

Sometime in life, you just dont know what to do anymore.

You just feel like living on Ubin, away from everything.

Cause right now,

I'm spiralling down deeper into my own fantasy conundrum.

I cant escape.

2008-04-03T01:07:00.003+08:00

Sorry guys for the uber long disappearance. I think you guys are used to it anyway. The truth is, I wasnt really scheduled to be busy till 31st March. I just dont understand why they'd always last minute look for GI's.

And so, on the 24th, I was on the net till 6am watching online shows. So after that snug into bed, only to be woken up at 750am (vibrations at my neck) to the horny and cheeky voice of Khai Camelot. Aku really didnt expect to get a call that early lah siak. And so, apparently he was looking for a GI to replace Dee. Wahh, aku punyer kemalasan bin ketakkuase-an macam membuak buak so I told him to give me 10 mins while I think (READ: go back to sleep).

Yes, I did fell asleep. And was woken up again by another call, this time round by another makhluk Tuhan yang tidak ku kenali. Turn out it was LiYing/LiTing/LiLing/Li____. She sounded desperate over the phone and so I gave in. Ok, the fact that she called me personally and that she's the boss's daughter did made a teenywheeny effect on my decision making. Hahahs!

So off I throdd to Changi at noon with sleepy eyes. Decided to meet Aida at Tanah Merah and cab there.

And then it went like how it should be. Until the second night that is. Sumore was taking Queensway Sec, NT sumore. So, I was really looking forward to breaking camp cause I only slept for 5 hours within tthat 2 days. Blame the bed bugs that had the trainers squatting under the dorms killing them using lighters at 3am cause the kids got bitten till some had their whole body all red.

And then, I got a call from Kenneth, the Rojak guy. He's half chinese, half indian and speaks malay like your matrep next door. Hahahs. Turned out last minute the ubin group didnt have enough GI. Wahseh, wa punya hott. Cause when I enquired the week before, they told me confidently that there were no vacancies and that they had more than enough. Which makes me think, how come if they did had more than enough, why are they still looking for people the night before the camp?

Haiyo.

At Ubin beb. I wouldnt want to miss it since I passed the chance the last time cause apparently I felt I wasnt ready. And oh, the people going there were those gerek people ! Adi, Suzana, Nisa, Noris, Ahmad, Kenneth, Hafiz, Kelvin. And there was a new girl. I couldnt see well at night but still she looked familiar. Sakinah rupernyer. My BPGHS senior.

*Pause-sey*OK, aku dah malas nak type panjang panjang in detail.So sumer shortcut.

Hougang PrimaryUbin.
Excited. Shiok. Second night tido dalam jacuzzi. Kat sane panas terik bahang nak mampus. Cikgu Hougang primary gerek to the max. Belikan air tebu dan goreng pisang Changi dan aku sengaje kunyah dan sedut depan budak budak kasi jealous. Jumpe jam tangan yang ade electronic compass tunjuk arah kiblat. Mase trekking halfway ade budak ni sesak nafas, so aku piggyback him, abeh mase ngah chang, dier buat sex noises dekat telinge aku sebab dier kononnyer dah penat sangat. Pukimak tol. But there's this adorable malay boy yang biler bebual aku tak dengar suare. Balik camp rush to Changi collect pay, then all the trainers makan kat Hougang.

MLS Camp.
Sampai je muke macam siak.Aku malas nak layan. So went to "help out" with SMA's camp night walk. Sofie was like ; "Eh, I scream like a girl!". Like what the fish?! She is a girl. Theres 2 guys holding hands screaming and running after I did the Kakak ngilai and throwing a hanger I found. Then we proceed to the basketball court where I slept while they talk about ghosts. Morning Epeyn and Afiq bought roti prata. Then aku balik stakat nak buat brownies. Then tertido kat sofa. And then ade member prangai macam siak. SSP's performance was the bomb. Boleh tahan gereck. Aku bebual ngan campers pon asa boleh hembus. Matair Nad blanja Canadian's. Aku radak lagi padahal baru makan McDons. Then aku Haddad Mai and Sash overnite lagik. Lepak kat Mobe abeh dengar budak budak complain. Baru hang tau manusia manusia yang akan hangpa kena layan. Then lepak kat rooftop redroom bentang sleeping bag. Then dah pagi shift inside redroom. Abeh dorang tengok kiter macam tak pernah nampak manusie tido gitu. Pi mampos . Bukannyer aku baring tido telanjang bogel or tengah merendekk ke hape ke.

This is how I say my prayers y'all !

Bugis with Asmida.
It was an impromptu decision. As call aku tanyer pasal ape tah. Then dah letak phone baru aku realised dier dekat ngan bugis so call her back and dier cakap ok nak teman aku carik barang. Ate at TongSeng then jalan jalan kat bugis street. Jumpe berms and short sleeve shirt yang ade epaulet or what fuck its called. Then duduk luar 7-11 borak borak sampai nearly 11 tak salah. Oh! As dah print gambar holga and it turned out lawa nak mamps.

BP Band / Pasta Mania with Nabila.
Went back to BPGHS at TeckWhye to see the band. Nightmare siak. Everything hancho. Standard jatuh gedebuk ke lantai sampai tembus ke China siak. Abeh hentak kaki weak nak mampos macam nenek dier punye ipar punyer laki yang banyak kocok tupasal lutut takleh angkat tinggi tinggi. Abeh adeke si SL&ASL marah budak budak ketawe ketawe bebual suare mcm tengah nak sek. Abeh yang si ASL suke hati makcik tiri dier je angkat instrument punyerlah rendah. Anyway Ira, Zin, Nad ade tapi darling aku Naquiah takde plak. Rindu serindu-rindunya beb. After that got a msg from Nabila, so decided to meet for dinner. Since she was from BBDC, so met at Westmall. Banyak banyak tempat, Westmall jugak. Ate Pasta Mania. Had a great chat and then we bought drinks and lepak at the opposite block till like 9 plus sebab ade budak tu ade test the next day.

Casuarina Primary.
Hahahs. Aku jadi IC. HAhahhs. Kene kacau rabak rabak siak.Aku dah lah stress kancheong kingkong siak. Abeh in the morning mase nak buat api untuk outdoor cooking, api termati so aku confident yang bara belom jadi. Step terror rambutan pi pegang tu arang barehand. Jeng jeng jeng, terbakar jari. Tekujut sejenak siot. Abe aku ngan Izwan sampai duduk bersile sebab kayu ngan daun basah abeh sabut kelape jumpe setakat sebesar hamster.minyak tanah aku carik tak jumpe sampai patah balik 2 kali. Kalau dekat takpe jugak. Rupernyer tersembunyi dibawah beg. Kuih ciputan betol. Oh, ade budak hyperactive dalam group aku. He keeps running away sebab nak kentot. Cilaka punya babi.

Canberra Secondary.

Nothing much. They were hyperactive on the first day. But second day sumer lemau. I thought gonna be gereck like Admiralty sec. Tapi boring uh. Like normal camps, nothing special. Even the student leaders for my group macam malas nak layan.

hougangpri/mlscamp/as/nabila/

2008-04-02T23:42:00.002+08:00

Reply to tags;
fil: boleh tahan belambak kau tag aku. suke hati nampak...

fuad: alah kau ingat tak mase main pool kat Jeast kiter takle concentrate main sebab lupe name alas buku. hahas, yeah aku nak jadi mcm Steve Erwin. Snaaakkeey mate ! Anyway ni mesti ade pape ni tau. Mesti bende tak senonoh. HAhahs.

[j]eff: hahas. biasa ah beb. kalau senyap je maner shiok.

matt[: : I do lah shorty. You're the smallest and shortest sec 3 camper that I've taken. How's you?

MICH: sorry, are you a girl/boy? michelle/micheal? Hahas. Opps, but I think i can remember faces.

mariah: self-denial nampak.. self-denial nampak...

saf: yeah, sec 3 camp. eyh tak perasan lah. sorreh.

PIN/TO/Goodbye

2008-03-24T00:15:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, I dreamt that I was at the ATM wanting to withdraw some money. Then when I pressed my PIN, they refused to accept it. Like frantically I tried over and over again but still t wasnt accepted. [for some reasons, in dreams, they dont telan your card. hahas.]

And I dont know from where di dalam pelusuk ceruk benak aku I had the idea that they would only accept Mama's Pin for my account. But the freaking thing was that I couldnt remember what her PIN was. And I remembered in the dream that I was so freaking pissed off cause I was always the one pressing the PIN for Mama. And I even used the telephone there to shout at the operator from the customer service centre saying I dont fucking remember what the PIN was.

Even when I woke up, I was still trying to recall that PIN. It was as if that PIN meant the world for me when in actual fact, it doesnt really matter that much. And in that quest, I recalled gazillions of numbers, but none felt right.

For those who didnt know, I am the type that cant stop thinking till I get my answer for any random question.

Flashback to Fuad's Rehal, Jeff's NangNak and Suzana's Mastura Ahmad.

And then I stopped thinking and watched MANdai UNITED while munching on Sultanas biscuits. Kunyah punyer kunyah punyer kunyah, JENGJENGJENG!

263534!

Punyerlah senang tu PIN datang. Waste time aje aku perah otak nak recall.
Ok, dah dapat. Aku happy. Hahahhashg, aku tau aku weird.

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Anyway yesterday went out with Mariah and Jeffry. Hahahs. One is Swensen's, one is SSP. Ok pe, gerek pe.. Eh jap, sebelum aku mula story, aku nak terangkan sikit ah eh.

Mariah, actually the day before aku dah plan nak pi Bugis ngan kau per.. Abeh later that night si Sarah quack quack MSN ajak tengok wayang tapi in the end tak jadi. So natijahnyer ialah kau bukan backup plan aku.... Even kalau wayang tu menjadi boleh join per.. Lepastu kiter jalan sendiri uh. Aiseyman, abe semalam emo siak. Jiwe lare betol ah. HAhahahs.

So anyway planning ngan Mariah nak pi Bugis tak menjadi sebab due due rase malas yang membuak buak macam kuah meerebus berkanji. In the end West Mall jugak. Decided to watch The Orphanage. So dah beli ticket pi dinner dulu kat PHut. Then ajak Jeff join sekali. Then ahah! I bought my bottle ! Murah beb. Kompem tak kene curi punyer.

Anyway I didnt know that the movie was in Spanish. Macam choochoo train siak dorang bebual. There was even a "character" called Pepe. Sila pronounce menggunakan 'e' pepet. Hahahs. Kekek mak iloi iloi beb. It was scary but Jeff and I made jokes about everything. Aku rase kiter memekak siak. Abestu macam paham predict every scene. Hahahs!

On the whole, a simple but superb plot with a twist at the end. Yeah, it wasnt that scarylah, only one horrid character. Favourite part is the part where that woman kena langga van/bus/lorry. Whoah, tekujut sejenak siot. Muka dia jambu beb, macam nak sap lidah sama dia siak.

Hahahs. Aku ngah gelak rolling rolling atas katil siol.

After movie, lepak outside WM with the Swensen's people. Then Jeff and I went off to JEC for pool and supper. Reached home 230? ENtah, aku tak check time.

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Satu demi satu tapak aku ngorak lalu pergi aku tinggalkan mereka.

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Mayflower sec

2008-03-20T21:56:00.004+08:00

Fuck lah. Aku malas.

Anyway I was hoping to do Mayflower Sec camp. But hell no. Lucky I didnt. I think they are boring. Yeah like WTF.

So I got an offer to belay instead. Ahah! The last time I was not confident enough to make a fool of myself infront of the kids, but this time round, fret not. Yeah so on Tuesday morning I woke up readily at 715am [amazing kan?] and left at 815. Took bus 157 to JTH then transfer to 180 to CDANS and reached at 9. And I waited under the chalet instead of going straight to the activity area before realising that I had to go inside the forested area.

And yeah, belaying was cool. Just that the kids were irritatingly not paying attention. But after a while, my right shoulder hurt alittle so I changed to left hand. Takleh lah siak. My left hand - eye coordination is bad seh. And it helped that we cancelled one session due to the rain.

And second day was the best. Morning went to the kedai mama nearby CDANS to buy bread and redbull for Aida. And I dont know if the mama is pekak or doesnt understand malay. Cause I was shouting at him asking for epok epok sardine. And he doesnt know what I want. He even asked if I was looking for the newspapers.

Like WTF, BERITA HARIAN & EPOK-EPOK doesnt the slightest bit sound alike. Pagi pagi dah kasi aku dang-amok. Ape je.

And so we got ready and did two sessions before having lunch. And then, during lunch it rained heavily. ALHAMDULILLAH. So Aida, Yus, Sky and I lepak at the chalet upstairs and practically waste time waiting for the rain to stop. And we managed to sleep from 2-5pm. Gerek kepe tido dapat gaji? Hahahs.

And oh, they got a snake. Yeah the House Wolf Snake. Its small about an adult's forearm length I think. yeah, probably one or two weeks old. Tu maknenye ade mak bapak ular dalam tu hutan ngan shiok shiok main and ular ni ader adik beradik and sepupu sepipit yang lain yang boleh aku tangkap bawak balik jadi pet aku. HAHAHS!

A Juvenile House Wolf Snake

Some of you might know that aku memang nak a pet snake. Its like uber cool uh siak.
Takpe takpe, one day my friend.

Oh here snakeey snakeey...

Anyway, if you have the chance, go look for Elegant Bronzeback/ Kopstein's Bronzeback and the Brahminy Blind snake. Oh yeah, the Malayan Whip Snake is mauts too. The eyes lawa lah siak. But many people mistook it for the venomous Pit Viper and thus kills it. Bodoh punyer manusia.

Elegant Bronzeback / Kopstein's Bronzeback

Malayan Whip Snake

The Bronzeback is damn jambu lawa nak mampos and the Brahminy is just a blind snake the size of earthworms. And they can be found in your own backyard.

K ape ape ah eh. Aku malas nak bebual lagi.

Photos taken from :
http://singaporesnakes.blogspot.com
Go there to learn more about the different types of snakes found in Singapore!

2008-03-14T14:23:00.000+08:00

Bad news.

Admiralty Sec & Sengkang Pri

2008-03-14T01:46:00.009+08:00

Wahseh, the weather damn bad seyh this few days. Raining non-stop.

Anyway 6-8th did Admiralty Sec camp.
First day at the school already felt that they are a very ON group. Actually when I found out that we're going to do ADSS, I was a bit stressed for some reason ah. [Refer: Tampinese, Bedok & Woodlands and you'll get the drift.] Anyway when Ahmad introduced me to them, suddenly can hear some giggling and squealing from the girls. And I thought, wahseh, mati ah have to layan this girls.

And oh yeah, my buddy is Andrea, a lovely girl actually. Everything also okgo.

Sexy Zal & Andrea Baby

And so due to the bad weather, had to stay indoors and do tons of team building games. And then because of that, most of them lost interest and someone actually attitude go and sleep while I was talking. Makkau, you know how that feels? Like seriously fucked up inside siak. So was desperately trying to catch their attention remain focused. In then end I was just so freaking mad at them that I just kept quiet. So throughout the day from lunch till dinner I let Andrea talk to them while I mind my own business. And since they dont want to listen to me, when they asked me a question, i just kept talking to Andrea and didnt give a damn.

Hahahs. Ok, actually that part drama abit ah.

Before dinner then they as a class said sorry and bla bla bla. Yessah, finally bit my bait..
After that was ok. Just that I was so freaking tired ah. Now then I realised that we are actually working 17hr shifts. Like wahseyh, kecoh tuh.

2nd day was gerek nak mampos ah. Went back to Changi for the water activities. Build the rafts and that was when I realised that there was some cliques problem with the group. But then we still carried on as usual. Then during kayaking everything was like chaos. The water was damn choppy and the waves kept pushing us back to shore. And sorry to say but the KI's wasnt really good at controlling the kids uh. The briefing wasnt really done seriously.

Improvised Rafting.
Actually sepatotnyer guide jer, in the end aku yg tolong dorang ikat sebab dorang slow nak mampus. Hahahs.

And alot of kids were capsizing on purpose, just so that they could have a dip in the water. Pukimak, ingat gerek per nak save ? Yeahlah, they capsize alone, but we alone have to save so many people. Macam sial siak perangai.

After beaching up, had dragon boating. then half the class went off in the first boat. So sat down and chit chat while waiting. Kiwak, sumer otak koto lah siak. Baru je Ahmad bilang pasal budak2 tengok dier punyer dingdong. Like wtf, my shorts was wet so you get the drift. And then entah macam maner, have to go down and help look after some other group cause they were kayaking too near to the rocks and after that help them beach up. Ape the KI's were doing also i dont know.

Then after they had their quick wash up, I was going around to go call them to gather under the dorm, sekali like suay siak, was standing at the washing point for only 5 secs kene marah by one of the Chiefs because the area was dirty like hell. Tak pasal pasal siak kene tengking. It wasnt my group who did it, and blame the GI who didnt supervise his/her group, cause I was just standing there for like berape saat and coincidentally the chief walked by there and saw me. Aku punyer binget + dang amok tong tong cheng naik loktang kat dalam hati siak. But I knew that she was having a bad day ah because of the other camp that was going on there so I just offered to clean the place up. So there I was with 5 of my class volunteers sweeping wet sand. You know how stupid that is? And because of that, my group left Changi like eons after the rest.

Takpe, sabar separoh dari iman.

Then night time had the debriefs and stuff. Had an open session where I told them to pour out their opinions of the class. Aiseh, one girl dared to say it out and she cried. Wah, crying for your classmates sehh. But still, its for the good of the class lah.

The next morning everything was fine. Did area cleaning while cheering like hell under the sun. Kecoh siak. And I dont know why they loved the word GONCANG so much. This goncang that goncang. Apeje... Then took some pictures. Shared our last moments before doing some final semangat nak mampos cheer. And they even did a GONCANG CHEER.

Wahseh, kalau cikgu nampak mampus siak. Hahahs.

But one thing that I like about this class is that whenever I ask for volunteers, definitely there's people ready to help me out eventhough they know that they are going to throw rubbish, sweep sand etc;. Or maybe they just want to listen to me talk crap when we are doing the cleaning. Hahahs!

The ShiokSendiri/Volunteering Clique
[I know I look like crap and the shorts dont know why like mengembang macam seluar CikLeh!]

ADSS 3E2

Anyway got comments from them saying that some of them cried because they missed me and Andrea. Hahahs. Tulah, kuah kari dah tumpah baru achi nak melalak. But still ADSS manage to beat NanChiau High to be in my #1 favourite list. Hahahs.

Next up, Sengkang Primary. First day already in the morning me, sky, ken and hafiz have to go to the school. Zana takpayah so boleh sleep longer. Then reach there, punyerlah tak shoik.. Irritating siak kids. I have no patience with them.

I was looking around and then i saw this girl. Aiseh, macam pernah aku lihat, tapi dimana ya?
Adik Wano!
Hahahs. She's like so semangat seh like always kneeling down listening attentively to what the instructors are saying.
And my group theres this boy that is so freakingly irritating nak mampus, everything also must ask question and he dig his nose like nobody's business siak. Like every other hour confirm I will see him digging for gold. Siak ah, geli siak aku.

Ok, I know I'm bad but he wanted to borrow my pen and i made up an excuse that it had no more ink and ask him to borrow his friend's pen. His friend also dont want to lend him. Hahahs!

And I shouted at them so many times that I think that was the worst camp I ever did. I shouted not for the sake of scolding, but for the sake of grabbing their attention to the sudden loud voice.
Like wtf.

Even one tiny ant can make them scream and jump around. I give up siak. They cant sit still. Cannot tahan already, I ask one irritating kid stand one corner and Hafiz made him face the wall. Hahahs, primary school classics.

Then there's this boy who's so self-obsessed. I was in the toilet with them for their toilet break and he was washing his hands. Suddenly he look up and said "Eyh! Hady Mirza!" to himself.

Makkau, ni budak sott dott tho dzho siak.

And then while doing area cleaning on the last day, we found a kotex in the middle of the flying fox area. I think they didnt know what that was cause one kid wanted to pick it up with his bare hands. Siallah, aku ketawe macam nak rak siak...

Ok, no more Primary School camps for me. Tak dapat ah. Sape mau layan seh kerenah macam dajal. But they shower freaking fast cause all I told them was that,
"You dont go out in 5 mins, I switch off the lights and lock the main door."

Zub zub zub, like lightning siak. Kau buat macam gitu kat budak secondary, wait long long ah jawabnyer, nak kene gendang pintu baru nak keluar.

And there's this other instructor who looks like Izzati, explain & speaks like Izzati. And the most menakjubkan is that her name is Noris! She was my buddy group instructor and she helped me way lots. She's a great person but I think she was really tired uh. Cause she can suddenly go blank and collapse and everytime she's grabbing my hand to stabilise herself.

Anyway, like hello, Nurizz : Noris.
Ahah! Like how coincidental is that?

Eyh wait, I blab too much.

Anyway met Mariah just now at BB. Had dinner , walk around and then we just lepak ketawe ketawe punyerlah kecoh. Then waited for the Swensen's people and Maam Nana and Maam LiHui joined us. Then left there after midnight.

Bakar satay ye kak?

SSP BBQ

2008-03-05T14:04:00.003+08:00

I havent been updating this blog for quite sometime already. damn.

And already I think that the font is abit weird. Memang macam gini eh selalu? Malas uh nak check/change. I have been at home most of the days, and instead of updating, I was stuck to surfthechannel.com & sidereel.com for movies, teevee shows and the most exciting ones; Documentaries.

Like whoah, Noah'sArk, 911, BookofMormons, ChildSlavery, PuzzlingPartners, GhostOnTape, Muhammad S.A.W, UFO's. You name it, I think I've watched it all.
I re-watched the whole series of AmericanPie, MIB, and Friends.
Eyh, Meet the Spartans merepek nak mampos lah siak

Yes, that was how desperate I was to keep myself entertained. Kalau tak aku rase macam aku dalam jail rumah sendiri just that I can go out but bo lui leh... Keluar pon pi dekat dekat.

There was one day that me and kakak didnt know what to do that we made this stupid game/task with a challenge. Kemas rumah beb. Only after every task baru boleh dapat Rokiah.
Wahseh, stress seh.
Cuci corridor, lipat baju, kemas bilik, hall and sebagainyer. Actually cuci corridor sebab aku ngan kakak nak main air! Hahhaahsh!
Habes pokok bunge jiran kiter buat main sampai daun berguguran.

Eyh, tepok ah sikit beb sebab aku tolong kemas rumah!
Hahahs.

Anyway the SSP BBQ was OK ah. The ambience wasnt that hyped-up. Macam sume yang turon muke yang biase biase. Then finally met Nazlynn. Ok ah, the rest said that she's a combination of Zana and Nisa, but I think more of Nisa ah. Suare pon macam same.

Since kakak buat BBQ kat somewhere near MCDons, aku ulang alik pi sane untuk menjenguk-jenguk keadaan. Chey. Anyway after arriving, invited Jaed over to have bone steak and stuffs but member shy shy kitty pulak. Padahal yang ade kat situ adik Abg Sid ngan matair dier, and later that night Abang bawak Kak Syera ngan geng motor dier.

Then I thought wanted to bring some BS over but the n Abang still havent arrive at 9pm so jawabnyer lupekan sudah hasrat aku tuh. So just brought the durian puffs and airpoks-airpoks.

Oh, kiter main monopoly dari midnight sampai pagi. I won beb! $73290 excluding Hotels and Houses. Kalaulah duit tu duit betol...
Then in the morning we played DodgeBall in the sea. Couples vS the BujangTrangTangTang. Hahahs, kecoh siak. And I swear that my body was itching so badly, sebab during BBQ aku radak udang macam besok udang pupus gitu kat dunie ni.

Eyh Jeffri, aku mau itu video yang kiter kacau Nisa tido.
Oh dan sesiape yang ambek gambar aku kene sabo time aku ngah tido-tido ayam sile sending mending.

Tulah, spray spray kat Nisa, in the end aku yang kene. Aku ngah penat giler so I just let them spray whatever they wanted. Anyway that thing evaporates, lainlah kalau dorang simbah aku ngan sauce ke hape ke.

Nak kipas? Meh, ni burung kasawari besar kipaskan.

BBQ tak BBQ, rambut mesti maintain beb.

Cheyy.. aeMON main bola seh..

Ngah meeting haram, macam mane nak larikan Si Selamat.

Macam Squidward [sp?] SpongebobSquarePants seh!

Monster dah bangun!

Actually ni gamba takde matlamat uh.

Chey, Wano panggil kiter sume Model jalanan. Muke Aidil kot muke mcm Oink!

Kau tengok ni Mai, badan aku ngan muke/tangan lain colour !

Camelot.

2008-02-23T03:57:00.002+08:00

Pondering pondering pon de replay-ing of the pondering, I was stumped to acknowledge the fact that I have no ITP.

So, I made many semangat hangat-hangat tahi hamster plans to find a job to fill this holiday. Of which terselit sebesar kutil kat belakang benak aku yang nampaksah rasenye takkan menjadi dan jadi-jadian.

So, alangkah gumbiranye hati beta pabile Suzana mengmsn cakap Zack ngah carik orang jadi camp instructors. Wahseh, aku memang minat camping mamping ni sumer seyy. Like yippi-ka-yeay dapat spend time outdoors dari terperok dalam bilik batu aku yang sungguh.com membosankan.

So have to report the next day at Nan Chiau High at 830 am. Kat sengkang beb, sengkang terkangkang aku dibuatnyer nak travel all the way there. Seperti sedia maklum, aku lambat.

Chey sampai je skolah, teringat zaman high school aku. Sekolah cinonet siak. Lagi terok dari BPGH. Budak melayu dier boleh kire ngan jari tangan je sehh. So had the briefing and then started the team building games, aja dorang buat knots, aja cheer and bla bla bla. Chey aku biasa jugak macam paham. Padahal instructors lain aja budak budak aku pon ikut belajar sekali.

Hahhahs! K ini namanya mesti step-confident beb.

And apparently aku punyer buddy was Wan The Rock. Sebab botak, badan dier, muke dier, suare dier mcm The Rock. Dier bagi kau penumbok kau nanti gigi kau berkecai, mcm LOTR punyer binatang buruk tuh. Tapi gerek ah, boleh diajak bebual. Dier pon first time buat school camp. But aku heran apasal dorang buddykan aku ngan Wan, when we both dont have the experience. But naseb ade lagi satu instructor ni ah Izwan dier tolong tolong.

Ahlemak, abeh macam kunik, halfway aleh aleh kasut sports aku shoe lace cover dier tertanggal. So kasut aku sebelah ade shoelace sebelah botak. Then ngah kat field, skali tersandung batu, hangkau, kasut yg ok aleh aleh tapak ternganga. Cibot. Dah lame tak pakai kasut sports lah katekan. Last time was in 2006 tak salah aku. Padahal jarang pakai seh, abeh Wann cakap kasut nike memang gitu. Yeke?

So after that day Epeyn and the rest pi straight to Changi campsite and aku balik rumah to tukar kasut. Kiwak, abeh aku dah nervous sebab tak biase kat area sengkang so linca kadok naik LRT. skali dah sampai platform, ade train, tapi tak bergerak, sekali bace sign board, rupernyer ade service disruption. Abe macam budak bodoh ah duduk kat atas tunggu for 20 mins. Wahlandeh, nak travel back to Jurong lagi lah seh..

So the next day nak kene go back to sengkang sebab we have to go to the school to fetch the students. Biasa ah beb, lambat lagi. supposedly 730 tapi aku sampai dalam 750 gitu. Sebab kancheong nak keluar rumah jumpe Suzana abeh realised dah terlupe nak bawak sandals.

Ok ah, budak Nanchiau boleh tahan gerek, and at the same time learnt abit about the camp culture there. So all the way aku ngan Wan shiok sendiri relec je buat keje care kite. Tapi yang shioknyer, second day dapat kayak lah seh. Wahseh, teringat mase zaman rowing kat pandan reservoir dulu. Pelagi, aku pon shiok sendiri ah kayak kacau budak budak pukul air sume.

Eyh alamak, aku realisekan, muke aku sombong sangat ah seyy. Binget seh. Aku rase budak sane sume ingat aku sombong. What to do,dah muke mcm gitu, abeh sane banyak melayu lah seh. Susah beb susah, stress ah banyak melayu. Hahsh, Nizal kau mrepek bodoh, stupid, idiot.

So when the camp ended 2 days later, one of the camp chiefs tanyer whether aku nak pi Ubin tak. So aku pon at first okgo. Then fikir balik, wahseh, ubin sehh. Ano kat Changi tak pass lagi nak pi Ubin dalam hutan? Tebiat kepe? Yeah, aku tau aku blom really ready ah in terms of knowledge and psychologically prepared to really do outdoors, tapi macam ade sekutil perasaan kemahuan nak join tu trip. Wahseh, maklomlah sec 3 tak dapat pi OBS. But finally aku decided not to go uh and was looking for a replacement. Then ngah tunggu for Adi's punyer call aku tertido. Aiseh, aku kalau dah tido tu paham paham je lah eh bangun kol bape.

Wahseh, bangun terik giler beb, dah pukul 2pm. Team ubin dah berangkat pukul 8 pagi dah. Shit siak. Tengok phone missed calls 30+. Zack, Grace, Zana, Adi, and even Haddad! hahas. Kcoh beb kecoh. Aku adelah semnagat call Haddad dulu ingatkan ade pape important pasal Wawas or PN08. Sekali dier nak kejutkan aku rupernyer. Thanks ah eh beb, aku bagi kau A* for effort. Jangan putus asa, lain kali boleh cuba lagi, pasti berjaya. Hahahshah.

Then call Zack dier cakap suruh turun Changi sebab still tak cukup orang. So aku get ready then ade some stuffs to settle first so reached there at 6pm. Sampai je buat muke kesian. Hahahs. Then check the matrix and stuff and buddy was this girl Esther. Wahseh, gerek lah seh, belajar banyak bende dari dier. Then this time round was Kranji sec budak normal. Ok ah. Banyak beng beng tembak bijik buah setengah masak.

Rhyme seh..

Hahahs. It was a very responsive batch but they're kinda rowdy. Abeh one of the guys macam step maner punyer bodek watermelon step mane punyer paikia terpekik terlolong padahal kawan sebelah dier. Bodoh punyer taik tikus. Aku bagi penampa bongsu kang baru tau. Seriously hard to handle ah. Berbuih lah siol bebual ngan dorang. Ape aku ngan Esther cakap ade je nak menyampok mengomen dan me- yang sewaktu dengannyer. Oh, this time round buat dragon boating pulak. Gerek lah siol. Aku learn the commands like 10 mins before we launch and aku became the frontman, yang diri kat depan sepatotnyer ketok drum kulit babi tapi haritu takde drum so aku terpekik terlolong bagi timing. abestu all the way aku macam step surfing sebab ombak macam kunik and the boat senget sebelah sebab air masok and the beng beng tembak ingatkan funfair rocking the boat. But gerek ah, learn new experience and get to motivate the guys to work as a team.

Then after the campfire we had a feedback session with the students and then we voice out about our impression on them, like what they are lacking and giving them the encouragement to improve themselves as a class. Wahseh, bebual sampai dah nak pukul 12+ seh. I think somehow the msg reached to most of them uh. We had a quick supper before hitting the beds. Then few of the guys mintak kotak kosong sebab dorang nak isi baju kotor. Then dah pakse dorang tido sumer aku mcm aleh aleh tergerak nak pi mandi. actually plan nak mandi in the morning uh. So aku macam zombie pi mandi sorang sorang while the rest dah ngorok. Kiwak, air sejuk lah seh, abestu angin laut kuat pulak tuh. Tempat jangan cakap ah, dahlah nampaksah certain parts dah jatuh ke category twilight zone lah seh. So pi mampos, aku mandi bukak lagu kuat kuat then lepastu terus saaaaaaap gone with the wind.

Bangon. Senyap. Tengok keliling. Apasal senyap eh?
Bontot, tengok hp dah pukul 810am. Takde orang kejut aku siak. Pantat. Tengok bawah nampak budak budak class aku ngah buat serving ngan cleaning duty. Nasib kol 1am dah mandi, so lincah kadok tuka baju ano rambot turun buat muke busy. kononnyer heldup kene buat bende lagi important ah. Alamak, rambut dingdong siak muke basi so pi toilet freshen up sikit. Esther dah pi Regent sec at 7am so tinggal aku sorang kene jage budak budak. then step concern ah tanyer sume ok ke tak.. Hahahs, kekek lah siak ingat balik.

Then kan, aku mcm realise budak budak ni sumer mcm aleh aleh dengar kate. buat keje lincah lincah, tak banyak bising. Wahh, so baguuuuuuuus. Hahahsh.
Aiseh then ngah khayal aleh aleh si budak pompuan sumer datang bagi letter. Belum sempat bukak bace aleh aleh si budak budak lelaki bagi aku cardboard.

"You give me for what? Go throw la...", that was what I said.

Aisehman, rupernyer dorang tulis note lah seh. siap ade luB lah seh. abeh yang cardboard tu rupernyer dorang koyakkan dari kotak yang dorang mintak and budak budak lelaki ade draw bende lah seh. So touching lah seh. Takle seret lah seh. Macam menyentuh kalbu jiwe dan sanubari lah seh.

Like really, kalau perempuan ok ah. Ni beng beng tembak buat ni macam. Wahseh, speechless.
Padahal before that dalam hati aku menyumpah nak kene layan dorang punyer kerenah.. Hahahsh! Maybe we said something which made an impact on them or something and so they thought that all the shouting and scolding wasnt for fun.

And to tell you guys honestly, I feel good just to know that they dont hate us, and somehow we made them change for the better and they show that they appreciate us as instructors, eventhough it was a cardboard paper and ink.

I think it was well worth it.

We will miss you! You rock! We love Niza ! Eventhough you know us later than Esther, We still love you to the max~ weeee~ Take care!
no more nonsense 4 U !

Hahahsh! Yeah I always gave them the lame sign whenever they irritate the hell out of me. And they thought my name was Niza. Most Chinese have a problem with pronouncing my name with an 'L'. Thats why my ANP teacher call me NAIZEL cause its easier to pronounce.

This is from the guys. If you see closely you will see a shape of a bat in the centre and they labelled it Batman with an arrow to my name. Cause apparently when I and another instructor introduced ourselves, I was Batman and he was Superman. Hahas. And they stick to that name all throughout the camp.

Everything was ok but skali the beng beng with the bodek step size watermelon fought with one of the classmate. wahseh, grabbing the head and was asking for a fight infront of all the instructors. wah, step mane punyer fighter je seh. aku sunatkan bagi piercing bling bling baru tau.

Haish, 2H Kranji Sec;
Rowdy, but responsive, but whatever it is, its still memorable.

Kranji left at 12pm and Regent came at around 1pm? Yeah supposedly aku dah boleh balik but decided to stay for the Regent to do belaying. Anyway since Zana and Epeyn will be there and rather than travel to jurong aku rather stay and make extra monneh.

Mak kau, boring nak mampos siak tunggu for the day to end. Zana ngan Epeyn busy buat keje while aku duduk tierperok kat dorm. Tido bangong dengar lagu tido bangun kunyah kropok tido bangun dengar radio. Kau image ah do it over and over. and the reason aku takle tido is because bungi kapal terbang memekak nak mamposz.

So second day aku buat belaying ah untok one of the stations for the high rope course. Attached to EFI Amin. Kecoh seh, dier takutkan budak budak punyerlah kekek. Aku buat belay untuk the session before lunch. wahseh, dahlah panas terik, ashik kene mendongak tengok atas, abestu tarik lepas tali over and over again. punyer lah boring... tanam ahmeng pon lagi gerek siak aku rase.

then off to lunch, after that ade switch, then aku attached to Alan pulak. Ok ah, aku dah malas nak belay so aku ekshion tanyer dier nak aku belay ke tak. Which, is a stupid question ah since I was supposed to be there exactly for that sole reason. Hahahsh. Abeh dier cakap dier nak buat so ok ah. Alhamdullillah syukur nikmat. so aku step ah tolong molong mengmasang carabina dan sebagainyer.

Abeh ade satu group minah ni pakai hot pants kau. Takle seret seh. Abehtu punyerlah irritating. Dah panjat abestu step maner punyer kucing cute tersangkut atas pokok terpekik terlolong menangis taknak lompat. 20 mins siak dier diri kat atas taknak bergerak. In the end Alah sengaje tarik tali bagi jatuh. Abeh terus budak tu macam trauma kene rogol gitu. Hahshahhs.
And amazingly the station tak banyak orang pegi so since we finished early, Alan ajak aku ngan Revlon jalan jalan melihat panorama disekeliling kawasan tersebut sambil dier ajar aku identify pokok starfruit mini the size of raisins. In the kiter nyangkong one corner petik makan starfruit. kiwak betol punyer step maner punyer jungle survival padahal ade canteen tak sampai 50 tapak away. hahahs.

After that balik dorm dah tak tau nak buat ape lagi the Ruth ajak turun pi makan and then kiter chit chat kat canteen sampai about 7+. Then sekali aku kene migraine. Wahlandehh. Sakit dier tangkap kat mate siak. mate kanan rase nak bukak berat giler. So makan panadol then terus aku naik dorm knockout ting ting ting siak.

Bangun besoknyer dorm senyap. Epeyn Zana dah pi buat keje. Then yang tinggal Ash ng ah tiarap kacau budak pompuan kat bawah dorm kiter. aku ingatkan tikus mane lah tershushing dan terbersing mcm mane punye sakit. Bangon mandi then pi isap rokok ngan Ash kat luar. Then lepastuh sekali instructors kene tuka dorm sebab budak kellog nak pakai. Macam pindah rumah siak. Then Zana Epeyn ngan Khai pi debrief, Ash pi belay untok budak budak. Aku macam budak slenge baring dengar radio. Aiseh dengar radio Indon beb lagu dangdut. Mcm aleh aleh badan aku mcm cacing kerawit siak golek golek dengar lagu. Hahahs. Then Di masok nak pinjam booties Keon terus aku stop. Hahahhas.

Then time nak balik Epeyn found out dier hilang seluar dalam. Kecoh siak kene kacau. Zana punyer theory is that budak pompuan Regent yang curik abestu buat mandrem takmo cuci simpan buat kenangan. Akunyer theory is that Khai yang curik buat gentel hidong sebelom tido tapi step concern tolong carik sebab Khai mcm Mandai Utd punyer newfound hardcore fan. hahahs! Habes ah peyn...

Then tunggu Ash habis belay sekali hujan. So kiter pi office dulu tarok dates yg kiter free for next camp and then lari barefooted pi main gate tahan teksi. sekali dah kat luar hujan makin lebat so kiter sembunyi kat tongsampah while Caromes pi tahan teksi.

Then dalam teksi Zana sott siak pakse Epeyn aja cheer. Then epeyn taknak. Then Zana tanyer kenape taknak aja, sebab malu kepe sebab yg drive tu melayu. hahahs.
Kekek siak.

Then aleh aleh aku ngan Zana bebual pasal instructor China, macam mane dier nak instuct budak budak ngan the accent. Hhahahahs.

Then sampai Simpang abeh banyak melayu seh. mak kau.
Then order murtabak share ngan Zana. Wahseh, kenyang sehh.
But then Khai macam siak kenekan Epeyn rabak rabak. hahas.

"Sekarang kau superstar per, sape berani pegang.."
"Kau pernah nampak sumer orang tengok kat meje kite?"
"Woooo! Mandai United ! Woooo!"

Kiwak, kekek to the max lah seh. Abeh ngan Khai punyer split personality, kecoh.

K dah uh. Aku nak blog pasal BBQ PULAK.

2008-02-10T22:29:00.000+08:00

Finally after nearly one week of staying put at home, I went out to meet Mai, Syam and Fard. Wahseh, lepak all the way ambek gamba at Starbucks fullerton waterfront under the bridge.

Eyh, that Starbucks girl sweet sehh. Lain kali boleh lepak sane lagi. Hahahs.

Anyway after that decided to join the Swensen's people go thon. Aiseh, missed the last train. So we took NRider to town before transferring to PasirRis. Then we took a cab to OCH.

And all the way there aku ajar dorang nyanyi lagu A. Ramli.

Walaupun jauh..

Beribu batu..

Ooo PasirRisku...

Aku akan datang padamu...

OOo Pasir Risku...

Tempat idamanku..

Aku harap kau tunggu..

Aku datang padamu...

Hahahs.

Oh at OCH, before we entered, we heard someone laughing.

Hmmm. I mean we were at the bottom of the staircase and then theres someone laughing up there. So since aku that time dah pernah pegi, so aku take the lead ah walaupun pahadal ngah takut. Hahahs. First round Mariah takmo masok. So kiter naik jalan jalan outside the grounds jer. Then pi the side of the place abestu wahseh, aku perasan ade orang kat tepi ngah diri. but nampak macam kain ah. Then ade burung putih terbang ! Wahseh, tapi tak perasan pulak dier terbang terbalik ke tidak. Orang tua-tua kate, kalau ade burung putih terbang terbalik tu dierlah tu.

So took a break lepak kat boardwalk awhile. Second round at the ground, met some chinese peeps and they were following us wherever we go. So aku jalan kat depan step maner punyer terror padahal sebelum belok anywhere aku bace bismillah dulu. Hahash. Then decided to go up. Walked around second floor. then decided to go to the sixth/seventh? floor i think. Aku pon lupe brape banyak tingkat kiter naik sebab aku ngah stress jalan depan sorang sorang and macam naik tak sampai sampai. Hayati pandai, dier sepatotnyer jalan sebelah aku tapi dier jalan blakang sikit kat tangge. Hahahs.

Yang si cine sumer dah umo 20+ step maner punyer terror rambutan, ajak suggest naik sane belok sini konon. Abeh jalan kepit kepit. Peje. Abeh dah sampai tingkat 6, aleh aleh dengar suare orang mengeluh tapi freaky & panjang giler babi. Then terus dengar ade bende tapping tapping kat hujung corridor. Wahseh, terus lutut dah menggeletar tapi still maintain. So kiter lekas lekas turun. Aiseh, aku turun kat depan punyerlah seram sebab takde lampu. Hayati dah tak tau mane pegi kat belakang. Wahseh, nasib tak nampak pape.

Hahahs. Abestu sumer balik muke tempek nampaksah 100% chop blom mandi abestu makan McDons. Naik train sumer ngorok siak mengangnga/terkangkang satu row dahlah sume pakai jacket sumer kaler hitam, dah macam penganut ajaran sesat siak. HAhshas. K gerek. Lain kali buat lagi.

penipu haran

2008-02-07T21:50:00.000+08:00

Penipu haram kejadah.
Blogger sundal.
Cakap boleh upload .gif images tapi dah upload gamba tak bergerAk.
Cit, chinnabeyy cheng teng sejuk -20degrees.

Tido pagi bangun malam.
Tido pagi bangun malam.
Bangun malam tido pagi.
Bangun malam tido pagi.

Aduh aduh aduh.
Pening pening pening kepala pusing.

Wahseh, dengar dengar matrock accident moto?
OOOish, dashat tu!

Wahseh, dengar dengar kat rumah ni dah macam sial lagik?
OOOish, dashat tu!

Patut tak aku kejarkan sesuatu yang aku tak pasti akan dapat?
Atau settle with someone yang aku tau appreciate me like hell?

Bodoh, bengap, bangau.
Banyak B kau ada.

Wasted seh kau nizal.
Kau kene push.
Push, teran kuat kuat biar keluar perasaan kau.
Jangan jadi bodoh suke simpan simpan.
Ni bukan tabung haji.

Cerita 1Jam malam ni.
Whoah, what a flash back.
Regret SEH.

Kalau kau pandai, banyak bende kau dah boleh accomplished.
Minggu depan budak budak sume dah start ITP.
Ape kau nak buat?
Intensive Tido Programme?

Mane drive kau ah?
Hari hari kau tanye aku mane drive kau.
Tapi kau ade carik tak?
Macam tak carik langsong.

Ape kau nak buat Mon?
Takde orang nak kejutkan aku eh?

Eyh kau ni takle buat keje sendiri ke?
Ashek harapkan orang jek.
Advice orang pandai, sendiri merepek meraban.

Audisi/Airport

2008-02-04T01:07:00.000+08:00

Yesterday granny open table blanja makan at Lestari's seafood.

Shiok giler babi seh. 3 meja. Aku makan sampai kenyang sedawe boleh rase kat tekak.

Hahahs.

Bibik's, Unclewan, Busu's and Cik Ros's family and NekYah&NekNor were there.
Makkau. Malunyer aku 7 budak kecik nyanyikan lagu Happy Birthday song. And Ummairah who's 3, sang for me "Panjang Umurnya". Pelat pelat pon cute jugak...

Anyway today went for the auditions and Mariah accompanied me.
Kirim salam sudah Nizal.
Engkau jadi matrep?

After that since we are in the east, the only place to go is Airport terminal 3.
Wahhsehh, meh kiter adventure sikit.
Ate at popeye's. Nothing special. But the brownie mauts lah seh. Sedap power dodek.
Tapi spoiler, kotak besar besar, dalam 4 ketul jer.
But still, kenyang ah.
And then it was jalan jalan time. Go see maam Teety at Earl's. Wahseh, betul macam bini CharlieChaplin. Abestu berangan kononnyer kiter ni orang filipino ngan orang indon.

Lepak kat dewan Lambaian. Like wtf, dewan lambaian? bodoh kepe tak tau translate better?

And then bought starbucks and fortunately Mariah knows the guy working there and we got a discount. Wahsehh, Venti for $6. Then lepak kat luar ngan Rokiah duduk sampai pantat sakit baru we made our way back.

Then sampai west area, decided to turun Jeast lepak skejap belakang Popular ngan Rokiah before going home around 11? Wahseh, niari aku rase aku ketawe belambak-lambak.
Oh, kiter cam-whore rabak gedabak, buat muke tujuhbelas sen ambik gamba kat tanah merah macam maner punyer star bling bling gitu..
So lets get the pictures do the talking.

bugis/jb

2008-01-31T00:27:00.000+08:00

Oh hello.
Whoah, yesterday I slept from 6am to about nearly 10pm.

Ini yang dinamekan pe-rang-ai .
16hours tidur macam ba-alif-ba-ya .

" AYOOOOO ! , Cikgu cakap BABI...!!! ".
Hahahs. Those pea-nuts...

Anyway, yesterday was supposed to go for the interview at Deebz's photo studio place at Bugis. But somehow, aku ni kan kalau nak siap macam berzaman. Initially decided what to wear already, but then decided to change because I look so the I-am-a-student-desperately-needing-a-job-and-I-shall-leave-as-soon-as-I-get-my-first-pay-because-I-wont-like-what-I'm-doing.

Yeah, true that I had that feeling and intention, but the whole point is to actually nail that job by having a very good first impression. Kalau lepas dah dapat gaji then aku cabut, suke hati doranglah dorang nak cakap ape.

And so, an interview at 6pm, tak menjadi cause I only reached Bugis with Jeff at 8. Meet Deebz and we had our meal at Long John. Wahseh, beli family meal seh. Confident boleh habiskan seyy. In the end fries tak habis and we had 2 chicken fillet untouched.

Ni nenek aku selalu cakap, Tamak Haloba.
Eyh what the hell is haloba ah? Bunyi macam Biloba. Ginko Biloba. Alah buah kuning yang ade dalam cheng teng sejuk.

Hahahs. Ok, aku ngah ketawe sorang sorang.

Oh, Jad was asking if I'd be making a second episode of TakTahu, TakNakTahu!
Hahahs. Let me gather some ideas first.

Anyway, after we reached Jeast, me and Jeff went to play pool Till about 1230am. Reached home, watched the teevee and I fell asleep on the sofa while waiting for Jad&Epeyn.
Got the call and with rambut tempek, off we go. Reached the kedai kopi, its closing already. Then there's this guy with a funny voice took our drinks order.

Ha-ha-ha. Perangai aku macam sial.
I guess he twisted his vocal cords.
It sounded like a wimp, a shriek and an exclamation yang tak menjadi.
Or maybe all mixed together.
Ha-ha-ha. Perangai aku macam sial.

Anyway after that decided to eat at MrTehTarik at the shop down my street. Abestu pegi sekali tutop. Ape je. Kater 24hours. Macam nak kene tap-pe-lerk.
Susah susah je masok carpark.

So ended up at McDons Taman Jurong. Wahseh, dah breakfast sehh. So ordered our food and we ate and chat till about 5? Actually aku pon lupe kiter bebual ape.
And wooo. Got my levi's shirt. Cheycheychey, glam-wham-bam ah nampaknyer..
Balik jugak aku trying mying.

Then hajat hati konon nak dengar radio, baring taknak tido tunggu sampai pukul 730 then ikut abang naik moto pi kedai granny.

Dalam mimpi ah beb.
Radio kemane, aku dah ngorok.
Wahseh bangun dah pukul 950pm?

Kedai tak pegi, wayang tak pegi, meeting pasal bengkel pon aku tak pegi.
Wahseh, aku macam missed out belambak giler gitu sebab Jad cakap gerek.

Binget beb, binget.

Then macam tak cukup tido, aku tido lagi. Again konon nak pi kedai pagi tapi yerlahtuh.

What the hell. Aku tak tau yang bengkel is at 12pm !
I thought the sms sent saying that meet-up at 11am is because maybe nak plan further about what we gonna do.
So I lincahly kodokly pi mandi and got ready. Nasib baik dah tau ape nak pakai.
Sap sap sappp macam the flash beb. Then sekali dah sampai dekat 522, Izzati called cakap yang it already started at twelve and its gonna end at 2pm.

IT WAS 120PM.

Adelah aku semangat sms dorang cakap aku bley make it by 145pm, kononnyer will miss only the warmups.

Ha-ha. Tipah Binte Tertipu.
Wahseh, dengan hati yang berat, aku berjalan pulang ke rumah...
Step macam mane punyer pasrah gitu takdapat jumpe budak budak.

Anyway got a msg from Pat.
Wooo, damn am I interested.
Go do your best.

Besok beb, besok.
Jangan macam sial tak boleh bangon.
Aku hentak kepale kau ngan pen kang.

20T.
6J.
10E.

Wahseh. Mati ah aku macam gini.

BIRTHDAY

2008-01-28T02:25:00.000+08:00

Looking from the feedbacks for the TakTahu&TakNakTahu segment, I think I have to start publishing sane posts from now on. I know my segment is damn lousy than those kids show on suria. *coughs* kerongkong aku gatal seh if you know what I mean.

AMARAN

POST

MENYAMPAH + MELOYEKAN

(Jangan nanti complain cakap aku tak warning)

Happy 19th Birthday!!

[ from Ruck-Mon, your in-your-head twin ]

This birthday is one hell of a Birthday. Wow, I cant even express how happy I feel. It feels even better than having fun with myself siak. So many surprises lah seyh.

Takujut beberapa jenaks boboy.

Yeah, like on the 14th Jan, 12 days before my Birthday, Jad had already surprised me with a gift. Aiseh 12 days lah siak. That's got to be a record for the pre-est present ever in the Nizal's Lifetime of Records. Ooh, they bought me this Levi's shirt which i guess cost a bomb. It looked somehow similar to the one which I eyed at KL. And the back design is way cool lah siak and the buttons are unique.

But after getting awed watching that big fish at Dempsey, and kancheongly getting out of Jad's car cause there was an oncoming car, I forgot to take that shirt home.

Till we meet again shirt.

Alah its not about the presents lah. Its about the company. The company is what I like the most. What's better than spending your Birthday with your friends? With family? Nah, this year's prove that its kinda boring.

On the 25th, had loads of fun with tiny kids. Ohkay, aku memang tak reti layan budak, but it was fun that day. But dorang punyer memekak dan lari lari takleh angkat seh beb, pakai crane pon tak lut. Macam nak ikat je kaki dorang ngan tali tangsi. But still, I'm looking forward to the next session lah seh.

And then after that, had lunch at McDons. And once again aku dikejutkan dengan kejutan dibawah due pokok kelape kat tengah tengah dunie. Hadad printed out a huge A3 poster of me posing for Geylang Serai Roboh. Wahseh, besar seh and there were well wishes at the sides of the pictures. Hahahs. Mengancam siot. That poster will always serve to remind me of how gay i can get. Hahahs!!

Then after that called Mariah to come down lepak. Its been a while since I met her. We chat under the void deck with Rokiah and Coke and decided to go to the railway tracks to have a night stroll while we chat all the way. Alamak, skali sampai terus tak jadi sebab tempat tu gelap sangat. So we strolled back all the way to her block before ending up at the tower where theres more Rokiah and jokes and sharing of problems and you get the drift. Actually I did alot of talking. I really do mean ALOT. Thank you Mariah for the company.

Mariah, kiter tak ambek gamba!

And so at around 11 we decided to end the day and I went to take the MRT. Whoa, the train was packed so I skipped 4 trains. I really dont like crowds. Then while waiting Sahirul Aidil called. So he already booked out of camp and some of them meet up at Bukit Batok McDons cause 25th is TianJu's Birthday and they asked me to come down. Yeah, sure, tak sabar aku nak tengok Aidil botak. Hahahs. So when I reached McDons, YongXian was at the counter and she asked me to wait with her for her burger. Yeah, sure.

So after all that waiting, went up and after walking afew steps, Surprise Surprise ! Takujut Again ! They started to sing the birthday song and mind you, the place was pack lah siak. And soon the people from other tables started to sing and clap also. Aiseh betty, malunyer aku... And there was a brownie cake with a candle ! Wah seh, Aidil, Jieli, Tianju, YongXian, Eileen, Hongyu, Fangling. My gerek primary school friends siak. Who the heck gets to celebrate with their primary school friends nowadays? I am one damn lucky guy siak. =) And it was even special because I celebrated my Birthday with Tianju, our birthday just one day apart. It was really fun just to chat with everyone eventhough it was a short one.

[Expression priceless. Aku biase jugak macam budak-budak. TianJu is like lost dont know what to do with her candle.]

And so after having all the catching up, we went back by bus. Met Maam HuiHsia at teh busstop.

Come midnight, messages came one by one non stop. I bet it would have been arousing if i just pop that phone in my boxers and let it vibrate all the way. If you know what I mean...

SMS-ES.(Thanks for the wishes guys!)

Tempat pertama jatuh kepada Rohanisya Bte Jumari dengan masa 00:00 on the dot! Hahahs.

Ok, I shall publish some quotes from them here.

"Happy nineteenth zal! One year older, one step wiser perhaps?" - NISYA

Errrm, yeah I think so. Hahahs!!

"Happy burfdaeeeee! Dah sembilan belas. Tkm jd ghostbuster horrr :) go partyyy :)" -AS

Alah, takde orang nak join aku kalau aku nak jadi ghostbuster pon seh...

"Beb, happy 19th bdae. Aku baru 18 kaw da 19." -JEFF

Aku tau aku tue.. Rub it in... Rub it in...

"Happy bdae once again!Haha, i'm really happy we got to celebrate 2gether k...anyway, see that your life is quite enriching and is happy for you! hope your happy too and can always be happy!:)" -TIANJU

Wahseh sure anot enriching? And how many word happy in one msg? You ACJC but howcome your vocabulary so limited? Hahahahs!

"Slamat hari lahir yg ke 18..." -BIBIK

Wahseh. Mudenye aku....

"...h0pe u will haf a guhreat life ahead sambil kau Gembus Gembra yar..." -SUE

Hahahas! Rabak seh mengingatkan aku pasal ketersasolan aku yang maha rabak...

"... Moga kamu panjang umur dan panjang2kan apa2 lagi kau nak." -SERI

Wah kalau betul boleh aku nak macam nigger punyer boleh? If you know what I mean. Hahahhs! Wahseh, aku realise aku dah 19 makin horny.

"Happy bdae nizal. Muacks. Haha. Give u all the tetek love from sashikumar. Tetek gebeh." -SASH

Like wtf?????? Hahahas! I read this while preparing mee rebus at granny stall and I couldnt stop laughing and smiling to myself.

There are many other wishes, from Sakinah, Russ, Adillah, Nadhirah, Mariah, Maisarah, Fahrul, Haddad, Farhana, Fuad, Helfizza, Aisyah Pokok, Aidil, Yuzil, Arif IJC, Hidayah Nenek, Khairun, Shakinah, Rohai, Yihui and some other people whom I forgot.

Seriously, I am one lucky bastard to have all these wonderful friends.. I just cant seem to thank enough for all your wishes. =)

And all I did with my sister on my birthday was to go eat at Swensen's , walk around, Rokiahs and then go home.

But fret not! Today's outing was superb for the fact that it has been a long time since the KL hangout. Too bad Jeff and Zee cant make it. Waahseeyyy!, Fuad turun seyyyyyyyyyy.... And today we celebrated seri's and my birthday! Wooo!

[Nama saya Cikgu Nizal, guru Fuad. Dan kami mewakili Sekolah Kebangsaan Bangsa-Bangsa Bercacat Bersatu.]

Fuad rabak cakap tak jadi turon. Tapi aleh aleh kat belakang aku. Botak pulak tuh. Hahahs.

Anyway before we meet Sak&Seri, I and Deebz went to buy Seri's present. Found this nice pair of earrings from MissSelfridge (sp?) Jambu lah siot. Gold, circular has an ukiran macam melayu punyer style of ukiran pattern and theres a crystal at the centre. And we bought for her a huge bangle also. Oklah, I admit we're kinda broke but its the thought and company to me that counts the mosts.

And then Jeng Jeng Jeng. Surprise! Sak Seri Arif bought for me a present too! Seluar dalam lah seh.. Pattern macam lembu. Hahahas! Cute nak mampos. Tapi material dier boleh tahan macam shiok gitu tadi aku ramas ramas. Hahahahs.

After Marina Sq, we went to Sakura for dinner. Then after diner to One fullerton Starbucks just to relax and chill.

And Sak Seri & Deebz treated me to the cakes and drink... Then takde candle so dorang cucuk straw instead. HOHOHO. Macam Sultan sehari aku rase. And then we played Seri's game using poker cards. Fuad made forever lame jokes and we just catch up on each other till like about 1040? Woah, it was a fun day people.

[THE JANUARY BABIES - SERI&ME]

[Seri, Fuad, Nizal, Sakinah, Ariff, Debbie]

Not in Picture: Zee Buih & Jeffri Bubble.

Ok, Sak ngan Fuad punyer birthday aku plak plan. Kiter buat kat ECP. Amchiam? OkGo?

I think this is the one of the best birthdays ever other than the one I had when I was 10.

OK. dah. aku dah penat. But thankyou once again for making this 19th Birthday memorable. I got to celebrate with my primary, secondary and tertiary peeps. Mengancamlah siak.

2008-01-25T04:56:00.000+08:00

Since I have nothing to do while othrs are busy slogging like semuts kelingkiak studying for their exams, I have somehow developed a routine of waking up around 10am and watch teevee while kopeking freezed mini mandarin oranges. Sedap dokk. freezed mini mandarin oranges are crunchy, macam kau ngah makan orange flavoured ice. furthermore it helps to prevent scurvy in the long run. hahas. chey step mane punyer medical jer. padahal bangun tak gosok gigi dengan air liur basi makan limau.

chit. peje.
dah macam monyet siak, nasib kau tak tinggal atas pokok...
haish. ape nak jadi dengan aku...

ooh, since I'll be having loads of free time, i think i should catch up with my ghosthunting. the other day, otw to ECP to meet the SSPmates, saw beberape rumah bigolow kosong near buona vista. the place looks freaking gerek lah siak. alah, like those colonial buildings. ade 3 tak salah aku. sumer dah boarded and really looks terbiar. Nampaksah aku je yg semangat. yang lain sumer kental buah lenchee taknak trying mying.

oh, Jad finds it funny taht aku pakai terms kental buah lenchee, cheng teng sejuk dan yang serumpun dengannyer..

Yok Bongsu perjelaskan penggunaan frasa frasa tersebut dalam segment baru Bongsu:

Taktahu, Taknaktahu !

(say it step-cute like how you hear on the teevee for a somehow similar programme)

Kental Buah Lenchee

Pernahkah anda memesan segelas air lenchee?

Setelah pesanan Bongsu tiba, selalunya Bongsu akan menggodak goddak minuman tersebut dengan sebatang seteraw.

Bongsu memerhatikan bahawa buah lenchee yang tak seberapa ketul itu kelihatan pucat, kendur dan lembek.

Alamak, bila dimasukkan kedalam mulut, rasanya benyek, kunyahanpun penyek, tidak terasa sebagaimana Bongsu mengunyah buah rambutan.

Justeru itu, anda harus berbangga jikalau seseorang mengatakan bahawa anda, Terror Rambutan.

Terror Rambutan

Berbanding buah lenchee, buah rambutan jikalau dilihat dari kulinya ternyata berbulu. Bulu bulu itu bak umpama melambangkan kematangan, transisi dari dunia anak abu ke dunia remaja. Cuba adik adik fikirkan, buah apakah selain dari rambutan, juga berbulu?

Sudah dapat jawapannya?

Cuba tanya atuk. Mesti atuk selalu melihatnya.

Dan juga, jikalau diperhatikan, jika kita memesan minuman rambutan, ketulan rambutan kelihatan lebih gebu.

Ini kerana, rambutan tersebut telah disumbatkan dengan ketulan nenas rangup yang bak umpama trojan kejantanan yang kuat.

Selalunya, anda akan dianugerahkan pingat invisible Terror Rambutan oleh rakan rakan setelah berjaya melalukan aktiviti yang negatif seperti; berbohong kepada guru dan sembunyi dalam kelas semasa waktu rehat.

Cheng Teng Sejuk

Tahukah anda apakah bahan yang paling banyak terdapat dalam semangkuk cheng teng?

Ya betul, butiran bali!

Jika dilihat dengan teliti, butiran bali tersebut bagaikan bijik k______

Menurut buku Biology Bongsu, bijik k_______ merupakan organ rangsangan yang penting. Usah bertanyakan ibu anda apakah sebenarnya perkataan di dalam rongga ayat diatas kerana ibu kita tidak lagi mempunyainya.

Justeru itu, jikalau ianya membeku, seseorang itu seolah olah mempunyai perwatakan yang kejung. Bermaksud, tiada gunanya anda meminta pertolongan beliau kerana beliau akan hanya mendiamkan diri step terpaku macam tidak mempunyai perasaan langshong.

Hai adik-adik, kita sudah tiba ke penghujung segment ini. Bongsu berharap anda dapat menimba ilmu menerusi segmen ini yang sangat menghiburkan.

Dari itu, Vroom vroom dari Bongsu!

Fucking lame shit siak aku.

prob

2008-01-21T22:49:00.000+08:00

I'm such a mess.
You know, how sometimes you wake up, stare outside the window, take a breather a two, and just cracking your brain wondering how you are going to spend your day?
I think I do that every single day nowadays.

The trip to ECP wasnt how I imagined the evening would be.
I thought I would be sitting by the beach, enjoying the breeze, accompanied by Rokiah, maybe after that lie down and stare at the sky, mumble nonsenses, crack jokes and whatotherkingkongkegilaans. So that I dont have to think about my problems.

I'm lost. And the lights guiding the road doesnt work anymore. I think I'm stuck at the intersection between reality avenue and reality street and I dont see any U-turn signs.

Sorry ah eh Jad and Mai for everything I did today.
I'm extra happy when I'm trying not to think about problems.

Warna interview Shooting Wangsa

2008-01-16T21:15:00.000+08:00

Theres a reason for the long unupdated entry.

Basically wanted to give the KL post sometime as the main post.

Yup, so lets see what I've been up to.

Oh yes, I was busy sleeping one Thursday morning when suddenly my chest vibrated.

Yeklergh, potong steam tido ah. Haddad was at the other end. And the first thing he said was; "Hoi, baru bangon eh?"

Abodhen. tsk. Hahas.

"Kau boleh siap sekarang tak??"

And the moment he mentioned interview with Warna, i found myself wide awake dengan mate terbeliak staring at the ceiling. Suare steam pon hilang seh.

And so I got ready in a jiffy and took a cab down to Mediacorp Station. Met Nadhirah and Haddad at the reception and quickly went to the conti? sp? Nad gave us a quick briefing of what to expect. And at that point of time, my brain had deteriorated to go into slumber mode again. Hahs! Aku macam blur gitu.

The interview was fun. The callers were errmmm... like seriously a surprise. serious.

Puan Izzati

Encik Ali

Puan Bakawali

Puan Azlin

And dont forget that SMS sent. Bet its my aunt or something. Cause the question posed are exactly like those that they've been asking me.

And after that, had lunch and then lepaked at Nad's office. Wah seh, kecoh ade sofa ade tv ade fridge. Cool shit.

Anyhoos, after that didnt know where to lepak. So we headed to IKEA queensway. Kiter buat tu tempat macam rumah sendiri siak. Chope satu showroom lepak kat katil, kat computer table berangan tu bilik kiter. borak borak sampai IKEA tutup.

Abestu, the next day got an SMS from Haddad. Went to Mediacorp again for the shooting thing for Cili Padi. Took 157 from my house. Yeah, cool shit it takes only about 45 mins to get there. So went to the Radio Gate to change the pass. Aku call haddad tak angkat hp. Call nad pon tak angkat hp. Number zack aku takde. After sometime baru Haddad called back to direct the way.

OKlah, it was an experience. Didi, the other extra girl who became my girlfriend, reminded me of Nisa. The way she smiled and spoke. It was funlah working with her. And throughout the shoot, she was saying about how desperate most AP's are to have a boyfriend. Sebab sumer cameraman pakcik pakcik. Aku dah ketawe ketawe seh bebual dengan dier. Imagine you have to act like a lovely couple just having a manja chat, but in actual fact tengah gosip but still maintaining that manja facial expression. Kiwak! Kecoh lah siak...

And I'd never imagine Haddad becoming like that.

And that cameraman pakcik whom I didnt catch his name eventhough we chat for so long, was great to talk to. Witty, but full of knowledge. It helped to break the ice since the only people there i knew were Haddad and Zack. After that was ok. And guess what, I met Endang, the AksiMatYoyo girl. I looked at her and didnt recognise at first but still I knew she looked familiar.

And so there goes my first experience in Radio interview and shooting. Will try upload the podcast soon.

Now, I'm glad to announce that Wangsa Sang Singa Purba was born on 14 January 2008.

Wooo. ClapsClapsClaps!

And so on that day, the founders of Wangsa, Nadhirah&Adillah and the three heads of SSP with Haddad elected the Committee for the Wangsa board.

Aizat as Head.

Suhaila as Asst Head.

Faridah as Secretary.

Nisya as Treasurer.

Sarah as Logistics.

We have faith in all of you. There's a reason for placing you guys in the respective posts.

Aizat aku tau kau very creative boleh invent steps in a snap and you have that people person character yang boleh relate to anyone. Use it to your advantage.

Nisya, biase jugak, kau jadi besar punyer tailong. Nanti birthday kau aku belikan rantai SnoopDog yang ade dollar sign bling bling kasi kau pakai.

Wah Sarah, ni expected. Sebab kau buas. Hahahs. So kau boleh layan tu due mat Logi untok suroh dorang book bilek. Kalau dorang tak bookkan bilek, rogol je dorang sampai jiwe terganggu. I know you can do it.

Ok, aku dah out of idea. Slamats.

Eyh Kimak, aku pening lah siak.

SANGSINGAPURBA

2008-01-10T00:12:00.000+08:00

The much anticipated KL post.

I've bloghopped to almost all the Wawas participants blog but still sumer masih belum blog, or dah blog tapi masih halfway tak menjadi. Kinokuniya betol ah.

And yes, read all the entries, sumer cakap gerek, mauts, mengancam, power, rocks, pebbles dan pasir... But on aku punyer part aku feel that theres still some things that we can work on. Its is undeniable that we did great over there despite all the setbacks, last-minute changes and whatever negativity that we had. But still all of us have to realise that (or might have already realised) the many lessons to learn, from this trip.

Chey, Nizal selalu ade je yang tak puas hati. Ohwell, someone has to kritik what...

So let me dedicate this entry to SangSingaPurba.
Because I have my reasons for wanting to write a dedication to members of SSP.

Harap dimaafkan kerana entry ini akan mengandungi banyak element emo, kegumbiraan yang mendadak dan cerita sejarah penglipur lara pasal aku masuk SSP yang boleh membuatkan kamu semua menghentak-hentak dahi di dinding sebab tak boleh angkat cerita berjela-jela tapi korang tetap nak bace sebab harap-harap nama korang akan keluar dalam post ini.

Ok, takmo harapkan sangat ah eh. Hahahs.

Sang Singa Purba.
OK, tak pernah dengar.
Confirm merepek.
Kiwak semua tengok aku macam nak telan siak.
Aiseh, minah siak ni perempuan.(Asmida)

First thoughts.

Go with the flow Nizal, go with the flow.
Belum try belom tau.

Hahahs.

And up to this day, I cant thank Aizat enough for introducing me to SSP. Seeing how far I've come, how much I've accomplished, and the post that I'm holding now, all this would not have happened if I hadnt known Aizat. And every step that i took and will take along this journey, i cant help but to look back and be gratified and honouring the guy who flagged off my journey of adventure with SSP. Alah tak payah lah eyh aku nak tulis berjele-jele cakap terima kasih. Understand understood ah. So, Thanks ah eyh Aizat. K, kau imagine yang skarang kiter ngah buat handshake yang tumbok palm.

Dah?

Amin.

Especially after this trip, the feeling of belonging seems to grow like in an instant, freaking stronger macam incredible hulk gitu. I'm starting to imagine what I would have been doing now if I didnt know you guys in the first place. I could have turned into a mat melayu tapi perangai paikiak bebual lor, siao, wei, haiyo, de dan yang sewaktu dengannye. The truth is, aku takde kawan melayu mase start sekolah dulu.

Ok, aku tau tu namenyer kental buah lenchee, action, taknak bergaul carik kawan. Eyh kunik, aku pemalu lah siak.

K aku tau korang ade dah ketawe rolling rolling tak percaye. Betol per, salang nak pi awallah dondang audition je punyerlah sekse... aku ulang alik ulang alik belakang tu T11A sebab malu nak jumpe korang.

EEee, malunye aku bilang korang pasal sume ni. Takpe, ni post ego aku sanggup letak tepi.

Korang tengok sekarang, aku dah tak tau malu. Korang punyer pasal ah.. hahas!

All that akan tetap kekal dalam ingatan aku tau. Susah beb nak luper. And ngan budak SSP sumer ok. Its like we are one big family that one can never have. Yes, memang ah, mane family takde miscommunication kan... But when we are together, wah the feeling i tell you all... Mengancam kalbu, jiwe dan sanubari siak. Seriousu. Tak bohong. Betolbetolbetol.

And I always look up to Ariffin for his way of doing things. Aku ingat lagi dier sanggup carikkan orang untok ajar aku maths. Tu part aku dah terfikir. Wah, susah dapat kawan kawan macam gini and I'd be forever grateful for all those help. Tapi yang anti-climaxnyer is that skali Mai yang aja aku. But still, mane nak dapat beb kawan macam gini? Tanyer budak ching chong, sumer step tak tau. Kimek cheng teng sejuk betol ah.

So from one pementasan to another, Awallah Dondang 2, Muzikarama II, Muzikarama III dan skarang, Wawas. I watched each and everyone. How each of us has changed over time. (Chey macam bapak bapak perhatikan anak membesar gitu...) How some has earned my utmost respect for, and some simply remained (bleagh).

I can say that this is the reflection point in my SSP life up till now. Theres so much to say about SSP that i just dont know how to express it in words. Actually its not about SSP, its more about the people of SSP.

So.. lets talk about wawas in detail.

Wah, the journey to KL in the train reminded me of the trip with the Youth Rowers. Its exactly the same, a bunch of teens without parents, taking a train, trying hard to entertain ourselves, then cant entertain go disturb those who are sleeping, halfway some go to the cafe cabin to relec minum teh, and you know do what we do best. But this time it was more kecoh cause there were 4 bottom beds. So everyone berkumpul buat mesyuarat agong pagi pagi bute mengunyah keropok kerepek dah yang sewaktu dengannyer.

Reach Kl, its the same thing, had breakfast at Mcd. Then proceeded to Asrama Puspapuaka. Eyh, korang, aku lupe seh details ape kiter buat.

Wakaka. So much for a detailed entry.

So why not aku list down all the events yang aku boleh ingat.

First night, aku ni memang gelisah nak mampos. Ape lagi, aku suggest kat roommates bilik 12, Jad, Jeff, Aizat, Aidil, kita buat PILLOWFIGHT ! hahas.

Bilik 9, target: MAISARAH.

Wakaka! Member tudung sampai senget benget siak. hahas!! Violent siak, in the end aku yang kene pukul! hahahs!

Bilik 10, target: SARAH & ASMIDA.

kau tau, macam mamak minum todi abestu macam dingdong kene selubung selimut abestu kene tonyo ngan bantal? hahahs!!! KEKEK lah siak! Abestu As kene member tros binget buat muke tapai. hahas!

Bilik 13, target: HADDAD & SYAMIL.

wah, ni bilek kene paling rabak siak. haddad kene nonstop smacking. even hadis roommate dier pon join. tsk tsk tsk. tak sejiwe macam room 12. chey chey chey. hahahs! haddad kene sampai kenoneng terus tak bermaye atas katil. hahas. abestu syamil pulak kene sampai jatuh katil. hahahs! kecoh seh. imagine, sampai berpeluh. betul punyer workout...

Oh, and one of the nights aku masok bilik 9 nak cepit kuku, skali aku perasan, aik, apasal si adillah siang dah selubung dah tido. ini tak boleh jadi ni. aku mesti selidik. hahas. abestu aku dengar macam ade bunyi bisik bisik. aiseh, skali aku pi kat tepi katil dier ... wah wah wah, member ngah bebual ngan cayang dier lah... siap ade gamba lagik untuk ditenung. chey, ape lagi aku merampas gambar itu dari genggamannye. aiseh, sweet lah siak gamba...

THANK GOD I FOUND YOU...

Wakaka! Kene kacau ngan aku rabak rabak siak! takpe takpe... Biar jauh dibatasi lokasi, namun tetap dekat dihati. kwang kwang kwang... hahahs! so the jiwe.

And who wouldnt remember the night where everyone suddenly turned pious. Wuhuuhuu. Eyh aku sampai mandi hadas dan berzikir beb. amboi-amboi, susah dapat tau.. ahaahaas! Oh, aku lakukan semuanya untukmu Maisarah... (Muntah Darah Belahak).

Tsk tsk tsk.

Oh Mai, ingat tak aku suke nyanyi lagi jiwang kat kau? Semuanya bermula dengan harapan palsu. Hahahahs!

Abestu one of the nights, sebelum tido, Jihad ngan aku ngah bebual pasal nak keje kat mane. So dah bebual bebual halfway Aizat tido. Dier start berdengkur je kite dah tepuk tangan sebab before that dier tak boleh tido sebab seram so suruh kiter bebual jadi dier tertido dengarkan kite. So bile si polan dah tido, kiter pon get ready ah nak tido dah tutup lampu sume. Wah dier dengkur biaselah kan. and the amazing thing was that, aku sambut dengkur dier by mimicking a higher pitch, wah member pon naikkan pitch dengkur dier. chey aku ngan jeff ngan jad dah kekek siak. tapi like suddenly dier stop dengkur. terus dier cakap:

"AIR STEWARDESS."

then continue dengkur balik. what the fuck siak! hahahs. that point terus sumer macam tergamam abestu tros ketawe berdekah dekah sampai bilik 13 ingatkan ade cik kak mengilai. sebab aku ketawe dah macam orang gile macam nak semput. hahahs! ni mesti aizat terbawak bawak impian dier pastu ngigau. hahas!

alah, abestu tukar bilik ingatkan selamat. the first night je ngah isap rokok aku terperasan ade kakak ngah gayut kat pokok yang ade tali tali tu depan balcony bilik 3. alah tapi tu tak seram sangat. sebab dah pernah nampak. so lepastu terus mandi get ready tido. and for some reason aku mandi tak berani pejam mate and all the way tengok mirror sebab aku dah feeling weird. then kan, sume dah tutup lampu nak tido except for lampu toilet. and aku suddenly rase macam gelisah. so aku sat on the bed, and stare blankly at the toilet door sambil dengar lagu. then something moved at the corner pintu masuk. aku pon macam tak ingat pape ah sebab aku memang kalau gelap mate ade sikit macam siak. then yang si slenger ni pi jenguk nak tau sangat pebende yang gerak at the entrance corner. Hangkau, dier pon jenguk balik. Serious siak. aku terperanjat seh. Tak pernah nampak makhluk hitam macam gitu. Terus aku teriak panggil Jad. aiseh member tak sada lah siak. pelagi aku terus selubung selimut menggeletar. kiwak, ape tak, dah dalam same bilik lah siol. and takde orang lain yang bangun. abestu aleh aleh aku dengar jad bangun bebual sorang cakap stereo kuat sangat. Wah, tu time aku dah lege nak mampus siak. terus aku takle tido, all the way selubung then sampai aidil bukak surah kat radio aku tutup mate sambil bace. that was my first experience other than a kakak. yang siaknyer ade orang dengar aku teriak, tapi buat bodo continue tido. thanks ah eh. kunik. hahas!

oh pasal play pulak, aku buat phrase baru:

"MENGGEMBUS GEMBRA."

eyh bongok, "menghembus bara" lah bodoh. aku nervous sangat for the first show sampai bebual pon melalot merepek meraban. abestu dah tau buat salah lagi boleh ketawe. hhahs!

But in my opinion, second night was the shitzzz... Performance was superb. Aku suke Pelita 2nd night and Kuching third night. and oh, aku for play kucing everyday tuka costume. Suke suke hati jek. hahas. but the third night punyer paling mauts ah. seriosu. tak bohong.

thankyou to sarah for giving me the confidence that i could do it. You never failed to give me the warmest hug before every show. You made me believe that I can do it. Eventhough first day hancur lebur macam bubur lambok. Thanks ah eh, you have been a great buddy. =)

and yes, Jalan Kenanga. Makanan shiokkkssss. Tak coolnyer is that takle minum air sejuk. Wah, macam diseksa siak. aku punyer orang mane minum air panas beb. salang kat rumah pagi pagi dah minum coke sejuk. perut aku dah malas nak terperanjat pon.. hahas. and the trip there with sash mai and jihad only was fun. chey macam relec gitu borak borak macam ngah holiday.

and after the whole performance, did a final shopping at times square. then mule mule ngan Jad and Mai, in the end aku jalan solo sebab aku takyah susahkan orang nak teman kan aku carik barang. Relec jer, aku turun kat bags area jap tengok ade orang jage terus aku pi Bukit bintang sorang sorang. masuk quiksilver shop. Aiseh, dorang dah tak jual slipper reefs seh! aku baru ingatkan nak beli. the quiksilver slippers pon design macam tembak. so pi sungei wang ngan BB jalan jalan jumpe cardigan. fuyooo. Happy nak mampos lah seh. Last piece lagik siot. Terus bangge siak dapat cardigan... hahas!

and the ride home was funn! Chey, naik bus yang ader 3 plasma tv. abestu diah ajak aku duduk kat belakang sekali. wah shiok. seat dier elevated. kiter lagi tinggi abestu boleh tengok sumer yang duduk depan kite. hahas. tangan aku gatal pi explore compartments. jumpe bantal. share ngan diah. chey tengok movie macam real. konon taknak tido ah. kaki aku dah kat atas headrest sash. in the end gone jugak. aiseh aku ngah lentok aleh aleh diah tonyo muke aku ngan patrick. terkejut sejenak siak. lepastuh teros takle tido. ambek ambek gamba, buat buat kecoh. alah yg couple couple sume mendak jer. sume senyap. yang singles yang buat kecoh kat belakang bus. sampai baring terbalik balik. yeah, it was a really cool trip home.

So, there were many things that are yet to be said. Ade memory yang aku tau kelakar nak mampus but somehow aku lupe. I'm hoping to read other blogs and get reminded of them.

Yeah, like I've said, I've closely bonded with the SSPians, Maisarah, Jihad, Sash, Haddad and the rests.

We never failed to say "Kau OK tak?" everytime the mood level goes down. Nanti mesti je ade way of cheering up.

Jihad, thanks ah eh for being like a big brother to me, to all of us there. Memang susah dapat ah to get a guy who's very attentive of everyone's feelings. thank you for all the advices and teguran. Aku tau kau step garang, padahal padahal. Wakaka! Nasib baik aku tak blog sms yang kau anta kat aku after the trip. That would really be kekek to the max, buat sume orang ketawe rolling rolling on the floor siak. hahs!

Maisarah, thanks ah eh for being like a big sister to me. Sometimes aku rase macam kau B1 aku B2. hahas! thankyou for all the advices and teguran. Macam bebual ngan kau terus aku hilang worry aku. Especially you know during you-know-what-we-ssp-do-best breaks. Kau yang banyak simpan secret aku siak. hahas! biar bocor plastic, jangan bocor rahsie.. And you are another person who i think believe that I can doit and i really appreciate that. and i will never forget what you said to me kat tepi paip luar theatre. (tempat tak glamour siak)

chey, macam same je ape aku cakap kau mai ngan jad. chit, nizal tak original langshong!

and eyh sash, kau cool lah. relec jer. hahas. yang takle angkat is yang kau grumbling lepas KLCC. kecoh siak. hahas! gerek gerek, tak jelak tengok kau buat kelakar.

and hadad, thanks for all the opportunities. all the hard work, the stresses, i think it paid off. I think whatever we talked about at Queensway, let it be the last thing on our minds right now. oh, please lah, takmo merajok banyak sangat boleh? hahas. put that in your new year's resolution. hahahs!!

And somehow this trip changes the way people see me. Aku taulah, aku kalau buat keje macam asshole, keras kepale. and it doesnt help that aku end puberty dengan raut wajah yang sentiase macam moody step garang sebab kening aku ternaik kat hujung.. hahahs. So naturally orang akan ingat aku ni tak boleh diajak berbual pasal problems. Tapi aku kalau kawan needs a listening ear aku boleh dengar and bagi advice sebab alah, SSP is my family, and I take it after Jihad, Maisarah, Ariffin, Haddad that when someone needs help, be there. Give them the truthful opinion and support them all the way. Thats what i like about this family.

Aku ingat ape Jihad cakap the day before MZK3. Wah, betol punyer reality check. But its straight to the face and i had tp accept that fact that I was weak. But in the end, everything turned power dodek. We stick through thick and thin.

You see, being in SSP is not just about learning to act, to sing, to dance, to say long sentences till your face turn blue, to shout A EH E O U like beroks, to do lighting, to be a gay cat and whatevershits.

Its more than that. Go ask yourself what you've learnt other than theatre aspects and see how much SangSingaPurba means to you.

SSP, tiada bandingan.

Haddad, Jihad, Hadis, Ariffin, Jeffri, Aizat, Shamil, Didi, Afiq, Aidil, Maisarah, Sash, Suzana, Sarah, Asmida, Nadia, Suhaila, Faridah, Adillah.

Thankyou guys.

K sape nak challenge aku blog lagi panjang? Nasib baik aku tak pakai bahase baku all the way. hahas!

2007

2008-01-04T01:40:00.000+08:00

2007

A very fucking mendak year.

Broken relationships, stresses, self-angst, being constantly lost, betrayed and full of casuistries and hypocrite characters around and not forgetting to mention, being used. And lastly, many unaccomplished tasks.

So there you go, my 2007 recollection.

Short and unsweetened for all to laugh at.

Foreword

2008-01-02T01:54:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK!!

But shall blog about it later on. For now, all I want to do is to take a shower, slump onto my queen sized bed, turn on the fan at full blast, hear the sound of the banglas washing the taxis at the petrol station and have a good look at all the pictures and think about the great KL performance trip/holiday that I just had.

I think that should be a nice way to close that chapter for now. So you readers, be prepared for a very long entry next.

Till then,
Adios and TakeCares and,

" Thank God! " - Adillah

2007-12-23T14:38:00.000+08:00

FAREWELL !

OFF TO KUALA LUMPUR !

COMING BACK NEXT YEAR, 2ND JANUARY 2008.

(cheh, macam pegi satu tahun gitu.)

ANYTHING EMAIL ME, I SHALL CHECK MY EMAILS WHEN I'M THERE.

Wawas Overnight.

2007-12-20T00:16:00.000+08:00

WORD OF THE DAY

" GO SAKK BALLS LAHH! "

This week is hell.
Oh my fucking shit, theres so much to do.

Sorry Helfizza for the PBL. I really dont know how to do eventhough i knew the formula and the way to do it.
Like what the shit, maths is definitely never my forte, i dont know how to calculate the values using that formula that i found.

Maths, GO SAKK BALLS LAHH!

Sorry Didi for the last minute backing out of Piala Khatulistiwa.
Yes, it is a waste that i've decided not to join this year. I really hope that i've made the right choice lah, cause i felt that i have other higher priorities to fulfill and way beforehand i've mentioned that giving my commitment is quite hard.

Yeah, so i wish the Singapore Polytechnic Dikir Barat team could win the title again this year.
Whats the name ah? Still Putra Adiwangsa?
Hahahs, name doesnt matter actually.

Anyhoos, had the Wawas overnight rehearsal yesterday.
It was gerek to the max ah.
Wait, with SSP Lions takkan boring punyer.

Reached Sp around 6pm? Then did rehearsals for Kucing and then headed to FC 5 for dinner.
I didnt eat though. Cause granny bought for me Mutton Chops from Telok Blangah.
Sedap Power Dodek.
Dodek - Dho-derk.

Then lepak for quite a while before we proceeded to T12 concourse for rehearsal.
Learned the full chereography for the Pelita Wawasan dance.
Boleh tahan kencang.
Ribut pon kalah beb.

Ok, badan aku nak kene macam jelly sikit. Kekok nak mampus macam robot transformers belajar gelek Inul.
Hahshs!

Then continued with the Kucing. Finished the entire play. Just needs some polishing. Ade joget lagik. Kiwak, aku kene duduk atas pangku Jad, kiwak, tak selese siol. Seriously looks wrong lah siak. Kiwak, what did i get myself into?
Hahahs!

Argh! GO SAKK BALLS LAHH!

On real day baru aku buat betul betul.

Lepastu ade kisah Misteri berlaku diperkarangan tersebut...

Then some dah ngorok. Aku As Adilla Aizat Maisarah sumer buat jumpshots. Woo. Mauts beb. Kelakar nak mampos. Ade satu gamba aku jadi hiphop tak menjadi. hahas.

K by then dah pukul 530am? Then kononnyer nak ambek quick shut eye teros pi kedai granny.

K nizal, kirim salam sua.

Aku telah mengeprove kepade kesemua yang ada bahawesenye memang aku ade alarm clock handphone pon tak gune. Aku sada As kejutkan aku abestu alarm handphone ngah bunyik. Hahahs. And the best part was that i was holding to the phone abestu ade vibration; TAPI AKU TETAP TAK SADA.

Amin. Skarang baru korang tau kenape aku selalu lambat.
Cool kan?
Hahahs.

Wah lepastuh aku off alarm terus continue tido. Then around 7am made a move to MLS sebab kite macam budak tepi jalan takde mak bapak tidor kat lantai bersepar sampai matahari dah terbit.

In MLS was so kecoh ah. Lepas satu, satu buat kecoh. Aizat dah ngorok gone. Aku ngan Didi tak abes abes siak ketawe. Then yang amazing thing was that lepas Didi start ngorok, terus Aizat senyap. hahas. Macam berbalas pantun nampak.. Tapi yang takleh angkat is:

YU GO SAKK GREEN BALL,

YU GO SAKK RED BALL,

YU GO SAKK JINGLE JINGLE BELL BELL LAHH!

Plan kononnyer nak breakfast tak menjadi. Then at 1PM baru sumer nak pi "breakfast/lunch". Biase jugak aku yang liat nak bangon, sape lagi kan...
Then pi gosok gigi, tak mandi muke copet, rambut flat tempek terus pi makan kat FC3. Sume muke stoink steam kodok basi siak. Hahahas! Tapi satu satu maintain macam konon fresh ah gitu.

Then lepas lunch back to MLS to sort out the costumes for Wawas. Entah, aku macam rimas gitu tadi dalam bilik MLS. Macam banyak sangat barang bersepah. But luckily sume dah neatly organised into bags. Amin.

Then after that Zana ngan Sash join. Then kiter lepak dan tido. Then kakak call tanyer nak minyak wangi tak. sebab FCUK perfume going for $29 for 30ml? Kiwak, 30ml nak buat ape?
aku nyer spray je tak sampai 2 minggu aku rase habis. Might as well aku tambah $30 for a 100ml kan? betol tak?

tapikan, mane aku nak dapat tu 30 ketik ah?

yang peliknyer kan, aku dah tolong granny, duik burn sebab topup ezlink and beli makanan.
chitoots.
nak pi KL macam takde duit jer and aku belum sound sama granny pasal duit nak pi KL.
hahas!

Nanti mesti dier berleter,

"Drama, drama, drama! ,

Tak habis habis drama !"

Okay, tu part je boring.

" Panas, panas, panas, TELINGA ini !

Pusing, pusing, pusing, Kepala ini ! "

And oh shit, my passport is yet to be extended.

Kuntilanak betol.

Actuallykan korang, aku matlamat nak pi tadi.

TETAPI,

aku lupe bawak passport.

dan seperti yang diceritakan tadi, masa takkan pernah menyebelahi aku.

OK, Friday G-O GO!

OH, belom habis crite, tadi terus jumpe kakak. kakak blanje makan FishCo. Wooo.. kenyanng dokk. Mauts dokk. Seafood platter, entah-ape-pasta, ngan one big jug of Sharkie freeze. Wooo.

Kenyang kembong dan yang sewaktu dengannyer beb.

Anyhoos, aku perasankan, macam dah lain ah. Aku perhatikan, aku sendiri yang geram padahal takde mengene ngan aku. Tapi aku prefer yang dulu ah.

Dah, diam.

MAISARAH,

AKU NAK GAMBAR LOMPAT LOMPAT.

the black day.

2007-12-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

you know, yesterday i was so stressed out that i had to resort to that.
aku macam takde otak gitu.

15 DEC 2007.

a day in my life that i dont want people to ever know what happened.

MIA

2007-12-15T19:41:00.000+08:00

bebual senang. tapi biler part nak buat mane kau?

hari tu ye ye. in the end sape yang buat?

takmo kerek ah please.

dulu kau tak macam gitu seh.

eyh korang, aku macam nak MIA ah.

aku sekarang feel like shit.

shithead

2007-12-12T01:01:00.000+08:00

MUZIKARAMA III - INI MACAM HABISLAH

The Lions Jantans. Ok, heck care the general term that lion already means jantan.

2/3 of SSP manpower.

SUZANA'S BIRTHDAY
Somehow Hadis looks weird.

Cheh, makan cake dengan penuh konsentrasi. Si kupu-kupu menjeling nampak. hahahs!

Itu dia, empat meja di Al-ameen.

Mai tudung penyek happy giler nampak...

Terperangkap dibawah jembatan sebab hujan lebat.

Wah, tempek-s basah nampak...

MEETING SSP LIKASHING

Tokoh pemimpin Parti Keadilan 2026

Aku ngan Jeff jadi penyokong. Siap buat shake shake lagi.

ALRIGHTY. THATS ALL THE NICE PICTURES I HAVE FROM THE CAMERA.

Hum-ti-di-dum.
i'm in a whirlwind right now.

Kau tau ape tu whirlwind? Alah, yang angin pusing pusing macam dalam cerita cowboy kat desert. Ah, macam gitu ah otak aku sekarang.

Entah eh, aku macam hari hari moody.

"entah mengapa, ku rasa tak menentu..."

K, releck eyh, aku bukan mat pasrah putus cinte nak mati terjun dari tingat due.
Cheh, rhyme nampak...
Oh, bebual pasal cinte, mase aku tenung Berita Harian Isnin page 10 lower half segment , aku terpandang kat cerpen yg ade kat page 11. Tengok biodata penulis budak pompuan umur 14 tahun. Dier tulis pasal cerita putus cinte. Aisehman, the vocabulary ngan sentence structure boleh tahan. The story pon mauts. Yang peliknyer, 14 tahun dah tulis cerita jiwe lare mati roh tengokkan orang melawat. hahas. jiwang betol ah budak zaman sekarang. so the i love you you love me you lari i nak mati. hahahs. zaman aku 13-14, aku masih tulis pasal Kotak Misteri.
Hahahs. Nasib baik Mai ingatkan aku yang aku punyer cerpen pernah dipublishkan dalam buku. Takdelah terlintas dalam benak aku nak tulis pasal lub lub ni sumer. Kental buah lenchee jer.

Sebab i think that whatever you pen down has a relation with your inner self. Even how short the cerpen can be.
OK, cerita pasal budak jiwang kental buah lenchee boleh letak tepi.

Eyh, mak complain kat kakak, kenape aku selalu tenggelam timbul.
Haiyo.

"Kau tak baik siak",

as said by kakak herself.

Entahlah. aku malas nak pikir pikir.
Sometimes I just feel like an ungrateful asshole.
Menyesal sekali sudah. Jangan sampai pisang busuk berbuah dua kali sudah.

Hum-tidi-dum.

Anyhoos, the meeting yesterday was abit useless.
Because Din wasnt there. So its frustrating cause Farhan didnt know what we are talking about, so he had to call Din afew times to confirm and its like leceh nak mampus. Its a pity that Farhan has to face it with us. And yes, he does seem confused and stressed at times. If Farhan didnt know anything, what do you expect of the rest of the EXCO?

And i was so effing fedup cause Din had already postponed the meeting twice. And we had already told him in advance about yesterday but still he didnt show up. Atleast tell us that he wont come. What we want is to talk it face to face.

Hmmm... fishy fishy.

And because of that, we have to do another meeting this friday, sebab decisions cant be made without the president. And I should have tape recorded what we said cause I predict that this Friday will be a repeat telecast of our points = waste time.

Eyh, i have better things to do lah eyh.

Ni kalau tak datang lagik, silap silap kau nampak semua Sang Singa mengaum. Aku mengaum sambil lempar kerusi.

Amachiam? Nak?

Pfft.

Sajak for Wawas.

I have a semi-draft which sounds so kental nak mampos.
Shall work on it even more.

Anyhoos, I suck during rehearsal yesterday.
I dont know, i just couldnt focus.
Every word i said sounded angry.
Sorry hadad for grabbing your hair too hard, cause well, i was angry.
I felt like shit back then.

Temper maintain beb, temper.

Everyone knows that I can just erupt in <>

Tapi tu jarang ah sebab aku selalu suke simpan, biler dah letgo sape yang kene nasib ah. Hhahas.

Nizal, takmo macam sial boleh tak perangai?

Niari pulak, lepas wawas pi IKEA naik kereta Jihad. Lepastuh meet yang lain makan kat Mr Prata at Evans Rd. Then Jihad belanja. Wooo. Pasal niari pendek nak mampus sebab aku abit relaxed today. Sebab hati aku momentarily tak gelisah macam semalam.

fucking bored.

2007-12-09T01:25:00.000+08:00

oohs. energy level totally exhausted on helping grandma.

after that went home. showered and went to esplanade for Dikir & Wawas.

since i was late, decided to take bus SBS Express 502 and stop exactly at Esplanade.

being the shy person i am, looking at the board to see where i should stop took me ages, cause aku malu nak tengok, sebab aku stress nanti orang pikir aku ni kental sebab nak kene tengok tengok board.

ok aku tau aku weird.

so i had to wait till no one was at the busstop. nasib baik bus 502 blom sampai.

ok the board said:

-opp. IMM building

-opp. synergy building

-expressway

and so i thought that, cool, after jurong east straight away go into expressway and it heads straight to town.

pukimak anjing lah siak. after synergy, it travelled all the way to clementi, then holland village then baru dier masok expressway.

they didnt state that on the board that they will be going by that way. i thought that they would go by the nearest expressway, at tohguan road or clementi ave 6, which made more sense. and why the fuck go the long way?

ha, ambek kau tipah tertipu.

so a ride which i thought was about 4o mins, took more than an hour.

you call that express? puki pepek lu.

and so i reached esplanade at around 5+? sat for dk, and learnt 3 moves and thats it. it ended.

so i thought we're gonna do wawas next, but then they've wrapped it up.

and we went to eat at long john msq.

ok, binget.

and then saw abang sid's adik and his girlfriend. ok, tak tegur sebab aku memang tak bebual ngan dier.

then went to esplanade, watch a gig at the stage area there.

ok, stress.

sebab banyak melayu. kalau melayu biaser takpe. ni melayu yg haprak minah minah dan mat mat rep yg kental nak mampos step mane punyer jambu maner punyer berg macam esplanade datuk dier punyer tempat. togok arak depan sume orang ingat mane punyer cool. abestu minah minah mengilai ngilai maki kuat kuat, yang si matrep bertenggek kat pagar macam gagak tengok orang macam nak telan.

pukimek lah.

ok, melayu tak sial. budak melayu macam dorang yg macam sial.

so decided to move away from there and thus sat at the merlion.

ok, dah binget + mendak.

so move to boat quay macdonalds.

ok, dah binget + mendak + lagi mendak.

then balik naik train,tapi turun kat tanjong pagar naik next train sebab banyak matrep dalam train.

kenape eyh aku macam gini?

mai kau pening,nak tido?

aku tekak loye, nak muntah.

that voice inside my head banyak buat dose hari ini.

dah lah nizal, diam-diam macam tadi kan bagus.

k mai aku tak jadi tulis dengan mendalam sebab aku malas dan boring dan binget dan yang sewaktu dengannyer. understand understooded lah eyh.

rapsodi remix.

2007-12-08T01:05:00.000+08:00

For today, please give me your roundest round of applauses in conjunction with my achievements of coming to school early.

thankyou. thankyou.

i reached at probably 915am, the earliest time so far for this semester.

round of applauses again please.

thank you. thank you.

oh, the class started at 8am. but somehow i didnt have the sense of urgency. reached dover, bought epok-epok first at the dover busstop. then when i reached the control station, met zana, sash and friend. continued to chat while strolling to T11a.

oh, what a lovely day.

did bmic lab and then rushed over to T1A for IOC.
i couldnt understand why my classmates were running/rushing from T11A to T1A.
they said charles would be angry at them for being late.
ape aku kesah.
hohoho.

then after ioc had lunch at mcdons. then i had to contemplate whether to go for gems or go watch a movie with ad/dila/fizza. i chose the latter. harhar. so went to the library and they chosed spykids. and they were so excited with getting to wear that 3D specs.
i watched for a mere 20 minutes before giving up and slept while they were oooh-ing and aaahh-ing at the 3D effects. and when i woke up, they were still oooh-ing and aaahh-ing.

anyway, we thought we were late for IOC practical. but then, when we went to the lab, there was this strong smell of smoke and the the lecturer said they had to postpone the practical.

anyhoos, the class rep was such a stuckup beach lah siak. she didnt have to answer my question in that manner.

fast forward, went to FC5 to meet jihad, syamil, fard and aidil. then was kinda irritated lah eh back then. then syamil, fard, jihad went home. aidil, fizza and i went to moberly to play carrom. then after waiting for reyza, we went to mediacorp to watch rapsodi live. hahas.

and i managed to video wahida and syuhaidah ngah buat bende tak senonoh. habes ah, masok youtube. hahs!

Rapsodi Remix.
SirapTodi Mix.
hahas. thats what i've been thinking throughout the show.

anyhoos, reach there and ariff so the selambe bombe pi pasang charger dier kat socket nak charge handphone. wah, macam kat skolah pulak, rilek jer. hahas. kecoh siak.
and then went in, yada yada yada watch the show. okok.
to me the best vocals had to be maiya and hariani and that brunei guy that has reyza's looks.
even hady, didnt leave me impressed. i have my doubts of him winning asian idol. but his fans sure support him like hell. hahas. so kudos to them. aliff pon boring. macam nothing special ah. patotlah si minah minah yang support dier.

abit boring lah eyh. luckily suhaimi yusof buat kelakar, even during the commercials.
hahas. kekek siak.

and si reyza malu kalau termasok tv. hahas. stress giler siak. abeh si ariff pulak everytime ade camera pointing in our direction terus excited. hahas.

seriously entertaining.

chey, nak naik lif sempat ambek gambar. oops mintak maaf ariff muke kau kene cut.

us with zalinah. k kental mate aku tutop. sape kate zalinah bukan selebriti? dier pernah nyanyi and joget lagu raye kat suria beb.

ni gambar mauts nak mampos. susah tau nak dapat gambar aku senyum tunjuk gigi bunny, nak grit bibir tak menjadi.. k syuhaida kat belakang macam orang sewel. ape matlamat aku pon tak tau..

kl is gonna be a dread.

2007-12-06T03:34:00.000+08:00

entah aleh aleh aku teringat crite harry potter?
theres a character called black eye moody.
and do you know?
UHU glue boleh tahan melekit seh.

mai oh mai... kau paham?

"oh, aku pening ah, nak tido."
hahas. the lamest excuse!

mai oh mai... kau paham?

wawasan

2007-12-04T01:43:00.000+08:00

woke up in the morning.

glanced at the clock.

730am.

still early, class is at 11am.

so went back to sleep.

hum-ti-di-dum.

woke up.

315pm.

so went back to sleep.

hum-ti-di-dum.

woke up.

430pm.

got up and got ready for wawas.

after i've gotten ready, i lit up a cigg.

fark shit.

i felt like shitting.

so had to take off everything, including shoes and socks.

and i missed bus 185.

exit the lift and saw the bus leaving the busstop.

damn it.

and then reached school, they haven't started yet so still abit lucky.

then sub didi's role.

its was ok lah. i've never done it before so understand understood lah eh.

orang buat lain aku buat lain.

hahas.

it was shaggadellic though.

then had dinner at thaksin.

ordered mutton chop.

its general knowledge that eating mutton can cause you to have high blood pressure.

but eating that mutton chop at mamak stall can also give you diabetes.

damn farking sweet lah siak.

he put like 1kg of sugar i think.

and that mutton chop didnt have the slightest taste of spicyness.

i felt like i was eating mutton with red rempah jam.

and the potato wasnt fried.

it was like blanched and surface fried..

what the heck.

telok blangah is the bestest.

and then after dinner had jokes session.

HAR-HAR-HAR!

ouh anyways, just found nisya's multiply and got hold of the camp pictures which are so out dated but still i dont fucking care. so here they are.

wah, amboi amboi. abang abang kiter malam malam terpekik terlolong practice untok performance. muke maintain ah, macam sembelit jer..

"diah, kau rase budak budak makan dulang tak? sebab aku rase makanan tak cukop ah.."

waah. mai macam minah malysia. har-har-har. li ka shing!

k nampak sah due due muke kental nak mampos. aizat ngan topi fubu fuad. aku punyer muke tak payah nak cakap ah..

achey-chey-chey. abang cekak tak menjadi.

yessah muke sape-kentot.

JPS chalet; do you remember?

2007-12-02T01:09:00.000+08:00

The great people from Jurong Primary 6C/6B
At changi hawker for supper
Left to Right:

Yong Xian, Quan Rong, Hong Yu & Me While waiting for the pancit tyre group.
Wooo! We are 12 again! Star gazing. TianJu like just given birth siak.
L to R & Back to Front:

ZhenRong, Me, Aidil, HongChin, PeiYing, TianJu, YongXian, HongYu, Eileen, ZhiHao, Fahrul, ChengLiang, QuanRong, Jieli.

Azzam not in Picture.

Like duh, in the train otw back.Fahrul muke horny siak.

do you remember?

class 4C.

the year the three ladies sang "Hey Sarah,Sarah" and got third in the school annual singing competition representing our class.Mrs Annie Low, always giving us, aidil, azzam, ridzuan and me oranges and mooncakes.She always wipe her table with foolscap, not a cloth. hahas.

do you remember?

class 5B.

the year we got the greatest teacher ever, Miss Chan. and she organised our very first chalet together. that was the greatest experience ever as a 11 years old lah. like soo much freedom. so the bangge. and how "Tornado 13" proved to 5A people during the interclass telematch thats its more than just having the brains. The thirteen of us really showed teamwork like hell lah siak.

do you remember?

class 6B.

Mrs Catherine Ho. The second coolest teacher to be form teacher of our class. and how Tornado 13 became more mischievious. mentang mentang dah beat budak pandai.. hahas.

remember our great playing spot, the unused art room on the secluded 3rd floor? we secretly made it into our clubhouse. we drew on every table, played with water, rummaged through the cupboards for arts stuffs to do and also the baseball game around the huge centre table using a scotchedtaped paperball and a bromstick as a bat.

remember taking off our shoes and going into the science pond to catch guppies? and when asked by the OM, we acted so well that he believed that we were instructed to do a science project? oh, how about the breaking in into the computer labs just to play neopets everyday?

only primary six and already so the prangai. ey i was a prefect somemore seh.
hahahs. gone were the days where school seems fun and everyday i was so eager to go to school.
end of primary school, we went our different ways.

yes, maybe we'd meet a few times a year, or maybe due to tight schedules,once a year during the end of year chalet's and BBQ's. we never failed to meet yearly since primary 6.

and, as soon as we meet, the feelings of friendship starts to grow much more fonder. the absence of that one year we didnt meet felt like it didnt happen. we treated each other as if we've been seeing each other daily.

great aint it?
when i reached the chalet yesterday night, i felt like i was 12 again. hahas. really!

tianju, hongyu, aidil, eileen, quan rong, zhi hao, jieli, hong chin, cheng liang, pei ern, azzam, fahrul, zhen rong, yong xian.

it was damn good to see them lah siak.

aidil rented for me a bicycle beforehand so that the whole lot of us could go for night cycling. so after having a light BBQ fill, went cycling.

intended destination was Old Changi Hospital. fuck i knew that the distance was far, but i didnt expect the road to be going uphill and downhill all the way. kiwak, kaki macam nak putus siak trying to go over each uphill path.
ok, reached Changi, took some group pictures outside the kopitiam before heading to OCH.

kiwak kali entah brape kali aku dah cakap kiwak, ruper rupernyer i went there before, it was opposite aloha changi, just that it was covered by the tall trees so we cant see it clearly from the main road.

and out of so many who cycled there, only 6 dared to go in while the rest waited at the main road. wahlau eh. boring siak. then we went in in single files. and wah, pandai, dorang suroh aku jalan belakang sekali. kiwak buat skali aleh aleh orang bisik kat telinge kang, terkncing kang aku. hahas. we went in deeper and nearly got lost so decided to walk in pairs. walked with jieli and we became the lights people. jieli shine to the front, i shine to the back. and there were lots of holes lah in the ceiling and suddenly my mind started to play wild imaginations. kiwak aku takut jer skali ngah jalan jalan ade kakak terjuntai dari lobang bumbung rambut jatuh ke bawah. tak ke seram tuh?

then went to the mortuary and blablabla. had the idea of going up the second floor. but then didnt dare to cause we initially got a bit lost on the first floor already. so going up didnt seem like the greatest idea. hahas.

anyway, took some pictures, aiming everywhere and anyhow. cause thats the only way you can capture a spirit without realising it. hahas.

and i did! a shape of a woman with long hair on the second floor of the hospital.

UBER COOLNESS!
HAHAS. aidil takut bende tu ikut balik sebab aku ambek gamba pakai camera dier !

anyhoos, after that we went to eat at the hawker centre. ate nasi ayam penyet. kiwakk, giler babi sedap lah siak. the chicken was crispy but the inside was tender and soft. then, the sambal was the bomb lah siak. beats the one at lucky plaza and hougang and world trade centre. hands down aku bagi 10/5. worth the $4. mauts babi giler.

kiwak kalau takde orang aku rase aku dah jilat seh piring kayu tuh. hahahs.
and then after that wanted to cycle to the aeroplane landing strip road but then we couldnt find the way after cycling around the area. then decided to cycle back and take a rest. then like 5 minutes into the journey, jieli's bicycle front tyre pancit. so quan rong exchanged with him. kiwak. kekek lah siak. and we shiok shiok kayuh racing racing but have to constantly stop and wait for him. hahas.

then reach back, rest a while before we cycled back to sungei api api. after that went further up to the playground. then sumer satu satu perangai mcm budak budak. then i made hong yu sad because the guys found a toad then aku punyer sial pi angkat tu katak and chase after hong yu. abestu member pasrah nak mampos siak. afterwhich we cycled to the end of the changi beach and all of us baring at the water breaker and gazed at the night sky. then i apologised to hongyu. hahahs. anyway shiok siak. coool nak mampos just baring baring and take pics with the sea breeze.hahas.

then we cycled back to the chalet and when we reached there, played monopoly till about 730am then took a shower. and the bodoh thing was that i hung my jeans in the toilet and it got wet cause i was showered so the kecohly. hahas then after that i was just wearing my doraemon boxers while going outside to dry my jeans in the sun.

and quan rong bought this magazine dedicated to men's fashion. eyh kiwakk... alot of ideas to choose from lah siak... and just found out that levi's has this new watch which is so the very the g-shock kind of style. and its green and silver or brown and gold. both lawa lah siak.

then checked out and ate breakfast at mcdonalds. fuckit seh, eating sausage mcmuffin w/o garlic chilli not nice siak. cause they dont offer garlic chilli cause they provide the pumps. damn mcdonalds downtown. hahas.

then after that went to tampines to meet SSP people. woo, for once i was early! i mean like the second person to reach lah siak! then fard and syamil reach and we sat at the mc nearby. then i dozed off and aj came. then we took the shuttle bus to IKEA to meet Maisarah. kiwak, kiter kat sane macam buat rumah sendiri siak. every show room nak kene try. hahas. kecoh siak. then found the boxes for the props. but damn expensive lah for the fact that its just kayus and screws. oh anyhoos, after all the reccee-ing, they had lunch, and then went to parkway parade to play pool till about 6pm? then made our way to plaza singapura to support reyza for his asian beats finals.

and the journey to PS was super damn funny lah siak! bethol tak mai? hahas!!! damn irritating siak aku. hahas.

like theres mira izzad aizat sarah mai jihad nisya faridah syamil afiq nisa zana hadis aidil jeff asmida and me. woo kecoh giler babi siak. jihad dengan woohoo high pich yg irritating accompanied by his gay dance moove. hahas!

and out of all the groups, reyza's looks so the amateur lah siak as compared to the other abang abang rocker lain. tapi power dodek bodek swing swing kashing kashing lah siak !! but then they managed to win third placing. and reyza won the best vocalist. mauts dokk. quite expected actually. the rest of the vocalist were mostly those satanic kind of voice. reyza is the only one who i can clearly hear what he's singing.

and kiwak the guy who won best guitarist used his teeth to play the guitar. betol punyer hardcore siak.

then after the whole shouting frenzy, we went to eat at LJS. when we finished, jeff wanted to watch a movie at cathay but there didnt have any good movies. so we took the train. then jeffas went to vivo and me and nisya went back.

dalam train lagi macam sial. theres this group of pukimaks butch-es mabok. macam puki. dah ade puki buat hal puki lah siak. nak step mabok konon. umor baru 15/16 punat masih pink nak banyak bebual. geram siak aku. and i dont understand why that quite jambu girl would want to befriends with butch-es. bodoh nak mampos siak. tak malu ke kene sepak depan orang ramai dengan butch yg muke macam berok pukimak? nak terpekik pekik mcm mane punyer besar.

grrr. geram siak aku.

abestu dah kene sepak nak nangis. abestu kat tanjong pagar ade budak handsome naik je teros boleh ketawe ketawe nak menggatal. step mabok mabok nak terlanggar langgar sampai nak duduk atas lelaki tu. kiwak pepek dah mengenyam sangat nak kene garok kepe? nasib baik bukan adik aku siak. kalau tak kat situ jugak aku bagi sidekick chunli .

grrr. geram siak aku.

memalukan masyarakat. dah lah bukan perempuan suci. mabok pulak tuh. pukimak dengdeng betol ah. menyirap siak darah terinagtkan pasal semalam.

hahas. abestu nisya all the way malas nak layan step pasrah ngan aku tengok luar tingkap. hahas. hahahs,

eyh just realised that the Team Singapore Song sucks like hell siak. the guy singing it so the sumbang mahram nak mampos. who the fuck is he?

ok lah. bley tahan panjang siak entry. but its worth it ah the whole day from friday night to saturday night. hahas.

do you remember this?

2007-11-29T23:14:00.000+08:00

Now that muzikarama is done, I just dont know what to do everyday after school.

Yelah, bebual macam paham, padahal kadang kadang tak datang skolah. hahas.

and now all of us are gila over bowling, which is one of my favouritest activities. Teringat aku zaman kecik kecik, zaman lower primary school, when there was still a 5.5 work day week. Sometimes on saturday pegi Pulau Bukom for swimming and bowling while ayah works at his office. shiok giler babi dokk. everything there is free; sort of. hahas. Shell has this thing whereby you can pay for anything within the island just by deducting it from ayah's account. so apelagi, aku ngan abang lepas masok je gantry bukom tros pi swimming, then finish swimming around 11 and we go to the restaurant and order fish and chips. fuuh. mauts dokk. after that go back to ayah's office and then kepo kepo ngan abang play computer games. then dah boring teros pi main bowling sampai ayah habis keje at 2pm.

dulu gerek, skarang dah tak. hahas.

anyhoos, i skipped work yesterday. hohoho. rabak siak. i just didnt have the mood to push me to go to work anymore. its very competitive ah. aku dah malas nak compete ngan orang.

i want to do work because i like it ah, bukan sebab terpakse. because the people there are so money driven. they compete to serve guests for the tips. its not that i disapprove of that. just that it comes to a point of time where it gets abit frustrating because the managers would think you are lazy when they see that you are just doing minimal stuff. padahal you've tried but there's people there who tries very hard to outdo you and thats where work doesnt seems fun anymore.

bleargh, some stupid thoughts.

so now i'm trying to jump over to the zoo. didi said there's a vacancy for a photographer. shall give it a try. i like animals, i like tourism, i like photography. belum cuba belum tahu mah.

anyway, yesterday i dreamnt that i was getting married. hahahs!!!!

married to one of my primary school friend!

such a weird dream lah siak. and i was telling my sister "Eh kak, aku belom ready seh nak kahwin, yang kau pandai pandai pi meminang dier apasal??!" and the setting was at atok's house in telok blangah. hahas.

teringat aku pasal mimpi nadia.

she messaged me at in the wee hours of the morning just to say that she just woke up and she had dreamnt about me.

"Aku ajak kau kua...kau ckp jgn kcau kau nak smbyng.. WAH"

Aku bace that message at around 3am boleh ketawe rolling rolling atas katil siak. Kiwak, banyak banyak bende boleh pasal aku nak sembahyang sehh. hahahs!!

Ouh!! I passed my Chem test 25/50. macam pantats.

Eyh gonna do my maths. I so damn fucking bad at it ah siak.

lost.

2007-11-23T01:40:00.000+08:00

" I dont know where I'm heading ", thats what I said to her.

ATTENTION!
Do you know that you are very misleading? I realised that you gave wrong informations.

**sorry readers, i'm in a world of my own at the very moment.

bodoh

2007-11-21T01:16:00.000+08:00

tulah, aku dah cakap pat kau siak nizal.

orang makan orang, itu lumrah dunia.

tapi kau tetap taknak percaya cakap aku.

sebab kau cakap yang kau takkan buat macam gitu kat orang lain.

tapi orang lain sanggup buat macam gitu kat kau.

kau memang bodoh siak nizal.

biase jugak, last last mengamok dengan diri sendiri.

muzikarama 2007

2007-11-18T00:45:00.000+08:00

Muzikarama 2007.
It was one hell of a journey which ended with sweet memories which could last my whole lifetime lah siak.

But for some reason, at the end of the show, aku feel empty.

Yes, memang aku berbangge dengan ape yang SSP managed to deliver, but still, I didnt know what else to feel.

It was undeniably a great show. But maybe for the fact that the whole whirlwind that had to be endured to achieve that great end result didnt really match up to feel like it was really worth it.

All the sleepless nights and the academic sacrifices.

On show day, I slept at around 6+am only to be woken up by Fizza giving me a wake-up call for BioLab.
I was definitely latelah. When I reached Audi, they were polishing up on the finale. And then i did some run throughs with Rashidah for the finale, the lights people and then i had to leave for test at T12A. Aku pi test pakai baju PE BP and they all gave me the what-the-fuck-you-wearing-to-school kind of look. Anyway who cares. Kiwak, the test was kinda hard lah cause i didnt study for it. And while doing it, my mind was on muzikarama. So heck care with the test, and I just tried to finish it without checking. Then showed the teacher the LOA and then rush back to audi. Did abit of rehearsal and then they're off to get ready for the matinee show.

Matinee Show.
I wasnt fully prepared for what to come lah siak. During the matinee show I sat with the audience with my handy dandy black notebook ngan Maisarah. Makkau. Aku jot down alot of mistakes. Lots of dumb mistakes from all aspects; music, tarian, actors. props, lighting. PN08 was draggy siak. Sorry ah guys if aku maki korang puki ker sial ker chibai during the debriefing sebab aku ngah binget giler and I know that it should have been done way better. Then after that aku breakdown sorang sorang dalam jamban sampai bebual sorang sorang telling myself that noone should nampak aku breakdown. K aku tau ni sumer ego. hahas.

Then it was back to the rehearsal. Musicians did Scene 5 and I went to control room go through with lighting people again. And then went through finale again. After all that had briefing for the Grand Night show and Haddad did the feel thinging which I still cant do. Actually at the end of it we wanted to do the seruan SSP but ended up we chanted and chanted and chanted sebab laungan tak dengar.

GrandShow.
Doors were opened at 730pm. By then aku dah nervous nak mampos. then wahida gave me a huge hug lah siak before the show satrted. And the fcuking thing was that the walkie talkie rosak at the last moment. Macam puki anjing siak. Nasib baik zureen ade so we exchanged the school walkie talkie with the mls punyer. The show started ok. PN08 was excellent. I was sitting with the musicians with the walkie talkie and cueing backstage and lighting. Everything turned out Fabulous lah siak. The only part yang boleh dispot is the part where the feedback from the mics melampau nak mampos and the part where hafiz forgot his lyrics for the musical scene. Pantat siak ni budak budak. Actual show baru nak buat bethol bethol. Even when they did a mistake, pandai giler coverup. Ingat best per giving us a hard time during the rehearsals?

The ending was mauts ah. Rashidah did a fantastic job. Spooked everyone. The part where the curtains closed, everyone clapped loudly lah siak, only to be surprised by the actual ending where the casts did a dance for the finale song. That part, I told myself, "K ni mauts punyer."

But then after the show i was disappointed for the fact that people whom i expected to meet at the end of the show were'nt there.

Not a single one from my family turn up. And the disappointing part was that Sak, Zee, Seri and Deebz left without seeing me cause I was held up backstage. Sedih nak mampos. But then Wahida pulled me aside to give me another hug and what she said made me feel appreciated. Atleast she noticed. I didnt even know what to say to her. I keep blabbering cause I was trying hard not to breakdown. hahas. ego tetap maintain beb. Thank you Wahida for those words of encouragement.

So Kudos to the Actors/Actresses:
Helfizza [Minah Kahwin-kahwin]
Aidil [M.Daud Kalau]
Wahida [Reporter]
Fahmi [Doctor]
Syahirah [Gugur]
Hafiz [Peguam]
Hidayah [Observer]
Najib [SiGemok]
Izzad [SiKudis]
Yusnani [Opera]
Filzah [Mamarazzi]
Wano [Tipah]
Safiah [Bedah]
Sash [Sarah Seyh'hon]
Nadia [ Cukkup Hajja]
Suhaila, Rahayu, Sarah, Hidayah [Nurses]
Riza, Sofian, Arif [Matrep]

Penari Wangsa Sang Singa:
Faridah, Rohanisya, Adillah, Amalia, Suhana, Rashidah, Aizat, Khairul

Props:
Syafiq, Sufyan, Achmad, Shahrizal & ... *shit yang lain aku lupe name dorang*

Costumes:
Asmida & Namira & Frizzy.

Lighting & Audio:
Sash
Syafiq M.
Az
Taufiq
Airi

But all these would not have been great without :
Maisarah
Jihad
Ariffin
Syamil
Haddad

You guys really proved to me that we are one big family and berat sama dipikul, ringan sama dijinjing. For that, I'm grateful to be part of Sang Singa Purba.

Oh, and I dont do all these for fame, I did it because of my passion.
You guys knew that the show wasnt only produced from my ideas, it was SangSingaPurba's.
Seriously I was disappointed by what happened after the show.
What's with naikkan nama?

Anyway sorry guys for the sudden outbursts and the shouting of profanities whenever I didnt like what I saw or heard. May we continue to be one big SangSingaPurba family.

2007-11-06T01:21:00.000+08:00

OKAY, AKU SEKARANG NGAH STRESS BABI GILER KEPUNDEK JINTAN KASAR SIAK.

HOHOHO,

BAD BAD BAD.

1) PROPS

2) SCRIPTS

3) TICKETING

4) COSTUMES

5) MUSIC

THEY ARE LISTED IN ORDER OF MOST WORRYING THINGS TO THE LEAST.

ARGH SHIT SIAK.

OUH AKU PERNAH MIMPI YANG MZK3 PART SCENE 5 COCKUP ABESTU THE WHOLE THEATRE SENYAP NAK MAMPOS. BAD BAD BAD DREAM.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

THIS IS NOT THE BEST TIME TO FAIL

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

ANXIETY ATTACK IN 12 DAYS.

JALAN RAYA

2007-11-02T01:06:00.000+08:00

JALAN RAYA WITH SSP LIONS WAS FAAB AH. EVENTHOUGH I JOINED AT ABOUT 8PM AFTER MZK3 REHEARSALS AT SCHOOL.

CHEY CHEY, SAMPAI JE YIOCHUKANG AKU MACAM SUPERSTAR GITU, KELUAR JE MRT TAPPING GANTRY DISAMBUT OLEH IRSYAD, THEN KELUAR JE STATION HANGKAU, ADE DUER VAN NGAH TUNGGU. HAHAS.

OK, ALMOST ALL WERE THERE.

THEN, THE JALAN PART WAS KECOH GILER MAOT AH.

MAIN CD LAGU RAYA SAMBIL JOGET JOGET DALAM VAN.

SATU LAGU ENTAH BRAPE KALI NYANYI PON TAK TAU.

THEN ONE PART YG TAKLE ANGKAT KITER SUMER NYANYI LAGU RAYA TAPI JOGET STYLE BEYONCE.

KIWEK, VAN GOYANG MACAM TENGAH TRANSPORTING BEROK SIAK.

SATU SATU MENGGELENYAH MACAM MAKAN PIL ECSTACY.

OH THEN BY MIDNIGHT KITER DAH OTW HOME.

YANG KLAKARNYER, TIME NAK HANTAR ZALINAH BALIK, BOLEH SESAT NI...

SESAT WITHIN WOODLANDS.

HAHAS. KECOH.

JALAN JALAN END UP AT THE SAME PLACE.

MANE DENGAN LAGU RAYA, MANE DENGAN HUJAN LEBAT.

TAPI JIHAD TETAP COOL BEB..

RELEK JER BAWAK. BRAVO AH.

*******

SSP CUBS JALAN RAYA WAS GEREK JUGAK.

SEPERTI BIASE AKU BANGON LAMBAT.

HAHAS. SO TOOK A CAB FROM JURONG TO TAMP, RUMAH AIZAT.

MULA MULA MACAM LEMAU AH..

MAKLOMLAH, SETAN SEGAN NAK KELUAR TIME ADE SIANG.

ABESTU TUNGGU WAHIDA DATANG KAT RUMAH AIDIL. CHEY, KESYOH SIAK MEMBER.

PAKAI BAJU RAYA KALAH NAK PI KAHWIN. SIAP RAMBUT CURL CURL SIAK.

BTHOL PUNYER BERDANDAN.

AISEHMAN ABESTU BAJU KALER SAME NGAN AIDIL SEHH...

YNG SI AIDIL BAJU PON SONGKET TOP TO BOTTOM.

HAHAHS.

LAIN MACAM JE NI...

ABESTU HANGKAU,

LEPAS MAGHRIB SATU SATU HENJOT HENJOT DALAM VAN, BUKAK LAGU REGGAETON KUAT MAUTS.

JOGET HENTAH APE APE LAH SAMPAI ADE STEPS JOGET POTONG SAYURLAH, GAUL KARI LAH.

HAHAS. KIWEK, KEYSHOH!

OH YANG BESTNYER JALAN FROM ONE HOUSE TO ONE HOUSE BAWAK VCD HANTU "SUSTER NGESOT"

CONTINUE DARI MANE STOP.

HAHS.

HOHOHO... WANO NGAN FIZZA PENAKUT RUPERNYER...

EYH K, MATE KAH KUYU BEB. SLAMATS AH. NANTI AKU POST GAMBAR GAMBAR.

updates again

2007-10-29T00:38:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE. SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING MUCH.

eyh, i think that hotel 8th floor have something going on ah.

dah tiga kali biler aku keje sampai pukul 1am, then kene anta beg kat tingkat 8,

aku selalu have this weird feeling yang ade orang lalu kat hujung. then dah sampai at the rooms, boleh rase macam ade orang ngah diri kat end of the corridor.

then one thing yg sial is that dorang lepas pukul 12am, lampu corridor dorang off alternate to save electricity.

then boleh rase macam bulu rome ternaik sendiri.

tapi aku testing kat tingkat lain takde rase pape pon...

ni mesti ade something ni. kompem.

ni kalau mmg ade, nampak sangat dorang tau and then patotlah biler tingkat 8 je bagi aku pi anta. kalau tak satu satu kancheong nak anta beg.

jom, satu hari aku selidik. tanya sama itu abang abang security.

jangan jangan all this while aku tolak tarik beg, dorang dah mmg nampak kat cctv.

anyway,

MUZIKARAMA.

17 DAYS, 12 REHEARSALS.

GAMAT BEB, GAMAT!

TICKETS ANYONE?

$4 FOR STUDENT MATINEE SHOW

3PM

(up to secondary level, student pass jangan nak segan silu tunjuk)

(Tapi kalau yg terlanjut umur masih nak datang, tetap bayar $6 beb.)

7.30PM

$6 FOR GRAND NIGHT SHOW

(open to all)

QUICKLY QUICKLY BUY BUY.

KOMPEM MAUTS BEB.

just a spoiler:

ADE DANGDUT BEB!

KOMPEM KEKEK MAK ILOI ILOI!

JUST PICS

2007-10-23T00:55:00.000+08:00

K MALAS NAK TYPE. KORANG TENGOK GAMBA SUA.

GAMBA PON AKU CURI DARI MYSPACE WANO.

PRASAN JOOPS.

EWAH, MENJIWAI WATAK NAMPAK..

ITU DIA DIRECTOR KITA

OK, MUKE PONYOT AKU

hate you, the sms.

2007-10-18T23:21:00.000+08:00

YOU MSGED ME AT NOON WITH A QUESTION THAT YOU COULD HAVE ASKED ANOTHER OTHER HUMAN BEING IN THIS WORLD.

MAYBE YOU JUST WANTED US TO COME INTO TALKING TERMS AGAIN.

AND IT TOOK ME A LONG TIME TO REPLY.

WHEN I GOT THAT SMS,

THERE'S A PART OF ME THAT SAYS,

"ARGH, PASALLAH. AKU MALAS NAK LAYAN"

BECAUSE I HAD THE CHANCE TO TREAT YOU THE SAME WAY YOU TREATED ME.

BUT I DIDNT HAVE THE HEART TO TREAT YOU SO.

FOR DEEP WITHIN,

I CAN NEVER HATE YOU.

SLY FOXES/ SEX DIAGRAMS

2007-10-17T01:25:00.000+08:00

NIZAL,

YOU HAVE TO KNOW ABOUT ALL THE DETAILS OF THE ISSUE BEFOREHAND.

NOT PARTS AND PIECES, YOU SOTONG.

YOU SEE, JUST NOW YOU BROUGHT UP A POINT WHICH WAS RELATIVELY STRONG, YET THEY TURN THAT POINT AROUND AND MADE YOU SPEECHLESS.

HENCE YOU LOOK LIKE A DUMB ASS, UNABLE TO RETORT BACK.

SO, BE PREPARED.

YOU NOW KNOW THAT YOU ARE DEALING WITH SLY FOXES.

AND LOOK, A SURPRISE FROM THE EDUCATION SYSTEM.

DID YOU GUYS REMEMBER WHEN WE WERE IN PRI5, HOW SEXUAL REPRODUCTION WAS TAUGHT?

I DID.

THAT CHAPTER WAS DONE DURING THE HOLIDAYS, THE CLASS WAS SPLIT INTO BOYS AND GIRLS AND WERE TAUGHT DURING TWO DISSFERENT SESSIONS.

AND BACK THEN, THERE WERENT ANY DIAGRAMS OF THE PENIS/SCROTUMS & VAGINA/OVARIES IN OUR BOOKS. AN WE WERE TOLD NOT TO COPY DOWN THE DIAGRAMS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT WAS DRAWN BY THE TEACHER ON THE WHITE BOARD.

BUT...

ALANGKAH TERPERANJAT BOBOY,

WHEN I FLIPPED THROUGH MY COUSIN'S TEXTBOOK AND I SAW THE PICTURES AND DIAGRAMS.

KIWEKK..

YOU MEAN THEY'VE LOOSEN THE RESTRICTIONS?

WAH, BERTUAH BETOL SI BUDAK BUDAK MENTAH NI SUMER ZAMAN SEKARANG.

NO WONDER THESE KIDS ARE GROWING UP FASTER THAN THEY SHOULD HAVE.

THAT EXPLAINS THE FASTER EXPERIMENTATION;

IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.

THEREFORE MORE UNDERAGED SEX.

THUS MORE ABORTIONS.

HOW ARE THE FIGURES GONNA GO DOWN LIKE THAT?

TOO EARLY EXPOSURE SIAK.

BIASELAH, YANG SLALU NAK MAIN SANGAT PON BANGSA KITA PER...

KAN SHIOK GESEK GESEK.

DAPAT ANAK KAN REZEKI TUHAN...

KALAU TAK NAK KAN BOLEH PI KLINIK KOREK KASI BUANG.

CHICKEN MCDODOL KAN?

BETOL TAK?

TSK TSK TSK

HAMPE AKU, HAMPE KAU TAU TAK?

2007-10-16T00:34:00.000+08:00

OOPS, SORRY FOR THE LATE UPDATE. DIDNT HAVE THE TIME.

LETSSEE.

SUNDAY, 2ND DAY OF RAYA.

WORKED TILL 3PM. TOOK A CAB HOME KONONNYER NAK LINCAH LINCAH SIAP LEPASTUH JOIN GRANNY JALAN RAYA.

CALLED GRANNY UP, SHE'S AT JALAN KAYU, UMAH YOT UCU. AISEH BETTY, MALAS SUNGGUH.COM AKU NAK TRAVEL SAMPAI SANE. THEN THEIR NEXT HOUSE WAS RUMAH TOK MAMAT AT SERANGOON NORTH. AISEYH, MALAS BETHOL.

SO DECIDED TO SLEEP TILL THEY REACH SOMEWHERE CENTRAL.

SO AMBOI AMBOI, AKU TIDO BIASELAHKAN KOMPEM TEROVERSHOT. SO WOKE UP AT 7PM. THEN CALL GRANNY AND SHE'S AT AUNT ROS'S HOUSE AT HENDERSON. SO LINCAH KODOK SIAP AND GO.

THEN FROM THERE JALAN JALAN WEST AREA TILL ABOUT 1AM GITU.

HAHS. BIASE JUGAK NIARI AKU TEROVERSHOT PI SKULA. AMIN.

AND I JUST GOT TO KNOW OF A SHOCKING NEWS.

ENTAHLAH EH, RAMBUT SAMA HITAM, HATI LAIN LAIN BEB.

KADANG KADANG SUSAH NAK SELAMI ISI HATI SESEORANG.

FOR EXAMPLE;

I USED TO THINK I KNEW WHAT WE WANTED, BUT STILL, IT DIDNT LAST LONG.

SO, NATIJAHNYER IALAH:

DOT.DOT.DOT

NOBODY KNOWS

raya morning

2007-10-13T03:07:00.000+08:00

THIS RAYA FEELS LIKE NOTHING,

without you,

my love.

AND SO DOES THE LAST 5 YEARS.

I KNEW UNCLE AMRAN WAS SAD JUST NOW WHEN I MET HIM.

HE WAS QUIET AND WOULDNT LOOK ME IN THE EYE CAUSE I INHERITED THE MOST RESEMBLENCE THAN MY SIBLINGS.

EVEN AFTER 5 YEARS,

MAKE IT 10,

MAKE IT 20.

OUR WOUNDS JUST WONT HEAL.

FOR:

mariah, aminahbee, faridah, asmida, jeffri, namira, nadia, aizat, sarah, suhaila, hilmi, fuad, rohanisya, aisyahbi, shakinah, maisarah, suzana, hadis, sash, adillah, didi, epeyn, syamil, nadhirah, aj, afiq, nisa, acap, haddad, izzati, zalina, abdillah, jihad, aidil, hafiz, fahmi, hidayah nenek, wahida, helfizza, filzah, syahira, wano, saf, najib, arif, reza, sofian, nani, abdillah jr, izzad, hidayah nurse, fiee, karmila, aidil jps, khairul, fayadth

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI.

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

I KNOW I AM A HARD ASS BASTARD ALWAYS GETTING ON EVERYBODY'S NERVE.

I HOPE YOU WILL SINCERELY FORGIVE ME,

FOR I ALREADY DO.

MANE YANG DISENGAJEKAN ATAU TAK DISENGAJEKAN,

YANG MENGGURIS PERASAAN AND JIWE RAGA.

LETS START ON A FRESH PAGE?

[edited]

Kami mengunjungi pusara bonda,

Sunyi pagi disinari suria,

Wangi berseri puspa kemboja,

Menyambut kami mewakili bonda.

.
Tegak kami di makam sepi,

Lalang-lalang tinggi berdiri,

Dua nisan terkapar mati,

Hanya papan dimakan bumi.

.
Dalalm kenangan kami melihat,

Mesra kasih bonda menatap,

Sedang lena dalam rahap,

Dua tangan kaku berdakap.

.
Bibir bonda bersih lesu,

Pernah dulu mengucupi dahiku,

Kini kurasakan kasihnya lagi,

Meski jauh dibatasi bumi.

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Nisan batu kami tegakkan,

Tiada lagi lalang memanjang,

Ada doa kami pohonkan,

Air mawar kami siramkan.

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Senyum kemboja menghantar kami,

Meninggalkan makam sepi sendiri,

Damailah bonda dalam pengabdian,

Insan kerdil mengadap Tuhan.

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Begitulah bakti kami berikan,

Tiada sama bonda melahirkan,

Kasih bonda tiada sempadan,

Kemuncak murni kemuliaan insan.

2007-10-11T16:53:00.000+08:00

200TH POST.

HEY JOYAH,

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!!,

YEKLER, DAH BASI URGH. HAHAHS.

AND YESTERDAY I FELT LIKE SHIT SINCE NOON. I THINK IT WAS BECAUSE THE DAY STARTED WITH TREMENDOUS SHOCK. HAHAS.

YEAH, WOKE UP AT 615. DEFINITELY LATE FOR WORK LAH.

AND AFTER SHOWER I WAS BASICALLY RUNNING AROUND THE HOUSE GRABBING MY STUFFS.

TOOK A TAXI TO WORK. SIALLAH, MY FACE LOOKED SO WORN OUT TAK CUKUP TIDO.

THEN LIKE AT 11+AM DAH START HEADACHES. DAMNIT SIAK.

SO BROKE MY FAST AT LUNCHTIME AND GO EAT AT THE STAFF CANTEEN.

WAH BY THEN OTAK DAH BERDENYUT DENYUT MACAM NAK MELETOPP.

THEN WENT TO SCHOOL, ASK MIRA MESSAGE MY HEAD. WAH, MACAM NAK TERCABUT SUME RAMBUT AKU. TAPI RASE DIER SHIOK... ALAH, TAPI SKEJAP LAGI SAKIT BALIK.

SO PI 7-11 BLI DONUT NGAN PANADOL. TAPI WEAK AH, TAK JALAN PONN.. THEY DONT SELL PANADOL EXTRA.

ANYWAY READ THE EMAILS AND NOTICED ARIFF'S REPLY

"NO PROBLEM. ADA BIMLA."

HAHHAS.APE STEAM SIAK ALEH ALEH ADE KELUAR PASAL BIMLA. HOHOHO. K NAK OUT. SLAMATS.

2007-10-09T00:03:00.000+08:00

Joyah: biol
Jonet: bukan biola, tu bongo.
Joyah: senteng
Jonet: dengdeng?
Joyah: sewel.
Jonet: sudahlahtu joyah ooi… saye ni nak blaja., hahas
Joyah: hahahbelohaha..iyelah cik jonet…pegi lah menimba ilmu.. joya dabes yeayeay…
Jonet: ekshion.

EVEN WHEN WE ARE 18, WE CAN ACT LIKE WE ARE 8.

THERE'S ALWAYS A KID IN EVERYONE.

AND MZK3, IMPROVEMENTS COMING.

YOU SEE, TWO BRAINS ARE BETTER THAN ONE.

IDEAS THAT YOU HAVE, I DONT. I REALLY APPRECIATE IT. THANKS ALOT.

OO, JIB'S NOT ENTHUSIASTIC ENOUGH DURING READINGS, BUT COME ACTION TIME, HE DELIVERS.

DIAM DIAM LEPU SI GIGI BESI NI. HAHAS.

EBERYTHING IS BAGUUUUUUSSS AND EVERYONE IS DOING GREAT.

CAN FEEL THE SEMANGAT JUST NOW. TAPI WARMUP KECEWE AKU. HAHS.

NONETHELESS, HOPE WE GO UP UP AND AWAY.

GO, G-O GO!

jolok kuih.

2007-10-08T01:17:00.000+08:00

phone convo with loud speakers while me and sis were baking cookies:

bibik: adek kat mane ni? asal bik call call tak angkat?
nizal: orang ngah tolong kakak buat kuih ah.. tak prasan..
bibik: waah sehh, rajin kau. kuih ape?
nizal: choc chip itam. tapi macam tak menjadi jer..
kakak: eh...biadap siak...
nizal&bibik: hahahshas.
bibik: dah bikin tu JOLOK lah sini sikit!
kakak: JOLOK? ah k, nanti orang jolok pakai galah.
bibik: jangan tidak plak.. eh kak, mak mertua kau buat kek sarang semut tu bakar ke kukus?
kakak: bakar ah bik. kukus mane sedap..
bibik: tulah, bik pon try bikin, jadi pulak tuh. sedap jugak macam mak mertua kau punyer.. tak payah order...
kakak: haaa... bik JOLOK lah sini sikit! Boleh kiter rase!

i dont know, but that conversation sounds wrong.

aiseyman, kakak bukak radio 94.2FM WARNA beb. lagu lagu yang pasrah ashik berkumandang. abestu aderlah advertisement pasal satu pompuan ni memohom agar pendengar telefon untuk menyumbang ke dana amal hariraya or something like that.

it was said that she is visually handicapped and has 5 children to feed.

haiyoh. how come like that one?

nizal: siak ah. dah bute kok ade 5 anak?

kakak: ek eh kau ni.. mate dier bute tapi dier punyer TU tak buter agaknyer..

i know we were rude, but still it really does sparks off the curiosity.

i just cant seem to understand what ideas our community still holds on to.

the fact that having many children will, in the long term, benefit you when they start to work and thus will be able to support you? zaman sekarang ni, aku tak rase that theory works, to a certain extent.

aku rase, kalau nak anak 10 pon boleh, asalkan boleh tertanggung.

memang anak tu rezeki Tuhan, but looking at her situation, isnt 5 like too much? if she said 3, i wouldnt think too much about it cause its a norm.

yang si kaya, anak satu.

yang si miskin, anak ramai.

ni macam, mlayu tetap champion anak banyak.

and that topic became a discussion while i and sis were spooning the cookie dough. and then sis mentioned about people who are kurang berkemampuan.

and that further sets me thinking.

i think kurang berusaha has something got to do with kurang berkemampuan.

i think only ah.

but kurang berkemampuan, is it only in disabled and monetary sense?

i'm sure theres more to it.

what do you think?

tag ah sikit, maner tau blog aku bole jadi macam DETIK.

nvm, make it :

BIAR BETIK?!

hahas.

WORK.

2007-10-03T23:25:00.000+08:00

OH, WORK WAS FAB TODAY AS COMPARED TO YESTERDAY. YESTERDAY WAS ALOT OF "YOU STAND AND WATCH". TODAY, I DID THE STUFFS MYSELF.

IT PAYS MORE THAN SWENSENS, NO NEED TO TERTONGGENG TONGGENG SCOOP ICE CREAM, NO NEED TO BRISK WALK WHILE DOING WORK, AND LASTLY NO NEED TO LAYAN SINGAPOREANS WHO ARE SO FUCKING FUSSY.

I DONT MIND PUSHING TROLLIES OF BAGS, SENDING LETTERS AND KEYS TO ROOMS, AND GOING UP AND KNOCKING ON GUESTS DOOR TO WAKE THEM UP. CAUSE THEY APPRECIATE WHAT WE DO FOR THEM. THATS THE WHOLE POINT HERE. TO BE APPRECIATED. AND JUST NOW, CHECKED OUT A CAUCASIAN WOMAN, AND SHE'S HOLIDAYING AROUND ASIA ALONE. AND WE CHAT FROM THE ROOM TILL SHE BOARDED THE TAXI. BEFORE SG, SHE WENT TO BANGKOK, AND SHES HEADING FOR BALI NEXT. COOL MAUTS SIAK.

AND YOU DONT GET THAT SARCASTIC "WHY NEVER GO JC? NOT ENOUGH GRADE AH?" REMARK FROM AUNTIES WHEN YOU ANSWERED THEM THAT YOU ARE FROM POLY. AND YES, THAT AUNTIE WHO DINED AT SWENSENS REALLY SAID THAT. HERE, WE ARE CONSTANTLY REMINDED THAT ITS ALL ABOUT MAKING THE CUT ACADEMICALLY FOR THE BEST.

OTHER TALENTS YOU HAVE WONT MAKE A DIFFERENCE.

ANYWAY, AKU TAU AKU KETINGGALAN ZAMAN, BUT SINCE JOYAH TAGGED ME, SO WHY NOT?

Layer 1: On the outside.
Name: Mohammad Nizal Ja'afar
Birthdate: 26 January
Current Status: Singular.
Eye colour: Brown
Hair Colour: Belack
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Layer 2: On the inside.
My heritage: 87.5% Malay. 12.5% British?/Dutch?
My fears: errrmmm... hmmmmm... Kakak gone?
My weaknesses: E.S.D
My perfect pizza: The one with that lingam-like chilli sauce from Canadian's.
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Layer 3: yesterday, today, tomorrow.
My first thought of waking up: SNOOZE ! Where the fcuk is that button?
My bedtime: 530am to 6pm. (preferably)
My most missed memories: Accompany mama on her monthly SGH visit. We'll talk about anything.
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Layer 4: My pick.
Pepsi or coke: Coke
Macdonalds or Burger King: BK.
Single or group dates: Singular.
Adidas or Nike: None. You buy original also people say fake. Blame China.
Tea or Nestea: Pokka Tea can?
Vanilla or Chocolate: Choc
Cappucino or Coffee: Only Ice blended. But must have choc inside.
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Layer 5: Do you?
Smoke: Do i look like fire to you baby? (say it low like AustinPowers)
Curse: Definitely.
Take a shower: Yes.
Have a crush: Hohoho. Yes.
Go to school: Yes.... Rub it in... Rub it in...
Believe in yourself: 99% Yes. 1% No. But sometimes that 1% can make me think otherwise.
Think you’re a health freak: No.
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Layer 6: In the past
Drink alcohol: Did I?
Gone to the mall: You think i live in Eutopia izit?
Been on stage: Yes
Dyed your hair: Once. Never liked dyed hair.
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Layer 7: Have you ever..?
Played a stripping game: Strip banana, strip strip banana?
Change who you were to fit in: Tak kuase aku.
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Layer 8: Are you hoping to
Get married: Yes.
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Layer 9: In a partner
Best eye colour: As long as no cataracts can already.
Best hair colour: Ooo. Like those Puertorican women; Dark Copper. No Siamang please.
Long or short hair: Long, and tied up. Looks more feminine.
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Layer 10: What were you doing?
A minute ago: Reading Asmida's sms.
An hour ago: Eating.
Month ago: Was i mugging?
A Year ago: Oh, i forgot to tell you guys that i also have S.T.M.S.
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Layer 11: Finish the sentences..
I love: Sleeping like a log till about 7pm. I always think that my body willingly wakes up at 7am. Its like a short-lived accomplishment and satisfaction.
I hate: Si Lahabau.
I hide: My true feelings.
I miss: That stupid first bus to work this morning.
I need: many new tops, cologne, new shoes, watch and ofcourse money.

MREPEK SIAK

2007-09-30T20:50:00.000+08:00

I LIKE IT WHEN MY LEADERSHIP IS BEING PUT INTO QUESTION. IT THEN BECOMES A WHOLE NEW CHALLENGE FOR ME TO PROVE I'M WORTH MY STAND. HOWEVER, SOME SEE THAT CHALLENGE AS AN EFFORT TO BRING HIM DOWN.

YOU SEE, ONE SITUATION, TWO EXTREME PERSPECTIVES.

OH, AND HOW ABOUT THE BLIND LEADING THE BLIND?

THAT IS A SENSITIVE ISSUE I GUESS.

MAYBE AKU BUTE SEBAGAI KETUA, TAPI AKU TAK BISU UNTUK BILANG MASALAH YANG KITA HADAPI RATHER THAN ACT AS IF ALL IS GOOD. AKU DAH BERSUARA, SAPE YANG TAK BUTA SILA BUAT SESUATU. JANGAN PULAK STEP PEKAK. KALAU DAH PEKAK, INI MACAM HABISLAH.

DONT NANTI COOK RICE BECOME PORRIDGE. LATER CRY CRY OVER MILK SPILL OSO NO USE. SUSU DAH MASAM JADI TAIRU, SUMER ORANG TAK SUKE BUAT APE? AKU KAU JUGAK YANG RUGI.

HAHAS.

FOR SOMETHING I TREASURE SO MUCH, I WANT IT TO BE WORTH IT WHEN THE TIME COMES. TU ADELAH AKU, I AM ONE HARD BASTARD TO SATISFY. KEJE ASAL BOLEH BUAT MEMANG AKU TAK BERKENAN.. KITA ADE REPUTASI BEB.

BULLSHIT

2007-09-28T23:54:00.000+08:00

SOMETIMES, ALL YOU THINK YOU NEED IS A BREAK.

THAT ONE BREAK, WHERE YOU CAN JUST SLUMBER LIKE A LOG TILL THE LATE AFTERNOON.

BUT NO, THE WORLD IS A PUSHER AND IT ALWAYS KEEP YOU OCCUPIED WITH SOMETHING.

ANYWAY, TODAY I CAME FOR LAB AT 830. TAK SEMPAT JUBO AKU PANASKAN SEAT SKALI DAH BOLEH BALIK. KENTAL BUAH LENCHEE KAN?

AND THEN SAT AT THE LIBRARY, SAW JAY SLEEPING ON THE COUCH AT THE BASEMENT. AND THEN WE HAD A CHAT BEFORE FELICIA CAME AND JOINED US. AND THEY TOLD ME THAT THE FORMER 06/07 DBT1A/02 PEOPLE HAV CHANGED. AHH, NOT MUCH OF A SURPRISE THERE.

EVERYONE IS CHANGING,

BUT WE , MY FRIENDS, HAVENT CHANGED A BIT.

WE ADMIT OUR MISTAKES, PROMISE TO TRY, BUT ALL I SEE IS THE SAME OLD US.

BE A PUSHER, AND GET THINGS DONE.

I ADMIT I'M SICK OF DOING THE TALKING. WHILE SOME SIT BACK AND DO NUTS.

JUST AN ADVICE, THINK OF A BACKUP PLAN SOON. PLEASE, HOPING IS A RISKY THING.

WE ARE WAY BEHIND SCHEDULE ALREADY.

49DAYS LEFT

AND I WONT CARE IF I HURT PEOPLE'S FELINGS. ITS ALREADY BULLSHIT FROM THE WAY I SEE IT NOW.

MAMA SAID.

2007-09-27T00:20:00.000+08:00

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MAMA CAKAP,

KALAU BUAT KERJE,

BIAR DENGAN SEPENUH HATI SAMPAI HABIS.

KALAU TAKNAK,

JANGAN GATAL MULEKAN..

BUAT ORANG LAIN SAKIT HATI JE

TU MEMANG MAMA PERNAH CAKAP,

MASE AKU DULU-DULU CUCI KASUT STENGAH JALAN.

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SECOND DAY OF SCHOOL

2007-09-26T01:24:00.001+08:00

TUESDAY.

LIKE WAKE UP AT 2PM?

AND I LIED TO DR CHARLES THAT I DIDNT ATTEND THE MORNING CLASS CAUSE I HAD WORK. HAHAS.

AND I CAME IN LATE FOR THE AFTERNOON CLASS. ABESTU DIER GIVE ME THAT AMBOI-AMBOI-BERANI-KAU-DATANG-LAMBAT-ABESTU-SEMPAT-NAK-MENYENGEH-MACAM-KUDE-KAT-AKU LOOK. HAHAS.

EYH, EDDY AND KENG LEONG ALSO REPEAT. MATE AKU DAHLAH POTEK, SKALI DUDUK JE TERUS EDDY MAKI. TEKEJUT SEJENAK AKU. HAHAS.

AND THEN AFTER IOC TROS JUMPE JOYAH THEN KITE PON PILAH KE GEYLANG SERAI.

TAPI SEBLOM TU DETOUR PI BEACH ROAD DULU UNTOK BUKE PUASE. OK, DAH SAMPAI TERUS NAIK LEVEL THREE TAWAF DULU. THEN TERNAMPAK SATU SHIRT NI. AMBOI-AMBOI.. BOLE TAHAN LAWA TAPI TAK JADIK BELI SEBAB AKU TAU NANTI AKU TAKKAN PAKAI SEBAB NANTI RIMAS ADE COLLAR. HHAHS.

K THEN DAH PENAT PUSING PUSING TROS PI BAWAH CARIK TEMPAT DUDUK. CYEBAH. DAH DAPAT SPOT MAUTS. THEN SATU MAMA NI MINTAK ORDER TAPI AKU CAKAP NANTI SO DIER PON JALAN AH. SKALI ADE SI MAMAK KEDUMIK KETIAK KARI NI MENYEBOK SIAK. MATI-MATI PAKSE SURO BELI AIR. EWAH, SUKE HATI AKULAH NAK BELI KE TAKNAK. KOTEK BETOL AH. TAK PASAL PASAL TAMBAH DOSE SIAK BULAN PUASE. ABESTU SI MAMAK KEDUMIK NI SANGGUP DUDUK KAT MEJA KITE. AISEYMAN, AKU BAGI DIER SIDE KICK BARU TAU KANG.

HAHS. LAME LAME DIER PON BANGUN SEBAB DIER BEBUAL NGAN KITE TAPI AKU NGAN JOYAH BEBUAL TAK LAYAN. HAMBEK KAU.

K THEN LIKE 20 MINS BEFORE BUKA AKU ORDER KAT SI MAMA FIRST. AMBOI-AMBOI, SI MAMAK TAK PUAS HATI BEB. DIER TENGOK KITER DUE MACAM NAK MAKAN. EWAH DIER INGAT KITE NI KAMBING KE? CITPOODLE AH.

IRRITAING BUGGERS SIAK. I UNDERSTAND THAT THERES COMPETITION... TAPI JANGAN SAMPAI MEMAKSE SIOL. AKU BAKAR KEDAI KAU BARU TAU. REZEKI KAN DITANGAN TUHAN.. ACHEY-CHEY-CHEY, ZAL BEBUAL WORLD.

KORANG TENGOK, PASAL SI MAMAK NI JE ENTRY AKU DAH PANJANG LEBAR. TSK.

K THEN LEPAS MAKAN TEROS MAKE A MOVE. AMBOI, ADE HATI NAK NAIK BUS. SO KENE PAKAI MRT UNDERGROUND LINKWAY TO CROSSOVER. SKALI GRANNY TELEPON... AKU NI KHAYAL SIBUK BEBUAL. YANG SI JOYAH PON BOLEH KHAYAL SAMPAI MASOK GANTRY MRT. DAH TAP BARU DIER CAKAP " APASAL KITER MASOK SINI EH?"

KIWAK. KECOH SIAK. SO IN THE END NAIK MRT.

THEN SAMPAI PAYA LEBAR TURON TROS PI KAMPONG MELAYU. CIK AMSA NGAH SEBOK KIRE BOTOL KUIH. THEN SURO DIER AMBEK MEASUREMENTS AND SURO PANJANGKAN LENGAN SIKIT. HAHAS. SKALI SEMALAM LUPE NAK MINTAK GRANNY DUIT UNTUK DOWNPAYMENT BUT NASIB BAIK DIER CAKAP 30KETOL PON BOLEH. NASIB BAIK AKU BAWAK DUIT EXTRA. THEN LEPASTUH TROS JALAN JALAN KAT BAZAAR. BIASE JUGAK, KHUTUK MENGUTUK. HAHAS. THEN DAH PENAT ISAP ROKOK DULU BEFORE DUDUK KAT PLATFORM SKEJAP BEFORE BALIK.

K TAMAT. AKU DAH NGANTOK. SLAMATS. BLEY TAHAN PANJANG NI ENTRY.

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KADANG-KADANG JARI YANG BERDARAH

TAK RASE SAKIT SEBAB DAH BEKU

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UP AND GOING. (please no horny thoughts can?)

2007-09-25T02:51:00.000+08:00

ATLAST. AFTER 2 DAYS SHORT OF CALLING IT A MONTH BEING ON HIATUS, YOU PEOPLE CAN EXPECT TO BE READING DAILY POSTS FROM NOW ON.

FIRST UP, EXAM RESULTS ARE SHITS.

AND OH, MUZIKARAMA... ERRRRRRMMMM....... I FEEL LIKE COMMENTING BUT I'D RATHER NOT. I WILL DEFINITELY HURT PEOPLE'S FEELINGS.

AND OH! TIMETABLE ROCKS. I DONT HAVE LESSONS ON WEDNESDAY AND THAT PROMPTED ME TO GO FIND A PART TIME JOB. LUCKILY AMINAH TOLD ME THAT HER PLACE NEEDS PEOPLE. SO I'M GONNA START NEXT TUESDAY.

HAHAS. OUH SO I'LL BE MISSING THE 9AM DR CHARLES CLASS.

AND ONE THING I NOTICED ABOUT MY NEW TIMETABLE IS THAT... FOR MONDAY, THERES 4 HOURS OF MATHS AND NO OTHER CLASSES SCHEDULED. AND TUESDAYS, THERES 3 HOURS OF IOC ONLY. SO MY POINT IS : THIS IS THE DUMBEST TIMETABLE EVER CAUSE EVEN WHEN A SUBJECT IS TAUGHT ON 3 DAYS OF THE WEEK, I FIND IT HARD TO FOLLOW... SUMORE THIS TIME ROUND THEY SQUEEZE IT INTO A DAY AND LEAVE ME TO ROT FOR THE REST OF THE WEEK.

TSK TSK TSK. KENTAL BUAH LENCHEE.

AND OOOH, I TOOK UP EEL ; EVERYDAY ELECTRICAL DUNNOE-WHAT SHIT INSTEAD OF MATHS PUZZLES. CAUSE I FOUND OUT THAT THE GEMS CLASS HAVE ALTERNATE LAB PRACTICALS. WOO. FINALLY CAN GET INTO AN EEE LAB. DEFINITELY WILL BE LIKE DNT. GEREK DOKK.

AND I DONT HAVE A CLUE OF HOW TO START EDITING THE SCRIPT. MAI?
DAMNIT. I SHOULD NOT ALWAYS DEPEND ON PEOPLE.

ANYWAY, THOUSAND APOLOGIES TO MAI, HADDAD AND AS FOR NOT TURNING UP AT CIVICS! I WOKE UP AT 10+ ? , REPLIED TO MAI'S SMS AND TOLD MYSELF, "K ZAL, 5 MINIT LAGI JE." AND WHEN I WOKE UP, IT WAS ALREADY 3++PM.

I HATE TO BE SUFFERING FROM ESD.

SERIOUSLY HADDAD, MAI, SO SORRY SEBAB BUBBLE KORANG. I KNOW I WAS THE ONE WHO INITIATED THE MEETING...

K LAIN KALI KITER BUAT MEETING KOL 11PM INSTEAD OF 11AM. MESTI AKU DATANG PUNYER..

AND THERE GOES MY UPDATE. GIVE ME A TAG WONT YOU?

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I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SAY THEY CANT,

WITHOUT EVEN SHOWING THAT THEY ARE TRYING.

ARE YOU ONE OF THEM?

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Let's Go Somewhere Only I Know

2007-08-27T02:33:00.000+08:00

This past week has been the worst hell ever.
I'm still not over the fighting thing.

Kepala puki punyer jantan.

I think i need a break from blogging.
A hiatus maybe?

I'll be busy starting next week with muzikarama.
So I'l update once a week perhaps?

And please people, dont hangat hangat taik ayam can?
I've had enough of disappointments lately.

meantime, takecare.

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2007-08-21T01:45:00.000+08:00

oh, jessica parker haritu dah due hari temankan budak ni belaja.
k macam paham.
padahal kite belaja tak sampai satu jam lepastu pi tengok dvd.
then si jessica tanyer where that brown door in the middle of the video room leads to.
"NARNIA", i said.
kite ketawe kekek mcm mak iloi iloi.
seriousu, tak bohong.

ok, BMIC paper was indeed a breeze.
but that question on the Virus Mechanism thinging,
the diagram that i drew was sort of disgusting.
it looked like the virus has a huge cock penetrating the glycolyx membrane.
tsk, yellow brains.

and today, met up with mira to study maths.
semangat 2 minit.
i ended up reading comics.
then jeff and as came and the rest of the time was spent prancing along the book shelves looking for photography books.
haiyo.
then we packed and headed to al-ameen for an early supper of roti naan and keema.
then go home.

now i'm on my tummy on the bed typing.
the thought of going back to my maths notes is such a turn off.
macam bontot gitu.

and mira just messaged to ask me attemp atleast 1 question per topic.
that is not going to help i tell you. serious.
and looking at the time, there is no time to actually cover all 16 chapters.
so, go to hell chapter 15&16.

and anyway, tomorrow after the paper i'm off for the interview.
i really need some duit.

okgo. back to study.

weird, in a good way.

2007-08-16T04:39:00.000+08:00

siblings.

i think i somehow get the real meaning of having sibling this week.

kakak has been at abang Sid's house since last Thursday.

and she never fails to call everyday just to chat and see how i'm doing.

and its like, weird, but in a good way.

i know i'm 18 and it seems so maha kental for other ordinary youths to be checked upon.

but when you dont have parents, you do once in a while yearn for that attention.

and abang books out of camp every 2 days and before he comes home, he'll text me asking what i'd like to have for dinner.

and its like, super maha very so definitely weird, but in a good way.

and when he msged me, i didnt even know his number.

and mind you, i and abang are rarely in good terms.

we are only in good terms during hari raya, hari raya haji, infront of relatives, 2nd February and at events where there are many people and both of us dont know them.

there you go, i counted with one hand. hahas.

so that explains the i-dont-bother-to-know-your-number prangai.

and in a surprise shocking move, i went to buy our dinner just now.

if he could be good this past week, then i too can be.

but come to think of it,

when all you have left to count on in this world are your siblings, you'll one day learn to appreciate it with a whole new perspective cause siblings show that they care indirectly.

its up to you to realize it or not.

maybe i just did.

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chey chey chey, aku blog macam paham.

nanti minggu depan start gadoh lagi.

hahahs.

the boy.

2007-08-15T01:24:00.000+08:00

one day this boy woke up.
he watch clock.
clock say 630am.
the boy flip over on his tummy and start to read his notes.
OK go, he think he clever already.
the boy was indeed confident.
what a joke.
730am, the boy go shower.
815am he left the house.
inside bus he play monopoly on his handphone.

then in the exam classroom he read the paper.
OK go, front easy cheesy.
KO gostan, behind difficult.
boy want to koyakkan the paper, scream profanities and just run out of the class.
but cannot, later teacher call police.
so the boy try hard hard to do.
hard hard until jubo beku.
still cannot do.

then the boy try write belit belit.
atleast the boy show that the idea was there.
hahas.

then after paper go smoke.
the boy actually dont want to smoke.
k macam paham.

then the boy go library.
the boy try study for basic microbiology.
then stomach rumbling rumbling.
the boy call all of his friends.
then the boy met mary.
mary teman the boy go eat.
then the boy and mary met ali and saffron.
then they eat.
then after eat jaws join boy mary ali and saffron.
then the boy and mary go smoke again at T14.
then mary go home, the boy go back to library.

OK go, 6 chapters finish already.
then boy stop study go read comics.
then jessica parker come sit with the boy.
ewah, jessica parker very kecoh.
they talked about realtionships.
then the boy very sad.
dont know why the boy cannot let go.
no no. the boy must stop dwelling on the past.
but yesterday the boy watched HIKMAH. (ni pon sebab dah boring)
then the Surya punyer ex-gf say "Chinta pertama dibawa sampai ke mati."
ya betol. the boy setuju.

now the boy tired.
the boy want to sleep.
later the boy want to help his granny.
get money want to buy many things.
so long never buy clothes.
also buy minyak wangi.
also buy new jeans.
also go________.

the boy also thinking of getting a holiday job.
tomorrow buy newspaper go find work just in time when exam ends.
ok, the boy want to thank whoever read this entry until here.

the boy thinks that the person readingthis is kental and has nothing better to do than reading this entry.

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2007-08-13T17:55:00.000+08:00

eyh, kakak takde kat rumah boring mauts siak.
ewah thursday ni baru balik.
kiwak, aku ngan ayah kat rumah je seh.
boleh mati siak.

tsk tsk tsk.

cobaan.

anyway mugging for IOC is hard lah siak.
depan depan je aku confident.
yang blakang blakang InsyaAllah.
hahhas.
I need ginko biloba.

bleagh.

2007-08-11T01:42:00.000+08:00

thursday.
help granny
fish late.
then get ready go watch fireworks at One Fullerton.
then sit at the road but good view.
then finish we meet abdillah.
then walk from raffles to arab street.
go eat at mosi cafe.
after that they go home.

sat.
thanks haddad for the chat.
helps to take my mind off from stuffs.
then reach home.
11+am, awoken by the noise beyond my bedroom door.
so i check it out.
sadly, my brother-in-law's father passed away.
innalillah...
like what? 52?
that is pretty young.
cardiac failure i think.
may he rest in peace. amin.
then had late lunch early dinner

go ZOUK.
yeklergh.
out of 18, only 2 is pretty.
the rest hancho bochai muke mcm langga lori.
maybe some face tak kene langga, but the tayar kompem lenggek the boobs and butts.
anyway after that we sat outside ZOUK cause haddad wanted to smoke.
then decided to have supper at the mamak shop.
and ade orang tu nak muntahlah nak hape lah.
hahas.

kalah pompuan ngandong.
ouh, the taxi ride home was hilarious siak.
abdillah was cursing cause no taxi wanted to stop.
when we finally got one, we didnt realize that the ahpek was partially awake until we reached the CTE tunnel baru kite prasan yang dier ngah TIDO.
like really dozing off and his head like inches from the steering wheel.
haddad nak muntah pon tak jadi.
and we purposely talked very loudly with exagerrated loud pronounciations so that the ahpek gets constantly tepranjat.
and ab and haddad sang the song by UNGU :

Andai ku tahu
Kapan tiba ajalku
Ku akan memohon Tuhan tolong panjangkan umurku
Andai ku tahu
Kapan tiba masa ku
Ku akan memohon Tuhan jangan Kau ambil nyawaku

seriously kekek to the max.
reach bishan, and me and ab alighted with haddad and took another cab.

ouh, in the goodie bag got lanyard and hair gel.
must try the gel tomorrow.
been ages since i use gel.
AMBY brand from London.
sure anot..
hahas.

tomorrow, sat.
help granny.
study.
really.
i promise..
really.
i try ah.

wah, really long entry.
slamats.
ouh, pardon for the bad sentence structure. i am lazy.

Jantan Dayus.

2007-08-09T00:09:00.000+08:00

just now went to sheng siong taman jurong. then after sheng siong me and kakak sat at the stairs near the mamak shop outside the KTV. and when we came there was already this MALAY/MELAYU/MALAI REN man with HIS SON who is i think about 10 years old.

and me and kakak sat at the stairs and smoked. then this MALAY/MELAYU/MALAI REN woman walked towards us and began knocking at the door beside the stairs. and she was blabbering.

Perempuan melayu, late thirties : PM
Jantan melayu, early thirties: JM

you will see why i call him jantan, alike animals.

JM: Hoi, macam mane ni? Eyh aku bebual ngan kau tau!

PM: Aku nak carik duitlah ni. Kalau aku tak carik hasil sape nak kasi kite makan?(Points to boy)

PM: Kau memang lelaki dayus ah.. Kau skarang keluar jail dah tak keje.... (After this cant hear what she say because it was so fast siak and she blabbered nonstop.)

JM: Oh, aku diam diam kau naik kepale eh..?

PM: Eyh, dulu aku mengandung kau pukul aku jugak lah.. Aku saba kau tau tak. Prangai kau same macam bapak kau!

JM: Kau jangan kurang aja! Oh, depan orang kau nak malukan aku eh!? Kau jangan sebut bapak aku. Kau nak malukan aku kan? Skarang aku malukan kau depan orang!

and the next moment, we heard a GEDEBUK sound and the woman fell tersungkur. like what the fuck ah! siallah can see siak that he was using all his might with his clenched fist to punch the woman's face. and the woman was shielding her face with the cup drink and when the next blow came the cup flew and she was pushed to the railing.and the boy was just standing there with no expression looking as that jantan beat the hell out of his mom. it was as though mcm menjadi suatu kebiasaan. and if that is true, its sad isnt it?

at that instance i and sis got up cause they were both standing less than a metre from us siak.. and sis had this facial expression that i've havent seen for ages. the exact facial expression when _____.
i swore i think sis was going to pounce on that man if i wasnt there.seriousu.
and when he saw that me and kakak stood up, he stopped and shouted at us.

JM : Knape?! Kau nak masok champo?

Nizal : Takmo gadoh ah bang..

Kakak: Tak malu ke depan anak?!

aku rase this time round jantan tu macam nak terkam kakak aku plak. and memang aku kecut jugak siol sebab keluarkan suare tapi maintain cool.. aku dahlah mcm rangke. detu built besar siol. and kimek, muke pompuan tu rabak siak. right side merah and hidung darah.

JM : *Jelingan yang sungguh mcm SIAL*

JM: Kau balik skarang !! *pulls the wife's arm but the wife hold on to the railing*

PM: Taknak... aku nak carik duit.

then me and sis walk off cause we already saw the mamak using his hp call police i think. then when we passby the mamak shop i ask the mamak ah whether he call police anot and luckily he did.
kiwak Jantan ni macam kalau boleh aku nak stab badan dier banyak banyak kali. potong bodek dier, sumbat buah dier dalam mulut abestu scotchtape mulut dier abestu calar calar lengan dier ngan pisau. abestu potong anu dier sumbatkan dalam jubo abestu pakai ductape tutop. abestu cabut rambut dier pakai tangan biar kulit koyak.then bakar badan dier kasi rentung then baru kasi anjing makan.

i've seen enough of this type of male in my life siak.

sadly, this is what is happening in our community. Broken families. Melayu seakan-akan hilang arah. There is lesser nilai kekeluargaan zaman skarang. Tak malu ker dah ade anak sebesar gitu abestu masih keje kat KTV? And the guy has the guts to say that he doesnt deserved to be humiliated! Bodohkan. Kalau kau lurus, a good husband, a good father, there is no reason for her to vent her anger. betol tak? and out of jail and no work? sape yang tak binget. buat sex pandai. tebok sane tebok sini. biler anak dah keluar, takde duit nak bagi anak bini makan tros nak meradang. ade ke tanye bini macam mane nak dapatkan duit? kerje la bodoh. and i feel bad for the lady cause i think that guy was angry because me and sis were there and he apparently had a huge ego and couldnt take the blame and the fact that the woman poured her hearts out within hearing distance.

and just look at the boy, so kudut. and to be traumatised by what he saw till he had no expression. it is sad. and he'll grow up to think that he can go around and beat people up in public like nobody's business. and it'll turn into a vicious cycle. dari bapak ke anak ke cucu ke cicit. semuanya kaki bantai. tsk tsk tsk.

oh i sound like a woman's rights activist or something. hahas. but i believe that both is at fault, just that we men, have to restrain ourselves and be an example for someone else to follow in a positive way. kalau tak why the fuck they call the men the Kepala rumah tangga? Kalau kaki bantai, i'd rather call them Kepala Jubo. and yes, that lady was indeed degrading her husband in public. people do say that women slalu kalau berbual time marah selalu bende yang keluar pedas pedas dan menusuk kalbu. therefore, due due salah. kalau aku ade rotan aku dah sebat bontot due due tadi, biar orang cakap aku gile.

i wish no other child should ever experience it.

macam aku cakap, bakar orang orang macam gini hidup hidup. pastu bagi anjing makan. taknak anjing babi pon tak kesah.

just an update.

2007-08-07T02:32:00.000+08:00

exams are next week.

Inorganic Chemistry

MicroBiology

Maths B

Cell Biology.

aiseh, i dont think i'm ready for the exams.

and just now managed to cramp 2 chapters of IOC.

and i feel so good now that i've handed in my Cell Bio Datasheet, IOC report, MC and RWP report just now. mcm lega gitu rasanya.

I so need to get those IOC Datasheet done and hand them in tomorrow.

after that can concentrate with the exams revisons.

anyway i so need help in maths.

Mai, care to help? *buat muke sposen*

hahas.

nah, i think i'll try study by myself this time.

and yesterday, sambil aku bergolek golek atas katil macam dugong, suddenly lampu bilik off sendiri.

ewah kecoh. after afew seconds teros on balik macam lampu kelap kelip lampu disco.

hahas.

abestu dah pesan kakak beli bulb lampu tapi tadi dier malas nak pi kedai belikan.

so sekarang pakai lampu lamp yang maha orange. and bilik aku dah nampak macam so romantis gitu. patotnyer si bilik pengantin baru yang kene pakai lampu oren.

k lah nak tido. besok ade class maths. macam dah berzaman gitu tak pi maths class. cikgu pon dah tak kuase nak carik.

picture at post NYP production. Cubs went back first. Kalau tak kompem lagi ramai.

ARTS

2007-08-02T18:41:00.000+08:00

she said it is not going to take me anywhere.
and she did say some other nasty stuff.
but afterall its my decision.
cause i cant be happier where i am now.
doing what i like.
going for what i dream.

i am stubborn.
and as said i always have a way to get what i want.
but sometimes its a bad thing.

and that, i have to agree.

RUBIK's CUBE

2007-08-02T02:17:00.000+08:00

the rubik's cube.

born with perfect colour schemes.

and it took me sometime to realize the similar significance that it has with our life.

every decision we make, is like twisting the cube.

and the more decisions, the more twists, the more imperfect we get.

often than not, you realize the mess that you've made.

a little to late.

and you longed for that perfect cube.

and its a mad scramble to solve every mistakes to make life perfect like the beginning.

you will try by all means that there is to.

even demolishing your dignity.

and when you think you've got it right, you make a silly mistake.

then you reverse twist it and hoped that you've reached the point where you know how to correct it.

but you then realised that you've lost track of reality.

and that you had failed.

_________________________

MZK3.

found talents that can be added to our SSP family.

and it puzzles me why this year's batch showed more strength in singing.

its ok, diamonds can be polished.

even I, have not explored myself fully.

Jin & Mon is still with me and at one point of time, i have to set them free.

_________________________

script block.

SICK aka SAKIT

2007-07-23T22:47:00.000+08:00

I'm just fuking sick.
when times like this, i hate you oh weather!
ya lor, biler time demam&flu baru nak sejuk nak mampos.
kalau tak hari hari belengit kepanasan.
unpredictable lah.

and many people are getting sick.
wooo. join the geng.

anyway thanks to those who came to my sis's wedding.
i have a feeling i didnt layan you all enough. hahahs.
but its ok, atleast i ate with you all right?

and to zana and hadis, i apologise for not turning up at Holland V.
was pretty tired you see...

I'll post the wedding pictures soon.
Thats all for this entry then.
slamats.

THE OMEN.

2007-07-21T03:34:00.000+08:00

Today will be the Big day.

A day fit for the Queen.

tapi mama takde.

and i know it wont feel the same.

I know helping you to wipe away your tears with that tissue is not enough,

and it hurts a man much more to see his woman cry.
it makes him feel so weak.

Ewah Ribut !

2007-07-20T00:59:00.000+08:00

Now is already Friday.

Damn time flies so quickly.

yekeleh, the nikah not today. suspenshion. miscommunication.

its saturday itself.

Aiseh betty, tomorrow have workshop and after that supposed to have a meeting about mzk3.

but unfortunately, there is a 85.1298373487192643 % that i cant make it.

Its either meeting or home to prepare for saturday.

Ewah Ribut! Memang Ribut!

K, its no longer "Ewah, Kecoh!",

its gonna be "Ewah, Ribut!"

TROUBLE.

2007-07-18T00:07:00.000+08:00

OOPS. TROUBLE IS BREWING.

AND THE SCRIPTS MEMENINGKAN LAH.

NAK OK GO KE TAKNAK?

TSK TSK TSK.

LECHIEK AH.

TAKPE, ESOK MUDAH-MUDAHAN 15 KEPALEOTAK UNITE BERANAKKAN IDEA MAUTS.

GIVE ME BACK MY SUNDAY, REALLY.

2007-07-17T02:12:00.000+08:00

ABODHEN.

think what?, i clean the house like mad no need to give credit ah?

drill sana drill sini.

lap sana lap sini.

sapu sana sapu sini.

kanasai.

hahahs.

unclewan and cik yah came over to help prepare for this saturday.

and they brought along those kenits yg sungguh.com memekak dan tak tau duduk diam.

ewah, nasib baik aku takde adik siak.

kalau tak dah lame kepale dier teleng kene smack that.

aku memang evil.

and so i shut my door and slept.

and i realised that these few days i dont go out anymore. as in go lepak or anything.

its just more of the mood lah. mcm nak keluar dah tak shiok.

duit ada.

keinginan ada.

mood tada.

and then by 6 i was woken up by bibik cause she cant find the + screwdriver.

yekeleh. boleh suro abang carikkan per...

and oh, macam best gitu bilik aku jadi storeroom.

best eh?

and then uncleran , cik ju, busu and granny came near maghrib.

i was pissed with busu seh.

i know lah where me, my brother and sister stands.

but you shouldnt have called us whatever you called us.

and you tried to cover it up by saying that it was a gurauan.

like ape seh.

and people still say that there is no difference between anak/cucu tiri and anak/cucu betul.

and korang please dont do whatever you want to do because of mum.

let her rest in peace lah bangau.

kan lagi bagus kau buat dengan ikhlas.

tsk tsk tsk.

melayu masih tak berubah.

and in times like this, memang aku coverkan jubo abang dan kakak aku.

apasal?

takleh?

kalau aku tak stand up for them sape lagi?

afterall, kiter kan cucu tiri.

bapak kau, datuk aku.

wah, aku betul sakit hati seh.

________________________

ewah joyah, belom ape ape dah kalah?

kecoh bethol.

eyh, tak salah jonet tadi ade budak tu ingatkan jonet marah kat dier eh?

hhahas.

abe pasrah.

FUCK THE HAIRDRESSER.

2007-07-14T23:15:00.000+08:00

There are reasons why i no longer go to the barber.

Because you go there and the pakcik barber automaticall thinks you are his son and then he cuts your hair like how he cuts his son's.

Mulut kau berbuih mintak style and fashion yang mauts, tapi dier tetap gunting rambut macam budak primary school.

And so i started to go to the more professional hair salon.

The ones where you get to choose your own style from the myriad of choices from the book that the hairdressers hands you.

And the guy, Nex, wasnt working when i came.

tapi takpe, aku telah membuat andaian bahawesenye kalau Nex boleh gunting lawa, then sesape yang keje kat salon tu pon gunting lawa.

So just now, aku choose this medium length hair cut.

Dalam hati happy nak mampos sebab medium hair length can camo kepale aku yang kotak ni.

ewah, and the hairdresser pompuan sundal ni pon tanyer bermacam-macam jenis soalan kononnyer macam dier nak yang terbaik untok rambot aku.

Fringe how long?

The sides want trim abit?

The back i think make it longer can?

You always spike or messy or comb hair one?

macam real.

bodoh punyer anjing betine.

the first bad instinct came when she started to plug in the razor.

ewah, aku paling tak minat orang gunting rambut aku pakai electric razor.

it gives this boxy rigid appearance.

so biler aku tanyer dier kenape tak pakai gunting she said that its just to thin the layer, later then she use scissors to cut.

yang si bengap ni pon pikir ade betholnyer.

tapi tunggu punyer tunggu punyer tunggu, gunting tetap tak timbol timbol.

macam nak nangis beb biler realize dier dah gunting rambut aku itu macam.

kepasrahan membuak-buak.

tangan dier tak cebok aku rase.

sebab ade bau kesialan.

hahas.

anyway takpe takpe. bende dah terjadi.

yang dah tergunting tak akan melekat kembali.

anyway i think it looks 45% good.

you look from the front.

roger,roger. calling for Mr. Cap.

SHORT & SIMPLE

2007-07-12T23:43:00.000+08:00

ok. short and simple.

today overshot till 430pm.
and infront of the computer eversince.

k thats it.

Could it be : Do you have any answers to give to jonet?
anyway, Because you were there.hahahs.

Anyway joyah, you are partially correct on the first one..

IT FEELS GOOD.

2007-07-11T23:10:00.000+08:00

today its like a huge accomplishment as seen from many different aspects.

at 6am i got into bed and started playing my hp games. and then i cant sleep so continued playing till 8am.

and then suddenly i heard this sound coming from the window. but i just continued with my game. and then came the thunder. yekeleh. dah ujan rupernyer. and i almost forgot that i left my shirt at galah. so its was like lipas kudung lari pi dapo angkat kain jemuran.

hahas.

then got ready for school. macam dah lame tak pi sekolah time pagi. hahas.

tsk tsk tsk. tak patot tak patot.

so reached skula pon dah kol 1030 but mrs mak didnt bother lah as usual.

and i should have ate rice during lunch, instead i ate MCSpicy. and the chicken taste like it was double fried.

and then after lunch went for cell bio. got back the test paper. i already knew that i passed beforehand cause miss lee told me last week. so nothing much of a surprise.

as usual i got ngam ngam ho marks.

syukur.

ouh and jeffry passed me bernard's paper. he got 11/50.

hahaas. ok i'm not laughing because he failed. but more of because he gave lame answers.

Example:

Qn: List the requirements and end products of transcriptions.

His Answer :

(Requirements)

1. Presence of cells required

2. Proteins

3. Room Temperature

(Products)

1. Removal of unwanted things

2. Final items needed

ewah ni budak buat kelakar. nampaksah sumer salah.

hahas. ohkay, after CB class I, Addy and Jeffry went out the back door to go smoke at the busstop. skali the Dr Charles was already outside waiting and so we tried to sneak out.

and Jeffry punyer slenger he said loudly,

"Eyh, you scared of your chemistry teacher ah?"

makdikau. slenge chengteng siak. and immediately Dr Charles looked at us. and nampaksah dier tau kite nak pi isap rokok sebab dah menuju ke lift lobby.

tsk tsk tsk.

and then during Chem i dosed off cause tired. and when i woke up, the foolscap pad i was resting on was like wet lah. ewah, aku shiok betol sak tido. and time check with marc and he said i dozed off less than 10 mins ago.

hahahs. disgusting siak..

and it seeped through 5 pieces of foolscap siak!

and hello, we were laughing so hard seh. then suddenly marc looked at me and laughed even louder. hahs. and he said,

" You are going to die! "

ok, marc let out some silent deadly gas. and he was sitting next to me sumore. and i quickly ate mint candy so that i block my nose. and he kept asking if i had smelt his air or not.

tebiat siak ni jantan.

hahas. and me marc hems were laughing mcm orang giler sakk. and lydia mcm biase buat muke tongong cause dier sorang budak pompuan.hahas.

and halfway thru class, there was this farting sound coming from my chair lah.

and ewah, aku ngah semangat pusing belakang teros give william taht irritated look. aku mati matian ingatkan dier gesek gesek kerusi aku.. member muke tak bersalah siak. hhahahs.

yekeleh, skali rupernyer hp terkeluar dari poket and it was vibrating on the chair.

hahas. lincah kadok cover jubo. hahas.

ok school was fun today.

boleh dikatekan mauts.

and then after sch did scripting. alah aku mcm takde idealah. sebab the theme is often associated with cliched messages that other people had already delivered to the audience.

so what we need now is to find ways to deliver the play in such a way that is easy to understand but at the same time has artistic values incorporated.

and most importantly, lots and lots of humour.

but anyway it was good lah, mcm the focus was there exceppt that si joyah pi download lagu dangdut dalam my lappy abestu kasi kiter dengar.

tsk tsk tsk.

kopi dangdut anyone?

Anyway Joyah, my answer is :

Maybe . Because I never stopped hoping.

MAYBE ?

2007-07-10T01:59:00.000+08:00

thats waht i thought actually.

but we shall see.

diol, phenol, polarity, and whatever shits.

you suck.

and sometimes, you feel another but you act another.
and its something you cant control.

thats always the case.

and it comes with a free gift : guilt.

ten shall mark something different and tomorrow shall be nine.

the next shall be eight.

i need a haircut.

back to this?

easiest hair to style, in a minute.

should i?

ITS MORE THAN MEETS THE EYE.

2007-07-08T15:39:00.000+08:00

Do I remember what this picture meant?

O, kidy [tryrmfomh yp nr dytpmg ejrm o lmpe yjsy o, mpy.

____________________

anyway that was a whole lot of bulls. and to tell you guys the truth, i was awaken at 9am by he-who-must-not-be-named. like blardy hell lah. kacau tido sakk.

and so since me and sis couldnt get back to sleep, we decided to go buy paint to paint her room. and tell you the truth, it has been like soo many many millions lightsabre years that i go for breakfast in the morning. sunday morning sumore.

ewah, kecoh!

and at 10am, the coffeshop like so kaninaputput many people lah. and i ate nasi lemak with begedil, chicken wings, egg and fishcake. habis dokk. fuyoooh.. mengancam kalbu jiwe dan sanubari. dah lame tak makan pagi, so kirekan mcm payback ah. hahas.

and then after that proceed to paint shop. uncle like so excited to see us. i think maybe first customer. and for every colour that we were contemplating to buy, he would say that its an excellent choice.

pe je. kalau aku pileh hitam untok rumah pon excellent ke?

'then skali lalu infront of bubble tea shop. so we sat there awhile and bought drinks. and theres this cat. and sis is scared of cats. more of like phobia. and when the cat came to me to be stroked and scratched, she quickly ran and hid behind a pillar with the occasional stomping of foot and "shuh!shuh!".

dalam hati aku si kucing ni pon agaknyer malas nak layan. aku rase dier ingatkan kakak aku ni beruang kental. hahahs.

ang ohkay, i ofcourse had to carry that 7litre heavy tin of paint and walk for like what?, 500m?ewah, 500 pon tetap jaoh tau. dahlah bende tu berat. and sis stakat angkat a 1litre tin of paint untok paint the door gate.

tsk tsk tsk.

tak patot.tak patot.

sampai je rumah, dier lincah kadok cat bilek dier. ewah, haritu time nak cat hall ade sikitnyer pemalas.

tsk tsk tsk.

tak patot.tak patot.

THE DAY AFTER

2007-07-07T20:13:00.000+08:00

i was ready for the outcome of what happened yesterday. afterall, i had already talked about it with fard.
and as usual i bloghopped.
i went to shaks and aizat's blog.

and i've come to realize that my alter side must take over for us to succeed.

and somehow i wished they would read this.

bukannyer aku marah sebab korang tak datang. sebab the day before time aku tanyer pasal friday sume cakap ok. and even as tak bilang aku yang dier nak pi tengok movie. and then on friday itself no one told me whos coming and whos not. so time aku otw aku call haddad, dier cakap dier kat commonwealth, and that izzati and abdillah maybe reached school already.

then aku call jeff, jeff cakap dier kat marina and that dier cakap dier tak datang. so ok, atleast dier bilang.

then aku call nadiah. dier kat rumah hadi and she also told me she is not going to come.

then aku call aizat afew times dier tak angkat. aku call aisyah tak angkat. aku call nisya off. then aku call shak dier pon tak angkat.

you see, aku satu orang nak kene call sumer orang tanyer one by one.

but atleast shak sms aku bilang tak datang. so kirekan pade aku dah ok, atleast dier inform.

and then dah jumpe haddad at fc3, aizat call haddad. waah, sape tak boring seh. aku try call taknak angkat. abestu bukannyer nak call balik.

jangan takotlah, aku tak makan orang.. just be frank kan lagi senang, tak payah nak avoid avoid ni sumer.

and you guys were not there to see how disappointed haddad and izzati were. and this was not the first time it happened tau.

so all the while i was thinking that as was in school cause when we sms-ed she mentioned nothing about movie and so aku ingatkan nak tunggu dier habis class kol 6..

and then shak call bilang budak year one's tengah tunggu kat T11a. so ok, aku pon pi T11a jumpe yearones and fard.

cause i thought no year ones wanted to come.

ok so atleast ade budak yearones.

aku rase dah belambak word "atleast" aku pakai.
and then apparently T11a budak silat dah pakai. so takde tempat.
and it was a mad scramble to find a place.
budak budak pon naik boring.

and at 647pm as sms cakap dier baru nak abes tengok wayang.
aku rase mcm tipah tertipu.
all the while aku ingatkan dier kat skolah, held up in class or something.

and proposal for mzk3 and proposal for rooms were supposed to be finished by friday.
aku sanggop tido pukol 5 pagi just to plan out rehearsal schedules . sumer aku dah buat. room proposals aku dah type all the rooms. tinggal nak mintak feedback korang jer.

and aku ingatkan kiter boleh habiskan budget mzk3. tapi sumer takde. so mcm mane nak habiskan? biler tak habis sumer complain lembap.

imagine in one day i had to solve so many things.
but luckily fard was there, kalau tak aku rase aku dah tinggalkan dorang bulat bulat.

and kenape aku yang kene explain ngan dorang mane korang korang sumer? ingat aku tak malu ke kawan kawan aku macam gini. sampai cubs pn tanyer apesal ade due orang je.

and please, dont divide us into north south east west.
kiter bukan GRC.
we are one.satu.une.yi.
and we already have so many problems to handle at the moment.

Older lions tak pernah ajar kiter macam gini.

its all terpulang pade diri kite sendiri. kalau gini je dah lemau, apelagi part mzk3?
please, our batch only 15 people, nak tarik diri?

everyone feels the pressure. its up to you whether you want to fall prey to it or you want to triump over it.

FODS[[POMYRD.

2007-07-07T04:03:00.000+08:00

oh, budak year ones came for the workshop.

and nana didnt mind getting scolded from her parents cause she wanted to come for the workshop.

her curfew was at 7.

we ended at 9.

isnt that wonderful?

enduring anything for the sake of passion.

and afterthat i, fard, izzati, zalina, haddad, abdillah went to bukit timah to eat. zalinah's treat.

thanks zalinah.

and zalinah's vision always make me want to do more for SSP.

its not for me, its not for you.

its for SSP's future.

and thanks fard for the morning chat.

disappointed.

MENJEJAKI MEMORI..... SILL-AMMMMM

2007-07-05T15:34:00.000+08:00

" When I was a young boy,

my granfather took me into the mortuary,

to see dead people on the bench. "

Corny as it seems, that was how my deep interest for the Medical Biology started at the age of 9.

Yes, by watching blood soaked bodies on metal benches with faces so pale, till i am merely alike them. Too bad i didnt get to go into the operating room and see what grandpa did.

What a waste. Grandpa said I'm not old enough.

Tsk.

Ahh, and after the mortuary visits, off we go for morning breakfast.

Roti prata, one egg one kosong, soaked in gravy.

And after that off to NUS cause grandpa works as the lab animal curator there.

Rabbits, guinea pigs, mice. chicks.

Even chimpanzees.

I never knew they had those chimpanzees locked up in dark noiseproof rooms, in cold metal cages.

And I'll always be on the lookout for the 2 black rats. and granpa calls them the Police rats cause they apparently "patrols" and catch and kill any lab mice that went loose.

that one i admit, its soo corny, but i was 8 then and i believed everything. hahas.

oh and there was this room which has a huge glass box with an ahpek inside, fixed upright, floating in formaldehyde. he's completely naked, for students to see. and he's divided into two , one side completely normal, and the other having the skin removed so that you can see the muscles veins and whatknots.

cool kan? tapi kesian ahpek tu, takde orang claim the body thats why donated for study.

and then around 3, grandpa will patrol the medical library and i can see all sorts of stuff. like babies born with one eyes, their ears at their cheeks, four armed ones and whatknots.

mcm shiok gitu jalan jalan around the library looking at these babies in plastic containers.

and oh, he showed me once an ancient potrait of him and grannyKL with mum just afew months old. he locked it in his office drawer. ewah, untok kenangan sentimental kepe?

hahas.

and after NUS, off we go to the Singapore Muslim Casket at Kallang for his 3rd job.

There he'll be constructing papan long, drill here drill there while i paint the tombstones white.

hahah.

its much more than meets the eye. and i used to hate painting male tombstones cause theres this mosque-shaped-groove that is hard to reach.

and its $1 per tombstone.

from 4-6, i can paint atleast 50.

eh $50 dollars for a primary 3 boy is alot ok..

life was so good lah last time.

but now all those memories over time,

has lost little by little the great feelings that was attached to it.

______________________

Anyway i passed my CellBio test.

and i asked myself, " OK , SO? "

And i replied, " It doesnt mean anything already."

Just now went to see miss lee at her office to get some forms signed. and after that we had quite a long chat on which path i should take now.

yes, she is a good teacher.

and she said there's still hope lah.

i think so too.

somewhere

THE TWO LATE NIGHTS.

2007-07-02T01:12:00.000+08:00

It was such a great weekendlah.

Friday had meetups with the SSP V to discuss about muzikarama.

fuuyoooh. ALL turned up except for Fuad and Falina.

that was awesomelah to see that everyone is enthusiatic about it.

i dont know what happened to Falina, but Fuad sure sounded horny over the phone. takpe, moge moge kau cepat semboh.

nanti aku ubat dari jauh, if you know what i mean.

hahas.

then Izzati, Haddad and Zack was there so after the meeting we decided to watch a movie, so we decided to go to Cathay, but apparently all of us were busy chatting that we missed the stop. so decided to go to Cathay Cineleisure. but we forgot to press the bell at somerset busstop. hahahs.

so we zoomed to Lido instead. then called Jihad and Leila to meet us there.

TRANSFORMERS !
"cheekeet, cheekitt, cekiiiit" *does dinosaur-ish robotic moves*

WOOO. MAUTS PUNYER MOVIE !

abodhen, aku sanggup tahan kencing after halfanhour it started cause i didnt want to miss anything.

graphics, dier betol punyer power-mauwer punch. sumpah tak bohong.

then after movie Izzati went back and the guys lepak outside taka till about 5am we got shooed by the security guard.

then lepak at the stone bench and ewah, satu satu ngorok sakk.

ouh, baru aku tau Haddad nak kentut baru ader rituals. so the sopan. hahahs.

abestu skali bibik call. suro tolong granny.

alergh, leceh ah. so i called kakak tapi hp off. and i dont know my brothers' number cause i dont care. aiseh. so have to help out cause no one is helping. reach home at 750, wash face brush teeth, change and took cab to granny's shop.

sampai je punyerlah belambak orang. and granny tried to make me feel so appreciated by saying,

"NASIB BAIK KAU DATANG, KALAU TAK MATILAH MAK SORANG NGAN NEKYAH KAU JE."

ewah, kecoh sampai nak mati mati ni sumer..

and aku buat keje ngan mate separoh bukak. so prasan dah letak pinggan atas meje padahal takde meje. so biler lepaskan pinggan, pinggan jatuh kat kaki ngan kuah lontong yg maha panas melecor. akibat terperanjat kaki meleco, aku pon teros mcm ade jerk reflex dan the stupid thing was that aku pi jerk kedepan so kening terhentak besi. dah lame baru prasan yg rupernyer kening aku berdarah.

hahahs. kental buat lemon.

then after work, went home supposedly go straight away meet Haddad and Jeff to go to Aksara. actual plan meet 230pm. but ended up meet at 730pm.

then after that decided to go for makan. and then we we walking when we heard this booming sounds. adeke Haddad ingatkan orang ngah silat.

skali rupernyer kedai jual djembe.

looked thru the stuffs and we joined the people playing outside.

oo kecoh ah.

cool cool.

actually aku nak belajar main tapi malu.

huahskhuakhusas.

then the ahpek ajak main the big drums.

the one macam japanese taiko drums.

ewah, main ketiak lengoh sakk.

and jeff aja main sikit.

bolehlah.

ouh, so the shop is new and apparently he said that those people playing are close acquaintances.

ya hro.

first time aku nampak nyonya main djembe.

due nyonya plaktuh.

hahas

kecoh, kecoh.

then we helped them pack up and the ahpek asked us to join him again next sat.

major coolness.

jeff nak pi lagik tapi aku maha pemalu lah biler part part gini.

hahs. then we went to go find someplace to eat and stumbled upon this shop.nor sure if its new but the taukeh there kept asking if the food is nice or not.

anyway it do seem like a new shop.

the food, was FAB.

the laksa is a must try dokk.

melayu style of laksa. bukan ching-chong type that you commonly get nowadays.

jeff had nasi pattaya and haddad had some pineapple rice thinging.

shiok ah. makan kenyang sampai aku sedawe kuah lakse naik balik.

hahas. in the end tekak perit sebab pedah.

ewah, kecoh.

and haddad, kenapelah kau suke pasrah?

ahahs.

he got cheated twice, one about Acap and the other was about something i cant remember.

hahas.

but it was kelakar mauts ah.

abeh haddad balik taknak salam aku.

reach heart siak.

abeh aku ngan jeff missed the bus. so decided to hail a taxi tapi sumer on call.

PUKIMEKK, PERANGAI SAKK SUMER CABBIES.

SUMER MACAM DAH DISCUSS.

NAMPAKSAH SENGAJE TUNGGU ORANG CALL.

WHAT AN ASSHOLE.

so kiter naik NR7 pi somerset then tuka to NR5.

ewah, betol betol stop kat busstop jeff ngan busstop aku.

*kening naik-naik*

k lain kali boleh buat lagi.

dah k ah. nak tido besok skulah.

amin.

ewah, kecoh! panjang maut akupunyer entry.

Good & Bad Points Rolled Into One

2007-06-29T01:39:00.000+08:00

Fuck HTML.
actually no.
Fuck this skin.

cause apparently i still cant make this text area bigger even after i edited all the numerals that i can find in the HTML. so crampy siak.
tapi mauts.
ah, pasallah.

and ouh Tuhan, ampunilah hambemu ini kerane telah membunuh seekor kumbang coklat dengan membakarnyer dengan lighter. sebab dier terbang ashek nak hinggap dekat kaki hambe. so hambe binget hambe sehpak dengan newspaper dan bakar ianyer hidop hidop mase ia sedang terbaring telentang.amin.

anyway, cell bio test was hell lah. no mcq like last semester.
ish, soo-un betol.
enggak mengape, lain kali buat mauts punyer.

and organic chem lab didnt do experiment. just construct some atomic models and draw it out.
waste karen. sat there for 20mins and i went home.

after sch lepak at FC3 first before I jeff mira and afiq went to FC2 to meet Fatt.waah, dah besar seh Fatt. dah 18tahun jangan terkencing atas kerusi macam mase dulu PAP sudah.

ouh, waited for Malay students to end their class before I jeff as mira and fard went to HollandV jalan jalan. end up at CoffeeBean binget pasal kerusi empok. hahas. then we played this guessing game before we opened up and say all of our good and bad points.
hmmm.

"You can always make things go your way."

and apparently that falls into both. at first i didnt understand. but now i know.
ahh.. thats something that i didnt know..
eh cool.
besok buat lagik.
so that we know where each of us stands, if you know what i mean..

Cant wait for tomorrow. woooppiiiddoooo.
IDF-brainstorming tomorrow.
*kening naik naik*